Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 3

elsien

I'm shopping. I am either going to lose the will to live, or kill someone.
Am also at the point where I'll buy anything just so I can go home.
This is when I miss my shifts, when I have to do things at weekends.

onomatopoeia99

Know what you mean elsien, I've run out of tea bags and am waiting for past 6pm before I go anywhere near the supermarket. At this time of year it's going to be chaos at the moment.

codemonkey

I went to the supermarket for a few bits this morning and it was already nuts. The aim for this weekend is to get the tree up, make my festive tree decorations and outdoor lanterns, make the teacup candles and get rid of all the boxes lying around. Can't do decorations today as the tree is in the attic, and I need Mr CP to bring it down as it's too heavy for me to lift but he's in bed with a raging hangover.
So today I'll be messing around with scrabble tiles, a glue gun and snow paint. What could possibly go wrong? :rotfl:

onomatopoeia99

Lesson for self, don't move the old inkjet printer because it has leaked magenta ink everywhere. Fortuntely the carpet is burgundy so it doesn't show up!

Offending printer is now in the wheelie bin :rotfl:

whitewing

I started Xmas early with a small glass of strong alcohol when we went to pick up littlewing from grandparents. Consequently I fell asleep in the Strictly final and missed the results!

Had a great sleep all evening and now can't sleep. I have done a lot of organising and household chores.

I am trying to decide if I can face tidying up littlewing's toys. She had a great time playing while I slept.

MIL has got some tiny angels on her xmas tree. They are really sweet. She has written the names of family on each angel so they are like guardian angels for us. She also gave DH some cash and told us to have a lovely xmas. It was unexpected as I know she has some presents for us anyway. I am very grateful.

DH wanted a particular book for xmas that he'd seen advertised. I sent off for it thinking that I would have a job even juggling funds around to get that for him. It arrived with a letter saying I didn't need to pay but just to enjoy it and make a donation to charity! What a wonderful surprise. We will donate to a homeless charity in honour of AA Gill as I read an article of his a few Christmasses ago about a homeless charity in London and the article was excellent.

I hope each of you is feeling brilliant and peaceful.

Torry_Quine

Hi all.

I just want to hibernate under the duvet and not come out until next year. I really don't like this time of year and if someone else says to me that Christmas is for children or how will you be when Loon is working I'm liable to say something I might not regret!

Penguin about church At my house group recently I mentioned how this was a difficult time of year for me and particularly this year. Without warning someone came over and said they would pray. I said no,i'm fine but they ignored me and even put a hand on me, I had to leave the room as I was already feeling emotional and close to tears. thankfully others agreed that it was wrong and the leaer is going to speak to them about it.

On a better note I forced myself to church today for the nativity and the children were brilliant. Few moments though of I will never be the proud mum.

End of penuin.

whitewing

(((Torry and everyone whether you need it or not)))

I am drinking horlicks from my Emma Bridgewater Horlicks mug. I am very pleased with the mug. It is a gorgeous shade of blue. I was going to give it to someone as part of an xmas present, but couldn't part with it!

Pyxis

Torry, penguin about Christmas For different reasons, this is also the worst time of the year for me. For the last few years I've been going away, mostly abroad, where it's far more understated, but this year, due to having had so much illness and less cash, I decided to try and brave it out. Not succeeding terribly well.

The worst thing is when people say "Have a a good Christmas" because I know I won't.

((((((((Torry))))))))) End Penguin

onomatopoeia99

Morning all. Short week for me as I've booked Thursday and Friday off Wednesday afternoon is the office Christmas meal so we all head off to a restaurant at lunchtime and stay there all afternoon - company pays

As I've mentioned before, my house is covered in woodchip wallpaper, walls and ceilings, except the ceilings that are artexed. I'm dealing with it a room at a time, but yesterday I moved the ceiling light fiting in the lounge (artex ceiling). When I took the old one down I discovered woodchip wallpaper underneath it - the previous owners have artexed the ceiling over woodchip wallpaper and left the light in place while they did it :eek:

I despair :rotfl:

tea_lover

(((torry))) it's difficult isn't it... one more "Christmas is for children" comment and I may turn violent.

Ok....it's been too long since the last epic instalment of "confessions of tea the stupid" so buckle up people..... you may need a brandy for this.... As ever, feel free to ignore this..... I need to write it down as cheap therapy

So obviously after the issues in August I took FOH back (because I am a raging idiot - this has been previously established). Things were going amazingly well for the last few months, genuinely never been better. No trust issues at all, lots of planning for the future, lots of great time together etc. I'd finally realised just how much of a wall I'd built up after all the previous years of rubbish, and realised that it was never going to work with that in place, so we'd properly talked about stuff and were both really committed to making things work (which they were). I was out with some friends on Friday night and spent a large part of the night telling one friend just how amazing things were, how we'd never been happier and so on. This person had previously been very honest with me about their reservations when we got back together (which I fully appreciated, and could totally see where they were coming from)... so it was lovely to have a conversation with them about how well everything had turned out.

Had a lovely day with FOH on Saturday - lunch, wander round a Christmas market, nice chilled afternoon. Then I went out with my parents and he went out with some mates. I usually get a drunk text or two but didn't hear anything, although that's not completely unusual so wasn't too bothered. I sent a quick hello before I went to church yesterday morning (just laughing at how bad his hangover was going to be).

Then things got weird, as I got a text from a relative saying that the last few times they've been to a friend of theirs house they've seen FOH in the same street. As far as this relative is concerned we split up nearly 2 years ago and haven't seen each other since all the police stuff a year ago. Although I did think they must have their suspicions that we were back together (there was no reason for them to tell me about seeing them otherwise - I know they see him in passing sometimes as he's told me.... it's a small town). The road where relative had been seeing him is the one where the woman from august lives...... which I'm sure no one will be surprised by.

He'd replied to my message at 11am, then didn't even leave her house until 12.30 (when relative saw him getting into a taxi). I rang him a few minutes later and asked where he'd stayed and he immediately said a male friend's house who lives on the other side of town. I then told him I'd been outside her house (bit of artistic licence there) and had seen him and he admitted he'd stayed there..... then the usual excuses of he was really drunk, he couldn't get a taxi, he'd just bumped into her in town and stayed on the sofa....blah blah......

Then it was onto the usual round of I'm sorry, I'm such an idiot, I was only talking to her because I felt sorry for her, I don't even like her.... I love you, I only want you... you know how it goes.

Reckons he's only been there round there as friends (but then has no answer for why he's been lying about it). Won't even admit that he was there the other week. I 100% trust the person that told me they saw him.

As ever, he has absolutely no excuse or reason for his behaviour. Stupid thing is, I do believe him that he was genuinely happy with me (I had many, many years when he was genuinely miserable with me, I know the difference).... and I do believe that's he's gutted he's been so stupid yet again. Although obviously that doesn't mean that I'm quite so stupid as to ever listen to another word he says. It's just so frustrating that he went to so much effort to get us back together, then when we were both really happy he pushes self-destruct yet again. He has no self-awareness of why he behaves likes this and I don't think he ever will have.

In some ways I could understand it more when things weren't great. Not excusing it of course, but I can see how people end up in that situation when things aren't great with the relationship. But to still behave that way when things are going so amazingly well.... that I really do not understand. We had a totally loved up Saturday, yet within a couple of hours he was with someone else. Why bother?

TL: DR gave FOH another chance, he spectacularly blew it yet again. I need a massive slap.