Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 3

Waves_and_Smiles

Eeeeeep! Hard one code! Would the money make it more bearable keeping in mind the job has really caused you a lot of anxiety? Have you tried listing the two jobs side by side and seeing which has the most advantages and disadvantages? One thing this does show is your present job do think you are doing well, they wouldn't offer that if they thought it wasn't working out. Does that change how you feel about the job at all?

codemonkey

I am struggling. I do hate the job but I am also aware that the job I'm going back to isn't perfect either. £5k would make a difference to our quality of life, but I'm not sure if it's worth the risk to my mental health.

Gingernutty

You hate the job so much that you applied to see if the old one was still available. Sorry Code, but that speaks volumes.

Today wasn't good. Floored by the cold for two weeks, I missed the Maths classes. Last week was half term so tonight, I showed up at college to find it closed.

Yup. Half term this week. I missed three weeks in a row. The trouble is, I could have sworn thst I had correctly copied down the dates for term, Easter and half term correctly. When I checked again, they had all changed. I've more than likely copied down the dates for the last academic year.

If I had known, I could have spent a couple of hours in the garden of tbe rented house. I bought some bulbs and it's been that long ago, they're sprouting.

I need to get them in the ground but tbe weather's been against me, it's too dark, too cold or I've got more pressing stuff to do (house refurbishment, work etc). These past few days, there have been a couple of hours from finishing work to sunset. That's all I need.

Maybe tomorrow. But I'm kicking myself over those dates. Dyslexia strikes again.:(

Izadora

Gingernutty wrote: »

You hate the job so much that you applied to see if the old one was still available. Sorry Code, but that speaks volumes.

That was exactly my thought too. I know that £10k a year makes a massive difference financially but is it worth the cost to your health?

I think assurances that you'd get proper access to the systems you need and that they can be more accommodating with your pain would be far more valuable than an extra £5k.

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

I am never going to be like everyone else no matter how much I try, he did say though that I can be something different and that isn't a bad thing at all.

That is such a lovely way to describe you.

codemonkey

WaS, why would you want to be like everyone else anyway. That's boring. I think most of us on this thread are outsiders in some way and that unites us in a way. For example, if I were to dress like everyone else in the office, I'd be in a black suit dress, or trousers and a shirt and black heels. Today I am wearing a black 50s style dress with bright sunflowers on it and a bright red cardigan, because that makes me happy. You do you because you are awesome.

I spoke to Mr CP about it, slept on it and have decided to resign and go back to the old place. I might regret it when I get my paycheck but I have been so miserable over the last 5 months and so desperate to get out of there and all the extra pay will do is handcuff me to a career path I don't want to be on. I just don't want any more major decisions for a while because I can't trust my judgement at the moment. Damn anxiety!

codemonkey

Thanks Lambyr. It does help. My complete inability to adult on this one seems so dumb. If anyone came to me with this dilemma I'd probably say 'Boo hoo. Everyone wants you. What are you whining about?' In fact, Mr CP said it last night when we were discussing it.

The truth is, I've never really had to decide before. Normally I just took the first job offered to me and I knew when it was time to move on. But now I'm established in a 'career', I feel like I should be making the correct moves. This particular one has been a misstep and it's going to cost me, because if I'd stayed, I'd probably have got the promotion and I've lost my long service (and the extra holidays I would have qualified for in a year) and have to start again.

Still, I guess it means I'm good at what I do, or at leaat show the appearance of it.

Sigh.

onomatopoeia99

codemonkey wrote: »

I do hate the job

That would pretty much make the decision for me.

Jlawson118

Late 2015 I got with a girl who became to mean the world to me. She made me feel so happy and confident and everything was going perfectly. Then I discovered her mother was manipulative and was destroying her daughter's life but she stuck by her family more than me, who'd stuck by her throughout all of the hurt and pain, despite her emotionally hurting me without realising it.

We agreed just after new year this year, that it would be better if we stayed friends, I agreed. But now I'm missing her. She wants to spend time with me quite a bit but I'm at a point where I'm pretty much keeping myself to myself, I'm just so down thinking about everything that happened last year.

Yet I've kind of met another girl now, everyone sees that she's all over me and seems interested in me, and I'll admit that I'm starting to crush on her, but my head tells me to do it and my heart tells me it's too soon. But I don't want to lead her on and hurt her if in reality I don't want to be with her or in a relationship. But I don't also want to waste time if she could be the one. I feel like I want to be independent and sort of be on my own and enjoy time to myself, but I also hate being lonely and I don't want to end up like that full time.

And then relationships aside, I was so excited about starting a new job, close to home, really good money and on my first two nights I was getting bullied by the management. This eased off for the rest of the week, and then on Monday, due to their outdated equipment and lack of assistance, I was injured where the management just laughed and shrugged their shoulders. Nothing is broken but there's tissue damage there, I've been off sick for two days now and I think it's time I resigned. But I've made new financial commitments since I started working in various jobs over the past year and now I'm back to being unemployed. Well a student as well but being solely a student doesn't bring in much of an income. I'm just hoping I can find something better..

calleyw

Evening my lovelies,

Hugs and squishes and handshakes all round.

Well more stuff in the house last night :rotfl:

Anyway not what sure what just happened. decided to put a dvd in to my laptop to install something. well did not go well. Re-booted the machine and tried again ummmm. Open the disk drawer again and there was two dvds in there :eek: WTH!!!!! it was not in there when I put the dvd in. My laptop is eating dvds :rotfl:

Code your MH is worth far more than £5K you can't put a price on it.

AM is cooking tea. Its only bacon sandwiches. Think he can be trusted to with it :rotfl:

Enjoy your evening

Yours

Calley X

onomatopoeia99

Did you manage to choose between your competing offers code?

My work is a bit like wading through treacle at the moment, partly due to the nature of it (but unavoidable unfortunately, a problem comes in, I have to try to deal with it, no matter how frustrating it is) and partly due to feeling like I haven't slept properly yet this month. Still, I'll get to the other side eventually an on to something more interesting (I hope!)

Special hello to those that haven't posted in a while