Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

Wellyboots6

Off to the doctors with escapette, she isn't a happy baby today

calleyw

Wellyboots6 wrote: »

Off to the doctors with escapette, she isn't a happy baby today

Welly try not to worry to much.

I hope she is feeling better soon.

You take care too.

Hugs/squishes/handshakes for you

Yours

Calley

elsien

A bit like this but without sleeves and with a lace layer over a shift. Not what I was after, as I didn't want black but as the only other thing I could find that fitted was £125, I just thought sod it, it'll do. Midi length so looks a bit more dressy and as I'm a shortarse it's a lot longer on me that in the picture. Hoping that with the right accessories it'll look dressy enough.

http://m.houseoffraser.co.uk/Izabel+London+Lace+Bodycon+Midi+Dress/224313485,default,pd.html

calleyw

elsien wrote: »

Like this but without sleeves. Not what I was after, as I didn't want black but as the only other thing I could find that fitted was £125, I just thought sod it, it'll do. Midi length so looks a bit more dressy and as I'm a shortarse it's a lot longer on me that in the picture. Hoping that with the right accessories it'll look dressy enough.

http://m.houseoffraser.co.uk/Izabel+London+Lace+Bodycon+Midi+Dress/224313485,default,pd.html

Very nice. Wish I could wear something like that. Not a pretty sight if I did.

Yours

Calley

elsien

The word bodycon would usually have me running screaming for the hills, but this one isn't stupidly clingy.

Welly, hoping it's something and nothing with escapette.

codemonkey

Well done Elsien and before noon too. Every girl needs an lbd in her wardrobe.

Welly - hope Escapette is ok.

I am more anxious than a man with a slingshot armed with a ballbearing aimed at his gentleman's area. We need work done on the house. I have engaged a man to do said work at a price lower than expected. Work will commence the week after next. This is work that has been put off for 5 years. It needs to be done and I will be happy when it is, but I hate the disruption to my routine and that my things will be disturbed and that my savings will deplete. But my house will feel better after it and it will be more like mine. Still stressy though.

Georgiegirl256

Lovely dress elsien, and what a bargain too!

Code, I hate having workmen in, and all the disruption that goes with it. It was a nightmare when we got the loft converted :eek: But worth it in the end. Hopefully your man won't be there that long and will cause the minimalist of disruption.

whitewing

Faerie,

Please be careful. We don't want you to be in so much pain.

Would a 136 section be so bad for you? Maybe that would force the issue of getting help. However, I DO NOT want you to voluntarily do anything that may lead to a section.

Who called the police, do you know?

What happens now? Does anyone follow up on you?

You can talk to us in the duvet fort, you know, when you feel so bad. (Maybe changing your font to white, after you have written Penguin, so other people won't be triggered. You haven't done anything wrong, is perfectly acceptable to post on this thread without whiting out your posts if you are in crisis, which you are).

Waves_and_Smiles

Hope escapette is ok now Welly. Give her a cuddle from me.

Love the dress, elsien!

Keep thinking how much happier you will be and how you can relax once the work is done, code.

Ok, Faerie please don't take this the wrong way, I am going to say something a little scary but it is something to consider. You don't have to do it at all, like whitewing I don't want you to do anything that you don't want to do but have you considered that a brief spell in hospital might help you? Even if it was just a week? I have been sectioned several times but it has been a voluntary section, both myself and my psychiatrist agreed that I needed to be and therefore there were far fewer restrictions on me and it didn't last for long each time. I would like to tell you a little bit about how it felt.

I actually found it a huge relief, I could have my meals served for me, my bed made for me and was told when to do things rather than figure it out myself in my confused state. I felt really cared for and as if I could finally just rest for a while, I spent most of the times asleep at first and just recharging my batteries while my medication was adjusted and someone was available to listen to me 24 hours a day. It was amazing to have no responsibility and to stop having to fight just to stay alive for a while, I knew that I was safe. One of the biggest things was whenever I felt afraid someone was always there to talk to me or sometimes just sit holding my hand. The staff really went the extra mile and would drop everything if a patient needed to confide in someone.

The night staff knew I had intrusive thoughts whenever I tried to sleep so would bring me toast and tea when everyone else was asleep and sit with me, it felt wonderful to be treated so caringly. It was the little things like that, that made me strong again. I was only restricted for 3 days each time, and still the staff would walk with me around the hospital ground. In the end they were letting me go out for the day, as long as I was there to see my doctor in the morning and back every night I could do what I wished as long as they knew where I would be. I often went home for a few hours. I wasn't forced into anything at all, my doctor and I worked out my care plan together. There was also a daily relaxation class on the ward which I absolutely loved.

The last few days before I was discharged felt a little like living in a hotel each time, my friend would come to the ward and sign a form taking responsibility for me and we would go to the pub before I returned back to the ward for a cooked meal! WaSp would then visit after work and we would go for a drive and a coffee. Or some friends and I that I had made while in hospital would order takeaways and sit watching TV for half the night! Contrary to what a lot of people believe you are eventually actively encouraged to go shopping, meet friends and socialise, it is a way of getting you to function safely before discharge and prevent you becoming institutionalised. Once you are no longer a risk to yourself or others there is a lot of freedom. It honestly wasn't a bad experience at all, quite the opposite and it really did help me so much everytime.

It was also far easier each time to access support on my release. My psychiatrist set up everything for me so that I had people visiting me (daily for the first week I came home), and therapy was rushed through so that I was suddenly top of the waiting list. You do not HAVE to do this at all! I would never ask you to do that, the choice is entirely yours. But it is a way of getting help quickly and if you are in danger of hurting yourself it is an option to consider if not now, for the future. Just don't write it off, ok? I don't want anything bad to happen to you.

I know that it can be a terrifying but a voluntary section really isn't bad at all. I didn't even think of it as a section, I thought of it as time I could finally rest and heal and I did. Some sections are more restrictive than others depending on a patients needs but I found that because mine were voluntary and I was willing to cooperate and understand why my doctors made the decisions that they did (and believe me, I asked many, many questions) that I was given a lot of trust in return. Just think about if it could help you. Gentle hugs.

System

I'm sorry you're feeling so low faerie, (((hugs))) i think WaS' advice is something to consider. I know it's a scary unknown but it might be what you need right now, to give you time to heal and time to yourself, where you can get help whenever you need it