The Illuminative Project.

monz

Thats good having mini targets for yourself xx

Chandelier.

So I've a quick five minutes before I crack on with the rest of my day..

I've been and bought all upcoming Christmas cards/birthday cards that we require for close family and friends. It came to around £10.00 but that should be it for now regarding cards. Others we sent to can have a normal Christmas card. I know alot of people don't send them anymore but I still like them. It makes me smile to receive cards off people for any occasion.

I also nipped into Ic3land where I picked a few bits up and managed to spend around £20. £7 on Christmas gifts and the rest on food.

I'm about to go back out in a second. It's raining and very dull. Not very exciting.

When I get home later I shall make myself some lunch and write out the Christmas cards. If I have time I'll finish wrapping the Christmas presents.

I'm pondering whether to go late night Christmas shopping tonight to finish off getting the rest.

I'm also going to write up a to do list whilst having my hair done. Hopefully I can take this time to figure out what needs doing and formulate a plan.

To those reading, have a great day!

Chandelier.

Morning,

The other day I didn't go Christmas shopping of the evening. I'm doing the rest today and hoping that I can get it all done and out the way.

I've been a bit up and down the past couple of days. I can't find something that is valuable to me and I've literally turned the house upside down. It holds memories of 6 years plus. I feel pretty sad and stressed over it.

So far this morning we've been to football. We've got some homework to complete then we'll head off to town. Tonight the boy is off to a pantomime with his dad's side of the family. I'll use the time this evening to finish off getting organised re Christmas. I've a list of things I need to get and will stick to this.

So far into my new meds regime I've been titrating it up. I feel very tired and have a couple of side effects, worse being a dry mouth. I can cope with that though.

Next week is looking to be busy in regards to appointments again. I feel like it's never ending.

Tonight is my works Christmas party. I'm not attending though due to circumstances. I don't think I'd be able to cope with it that well. I feel quite sad but it just would not be right to attend due to current issues. Hopefully my silver lining will show soon.

I hope everyone has a good weekend.

Chandelier.

My plan today:-

- Finish Christmas shopping. I need to pick up a football kit, slippers, pyjamas, hairbrush set etc. I also need something for the boy's dad for Christmas.
- Wrap all presents and hide away.
- Write Christmas cards/birthday cards.
- Sort out all kitchen cupboards/freezers. Defrost one freezer and make intinary of what we have.
- Take a long soak in the bath and relax.
- Start reading a book.

Cheeseface

It sounds like a good alternative plan to the party. What's your book?

Chandelier.

I've no idea Cheeseface, I haven't got that far yet

Christmas shopping completed. The rest just needs wrapping now. And cards need to be wrote out.

I'm exhausted though. I still can't find what I'm looking for. That reminds me the song ha ha

Bobarella

I really hope you find the item you have lost very soon.

Chandelier.

What a miserable Monday..

I slept in until 10am this morning. That's a record for me. I guess it's part of the side effects of new medication.

Not much has been happening here on the debt front. With being cut to SSP, I'm all aware of my spending.

I've pretty much finished my Christmas shopping and wrapped it all. I have one more item to buy for my mum (a decent hairbrush set) and a small token present for my best friend.

I still need to write my Christmas cards. I also need to scan and email my sick note.

I've had a lazy day so far.. I've had a long soak in the bath to try and chill out and I've pampered myself. I feel a lot more relaxed now. I'm about to start guttering and deep cleaning the kitchen.

Still no sight of lost item, I really am gutted.

Yesterday I defrosted two freezers and fridge and gave them a good clean out. This is one of my favourite jobs to do. I don't know why.

I'm possibly meeting an old friend tonight. One whom I have history with. He's coming to collect some of his stuff he left here. We may go for a meal and a catch up, who knows. I feel pleasantly calm about it all. We've both moved on in our lives. He has a girlfriend now whom he's very happy with and I'm happy for him. Myself, well I plod along and I'm slowly learning to love myself and until I'm better and more stable I'm happy to be single. He was the one person whom really got to me back then and I'd never felt anything like it. We were both roller-coasters racing against one another, except I crashed. It's taken me a long while to get to this place but I've had lots of time to go through the emotions. I'm not sure whether it's the right thing to do but I need rid of these things and closure on that aspect of my life.

Not much else to report. I need to get a move on.

Cheeseface

I really hope that your lost item turns up soon. I have losing anything, even if its unimportant. I think that's the control freak in me.

I hope that you had a nice time last night.

monz

Hope last night went ok xx