Crazy Cat Lady Chapter 3 - A New Beginning

MeandO

Your description of how you’re feeling at the moment is a mirror image of myself CCL. If I didn’t know better, i’d say you’d written it about me! From the weight, to the aches and pains and cramps and even hormones affecting you more. I can really sympathise, it’s all hit me so suddenly since turning 40 this year. Perhaps we should both get ourselves to the docs and get a bit of an MOT. it’s not nice this getting old malarkey, is it?!

Hope you all have better sleep tonight. Xx

crazy_cat_lady

Funny thing is MeandO - I got a message from the docs a couple of months ago offering me a free over 40's health check. Haven't attempted to get an appointment for that yet, but bearing in mind I can't get an appointment for anything else there, ever, I won't hold my breath. Much of it is unfortunately self inflicted and I know what I need to be doing but I can't seem to put myself high enough up the priority list to get it done. I always think 'if only I liked cooking and exercise' and I reckon if I didn't have to prep my own food I'd be happily slim by now, but it's all just excuses. Truth is that I just don't like myself very much - it's a long and boring story that stems back to my own childhood experiences and the messages I was programmed with. I've worked very hard on it, but my b I t c h voice has taken over everything that my dad used to tell me and once I'm busy (which is most of the time) I can't be bothered to even try and look after myself any more because it doesn't feel important enough. Ah well... Small steps and all that.
Slept better last night so the evidence suggests that a bit of activity = a better night of sleep so we will have to do that again today. Even ds agrees. Weather isn't as good today but we will make sure we are out walking for at least half an hour. Maybe spotting more Elmers or maybe a walk round our nature reserve locally. I still don't feel great mentally - haven't seen bestie for 5 weeks and we just can't seem to arrange time together which has now spiralled into all sorts of negative thoughts (thanks anxiety) but I am at least doing this. Also tracked my food yesterday and whilst it wasn't great it wasn't awful either. Maintain this effort for now and then add something to it...
A few bits to do today - I need to get on and buy some birthday cards for people (both kids and bestie before the end of the month) and I still need vinegar so may have to head into town at some point. Also going to see my mam for our fortnightly catch up.
Also I have finished watching OITNB so am on the look out for a new box set - as soon as I've caught up with this week's bake off

Buffythedebtslayer

I keep meaning to say, try an epsom salt bath before bed. They make me sleep like the dead.

I wish I could speak to you instead of typing. I whatapp my friends all the time and we don't see each other for weeks. I know what you mean tho, the lack of actual contact does play on my mind.

I am going to watch Temple on Sky next got no idea what it is about but the magic box downloaded it so there you go!

make sure today you have some nice food.

Big love XXXX

f0xh0les

Yay! peri-menopause over here too! Hot flushes and night sweats! combined with insomnia and forgetfulness! Whoo hoo! What on earth is this all about? I thought, I had it for about 4 months, then it went away. No more waking up feeling like I had been steamrollered in my sleep! Very odd, but it has bug-gered off. 3 months now with hardly a symptom. It can jolly well stay away as far as I am concerned. Suppose that is why it is peri- (I am 45).

Just keep on going ccl. Not long until half term. Have you anything planned yet?

crazy_cat_lady

Just heading off to bed before another busy work week gets going. I appreciate the optimism f0xh0les but I still have 5 weeks until half term, so its not feeling very close at the moment. Good news is that the school open evening is done and dusted for another year so I haven't got that to stress about. I do have to stress about what school I'm applying to for ds next year though. It was always a no brainer to send him to the same place as his sister but the school has really started spiralling downhill over the past year or so. I don't know if it will be the best place for him educationally - but the alternative is my school and I don't know if that will be the best place for him personally with me there, and so far from home. I'm going to look at a few other schools - I suspect he'll go where his sister is and I'll pick up any gaps in the education using my friends and colleagues.
It was nice to see my mam and sister today - some adult company and relaxation. I am a little worried about my mam - she's not her usual self. I can't put my finger exactly on it, and it's not a huge worry but there's something not quite right. I don't know if it's as we've both gotten older, or if it's my current mood or us being from different generations... she suggested I eat more bananas as that would help with my depression - which I don't have. My sister picked up on it too.
After that, I dropped dd off at home and ds and I went into Sunderland for our daily walk and to finally get the vinegar. We also did more Elmer spotting, and got dd some socks and ds a hoodie that he's going to need for winter - just from Primarni thankfully. We ended up being out longer than I thought, but parked far out from the shops and walked in and back out. Good for the exercise and mental health but I couldn't be bothered to do the chutney when I finally got home. Did the essential tidying up ready for my cleaner coming tomorrow, finished the washing and did a couple of rounds of crochet. The chutney will need to be done soon as there are fresh veggies in to make it but I'll think more about that tomorrow. See if I can be bothered tomorrow night after work.

crazy_cat_lady

Ugh.... OFSTED. We've only been back a fortnight. (Need the eyeroll emoji)
I worked until 6 tonight and didn't think I had anything to do - I just got carried away with everyone else's panic. Plus the Head provided pizza so it would have been rude not to.
They are focusing in English, maths and science tomorrow so we will be under some scrutiny but hopefully we should be ok. We're working hard to get there.
So I shall see you on the other side - either tomorrow or Wednesday depending on whether I think I'm done tomorrow.

Honeysucklelou2

Remember your amazing data and hold your head high! Thinking of you...

joeyjimbles

Fingers crossed, you have achieved so much with your area that I'm sure you will see that reflected in the report.

wishingthemortgaheaway

So much more focus now on what you are teaching and why. The data is a tool, but should not be a priority. Inspire your young people and all will be well.

Good luck. See you on the other side.

swfcfan

We had them last week! Nightmare at the start of term but at least it gets it out of the way. Didn’t care one jot about the data but was all about the learner journey and thus very relaxed in terms of past ofsted workloads! Good luck you’ll smash it!