Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

Pyxis

mellymoo74

Ok quick one before I get my chorea done and go and comfort my friend.

Hoppy birdy (happy burpday) MU have a great day.
Welly hope escapette is better and your holding up ok.
Fairee glad you ate I still haven't and my weights down too scared to weigh myself but lost weight of arms as well now.

HA are claiming that having a ar driven at you, being called a white !!!!!, threats of being cut for grassing and him trying to kick my door in are a lifestyle clash.
They also want me to mediate (ha) and hand write out diary sheets when they have an online system I am using.

mellymoo74

Well done on ignoring the intrusive thoughts Calley!

calleyw

Morning my lovelies,

have in intrusive thoughts again and feel a sad and as if I want to cry.

I will stay away from my phone and do nothing stupid. I still have my ex's contact details on my phone and I will explain why. I am keeping any further texts. Just so I have proof. As he text me on tuesday to ask if I was ok. I will admit to phoning him on monday morning in a bit of state to ask him if he was going to a solicitor. He said see how it goes.

We have been down this route before where he says he never wants to see or hear from me again and then a few weeks later he is texting me again!!!!

My own fault for not putting boundaries in place a long long time ago. but I thought any contact was better than none and I just wanted him to like me. I know how sad. He does not want to change and moans about everything and everyone. Funny how at easter he !!!!!ed and moaned about his mother coming to stay for two days but now she is ill its all changed.

Any how. Stripped and re-made the bed. One load of washing on and another two waiting in the wings to be done. Chicken in the slow cooker for lunch.

Got to put my face on and then go and do a bit of food shopping for the freezer. And need to work out what to do for the best. Go back to work with the agency the week after next or what.

I am not sure I am ready to go back. But I am running out of ready money and will have to cash some more of stocks and shares ISA for money to pay the bills.

Hugs, squishes and handshakes to all that need them.

Catch you all later.

Yours

Calley

elona

melly

I sincerely hope they have been stupid enough to put that in writing.

Wish we could do something except wish better for both of you.

mellymoo74

Calley you can take a short term role see how you cope?
Less time to think if your out plus forced to spend time with people

mellymoo74

This Elona is why I only communicate in writing. ......
I have it in ana email

calleyw

mellymoo74 wrote: »

Fairee glad you ate I still haven't and my weights down too scared to weigh myself but lost weight of arms as well now.

HA are claiming that having a ar driven at you, being called a white !!!!!, threats of being cut for grassing and him trying to kick my door in are a lifestyle clash.
They also want me to mediate (ha) and hand write out diary sheets when they have an online system I am using.

Melly,

I know I have said this before I am so sorry that you and your husband are going through this.

Will you do me a massive favor and try and get a smoothie down you today. You need to keep yourself in as good as shape as possible to deal with this.

Are you able to record stuff on your phone? Either video or audio? As every time you enter and leave your property set the phone to record. Just an idea and might a really carp and silly one.

Please take care.

Yours

Calley

mellymoo74

I am worried for OH he's becoming paranoid and obviously the CBT isn't as effective as it could be cos he's getting worried about going out (new rituals)

Penguin
the sad news is the couple who moved into my MIL bungalow the man has died. I know the woman well and she called round last night and just sobbed at me. They have been married 47 years and she's been his carer 14. I promised to go round to take rose cuttings today (take her mind of it) she thinks the bungalow is cursed and knowing g my MIL it may well be so I'm feeling guilty

Pyxis

Calley, while you know he can still contact you, you will never be free.

Any contact at all is most certainly not better than none. It just keeps picking off the scab.

What would free you from this prison of waiting and hoping is to know that he can't contact you and you can't contact him. Delete his contact details and block his number, or better still, change your phone number.

That will make you free.........free from wondering if he will contact you, free from asking yourself if you should contact him, free from a destructive train of thoughts.

Be free, Calley!

Be free, and soar!