Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 3

calleyw

Hello my lovelies,

squishes and hugs and handshakes all round for everyone.

Everything has been calm for a while and I have been managing. Hence not being around for a while.

But today I have the dreaded sense of impending doom that I can't shake and that I am waste of space and horrible, fat and ugly and anything else you can think in my head.

Still in my dressing gown not showered or taken the dog out. Feeling a big fat failure. Had a lovely weekend so nothing there. Think this is due to going back to sleep after AM left for work and not waking up again until 11am.

Penguin about eating

All I want to do is go and get food and binge. AM is no here for tea so need to cook so can do what I want.

Penguin end

Just don't understand why I get like this. Its just beyond me.

Everyone have a good day.

Take care.

Yours

Calley X

Waves_and_Smiles

Hi all, still here! Welcome AO, I am the Queen of rumination, I spend every night hanging myself for my past. I also understand about social difficulties, I remember one occasion when I got into so much of a panic that not only couldn't I speak at all, I couldn't scratch my nose. It was itchy and my arms felt paralysed, I couldn't reach up. I stared at a wall and felt utterly frozen, my body just wouldn't work.

Big hugs Calley, you will never be a failure to me. You have done so well lately and there will be down times too and that is ok, as long as you get up again that is what counts. I am proud to call you my friend.

Hang in there Penitent, the dissociation should go a few weeks after the decorating is done. I do that too when I have people around and it usually takes a while for my mind to get out of panic mode. You have done so well to get this far, you are in the home stretch now.

As for me, best not ask. I am fighting psychosis right now after a trigger. I will post about it but I can't get it straight in my head yet to see it clearly.

mellymoo74

Cal
Why didn't you say silly, support goes both ways
WaS thought you were quiet

Just been loving pickles
About to go into dogs and thanks to a tramadol diazepan mix should pass out

Supposed to have tomorrow off
Painting and clearing though (if I do actually get a break from the hosputal)

calleyw

mellymoo74 wrote: »

Cal
Why didn't you say silly, support goes both ways

I was ok until I got up and then it just seem to go to hell in handbasket LOL!!!

Much better now thanks.

Yours

Calley X

jobbingmusician

Calley - there are lots of people on here who love you and support you xxxx Be body positive!

WaS - lovely to see you back. I do hope the psychosis lifts soon xxxx ((()))

Pentitent - hope you have your own space again now xxxx

Duke - how are things with you and your family? Hope all is well xxxx

AO - here's to loads of 'good days' and to sharing problems with your partner whenever you can (all of you, when you have one) and/or to having good friends to share with. Which is one of the reasons this thread is so great. xxx

melly - how is OH? Are you remembering to eat? xxx

deskaspace - it does sound as if it doesn't matter very much WHERE you live. Can you enjoy your own company at all? What do you enjoy doing? Is there anything you'd like to do, or is EVERYTHING a bit 'meh'? Are you getting any help for your depression/possible PTSD? xxxx

Faerie - how are things going? xxxx

Izadora - I have lost track of the date but it must be very soon! Excited for you! Xxxx

iammumtoone - how’s your son? How are you? How’s things? xxxx

HBS - hope you are well and thriving xxxx

*waves to tuna* - hope things are good with you too xxxx

Pyxis - lovely lovely lovely to hear from you! xxxx

Elsien - how is work? Fingers crossed things are working out. I'm sure even if they don't you will be snapped up and able to negotiate some nice T & C.... xxxx

polly - thank you so much for your very helpful posts! xxxx

ono - how are you? How is life now you are less involved with your hobby? Hope things are good xxxx

elona – don’t feel you have to post, just wanted to say hello :hello: xxxx

MU - how is work? How is life? Xxxx

SDW – are your legs still calm? Fingers crossed… xxxx

whitewing – thank you for being so wise and reassuring sometimes! [FONT=&quot]�� xxxx[/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]solarjunkie – hope all is well with you and yours xxxx[/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]tensandunits – are you still there? Lovely to hear from you xxxx[/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]Gingernutty – are you well again? All traces of woo woo gone? Here’s hoping xxxx[/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]Lambyr – how are things going with your mum? Here’s hoping you are bearing up xxxx[/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]tea lover – how are you? How’s work? Xxxx[/FONT]
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[FONT=&quot]Hope I haven’t forgotten anyone! Lots of squishes to all who need them and regards to all the hummingbirds![/FONT]

heartbreak_star

Ahhh JM what a lovely post!

I am not too bad at all bar a cold. The cheerio lovelies did us all proud at the weekend so that's nice, and I have a job interview later. Yikes!

HBS x

jobbingmusician

Good luck with the interview! xxx

heartbreak_star

jobbingmusician wrote: »

Good luck with the interview! xxx

Thank you! I am prepared but nervous.

Hope life is good for you at the moment.

HBS x

mellymoo74

Good luck HBS

calleyw

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

Big hugs Calley, you will never be a failure to me. You have done so well lately and there will be down times too and that is ok, as long as you get up again that is what counts. I am proud to call you my friend.

Thank you very much WaS you are very kind.

Hope you are feeling a bit better.

Yours


Calley X