diary of strugglin working mum

wantabetterlife

Hi BG, i really hope the future is bright for u and the wee one. Good move about the changing the looks. I have a feeling you havent heard the last of him. How are things on the saving/ DFW front?

the_drifter

you will feel drained. The past few months will have been slowly eating away at you and now it is over, all the emotions will come flooding out. You are lucky you have DS. But he will feel the emotions and is unlikely to say anything.

I hope God gives you strength because it is never easy though you will feel like you have been set free.

CarolynH

Well done Bartgirl! Welcome to the rest of your life. Don't be afraid just to take it a day/ hour/ minute at a time. You'll get there.

rkirstjm

This is the start of your new life for you and your son. Take it a day at a time nobody said it would be easy, just remember when you need a shoulder to cry on you know where some great friends are. Thanks for keeping us posted.

BartGirl

Hi everyone

I just wanted to thank you all for your kind words. Am still tossing and turning in bed at night..but am shattered today so shall turn in any minute now.
GFN turned up unexpectedly to get some of his bits this morning. DS was all over him bless him - asking where he'd been etc
I was shaking / trembling uncontrollably - which shocked me - I dont know why ? But I stayed out of his way and let him get on with it.
Poor lil DS though was dragging out all sorts of toys trying to convince GFN to stay and play with him - the sight was gut-wrenching..
Am still feeling worn out and shattered but hanging in there..

Ellidee

More hugs Bartgirl - maybe you were shaking etc because you weren't sure how GFN would behave - especially when he realised you have changed the locks ? Good that you are hanging in there -stay strong and please remember to be kind to yourself. Lots of support on here for you honey. XX

dizzyb99_2

Hi Bartgirl,
I've been lurking on your thread for about 6 months now and am amazed at your strength and tenacity. It's not surprising you feel so wiped out after all you've been through. Hang in there it will get better.

Mollymop5

BartGirl I've been away with the kids for half term.thank you for your PM.
I understand the wrench and the heartache.I cried for weeks after my split and it was me who left him.You're crying and grieving because that was your life.please don't feel a failure.you need to take one day at a time.try to remember how relaxed and happy you felt when GFN went away on holiday.you has a fab time.this is what it will be like all the time.It may take weeks, it may take months but things will get better and you will become so much happier.Focus on your DS.Keep giving him the cuddles as much for your benefit as his.I'm here if you want to let off steam in private.take Care

dinkytwostep

"Poor lil DS though was dragging out all sorts of toys trying to convince GFN to stay and play with him - the sight was gut-wrenching.."

Hello BartGirl. When my ex left me I was distraught and my 3 year old daughter was also upset.... It made me feel worse until one day she said "mummy I feel sad 'cos you're sad that Daddy's left.. i want to make it better". She didn't particularly mind that her Dad had gone - she was just upset because I was (she was so used to him not being there it didn't really fizz on her). She did like your DS has been doing - brought out her toys, etc but it was the only way she could think of to make me 'better'.... bless her.

You're doing brilliantly. It's hard work coping after a split - but you've had it harder for the last couple of years.

DTS

JRRD

I haven't been on the site for a while so have only just read your updates.
Like others, I felt pleased for you, whilst mindful that you are not pleased with the situation you find yourself in.

I hope you find it a positive thing, not a negative thing in the future.
Then I had a good sob at all the lovely comments people made, and who wouldn't be moved by your comments about your son.

You are without doubt a very strong, loving woman and I have no doubt you will come through this stronger, in your own time.

What a lucky little boy he is, to have you, to fill his life with love and confidence.

Onwards and upwards !

JRRD