Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

calleyw

Evening shipmates,

Hugs, squishes and handshakes to all that need them.

Good day today even though lack of sleep caused by a lodger coming in at 3am. It makes no difference how little noise he makes. I wake up as soon his feet hit the front path. He does not seem to understand my sleep is shot to pieces as it is. And not helped by him coming at stupid o'clock. And I don't want to get manic again which I will with out decent sleep very soon.

Anyway went to the cinema to see triple 9 still not sure on it. Will mull it over LOL!!!

had a lush steak and chips with a vodka all for the pricely sum of £5.99 well husband paid LOL!!! I paid for the cinema a whole £7.25 with his cea card. There was one other person in there. Was it really worth showing it :rotfl:

I will join the childless corner. For me it was a choice, Never wanted them ever. Love my nephews and step granddaughter to bits. But never wanted any of mine own. Makes me a bit of oddity at 43 and no children.

Anyway every one take care.

Yours

Calley

tea_lover

WaS, you do an amazing job of looking after all of us, you're our thread mum

Waves_and_Smiles

Awwww, thank you tea! What a lovely thing to say!

Let me know what you conclude about Triple 9, calley! WaSp is thinking of seeing it but isn't sure.

calleyw

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

Awwww, thank you tea! What a lovely thing to say!

Let me know what you conclude about Triple 9, calley! WaSp is thinking of seeing it but isn't sure.

I agree with tea on that WaS.

It was ok. Does he like lots of shooting and violence? if he does then he will be ok with it. It did seem a bit slow in places.

Couple of small twists at the end that I did not see coming.

Yours

Calley

Wellyboots6

I was always the opposite, I didn't want children as I felt I'd be a rubbish mum. It was only when I met Bearded One and he was so keen that I started considering it. Even now, we both don't want Escapette to be an only child but the thought of being pregnant again terrifies me.
I'm very much struggling with the emotional aspect of being a parent, which I hadn't even considered would be an issue.
Having the choice taken away from you must be so difficult, I really do feel for you x

Waves_and_Smiles

Yes Welly, becoming a parent often comes with own set of challenges that are unexpected. I did look after a little boy on and off from the age of 6 months to 5 who's mother was very unwell and who's father was away 5 days a week with work. We went through a time at the toddler stage where all she could manage was to say goodnight and get him up in the mornings so I had full care of him everyday other than weekends including feeding, bathing. socialising and toilet training. It threw up some emotional challenges to me that I had never even suspected would happen. He wasn't even my own my child and it was still quite difficult at times, it must be even more of a learning curve if the child is yours and you have sole responsibility.

Neither path is easy and I have often thought that one of the problems is that parents are just expected to instinctively know what to do. That is rarely the case so it must be hard to ask for help with so much expectation upon you. Then of course, the other side is you have people all too willing to tell you how you should be doing things that may not fit with you or your child at all. It must be very difficult at times.

That sounds exactly up WaSp's street, calley!

jobbingmusician

Just popped in to replenish the squish cupboard, because sadly it sounds as if people need it! xxxxxxxxxxx It's possible to lead a VERY fulfilled life without being a mum, honest!

Waves_and_Smiles

Hello, JM! I will take a squish or two! I am currently in the ridiculous situation of being quite well mentally with little psychosis due to the medication but physically unable to fight my way out of a paper bag. This happens everytime, the right dose to control the psychosis makes me really physically unwell. I seem to be sleeping all night and having a 6 hour lunch time nap, nevermind the dragging feet, dizzy spells, slurred speech and dribbling!

I am also driving WaSp insane by repeatedly stretching my arm into the air even if I am holding something spillable at the time. I can't stop it, the medication causes it! ( that's called Tardive Dyskinesia if anyone wants to look it up. It is a lovely little neurological side effect). WaSp has my sympathy, my mother was on the same medication and would distort her face constantly causing her to spit even if she was eating at the time and it irrationally really annoyed me and made me forget what I was talking to her about.

It just reminds me why I opt for a little psychosis constantly rather than this. There is no point in being mentally well when I can't even get myself a jug of water and spend most of every day asleep. I can't do it yet but I really want to drop this medication back down, now I am a pretty mentally well person stuck in a body that won't cooperate. I have finished moaning now

System

calleyw wrote: »

morning shipmates

hugs and squishes and handshakes to all who need them.

a quick call out to melly and messed up. hope both are ok just busy.

I am feeling meh at the moment. another bad night sleep wise and really just can't be arsed. had a binge late afternoon, no idea why as I cooked lunch. got up today fed phoebe and put some washing up away and come back to bed. no idea why. bored of life and see no point in bothering with anything. Not go to the point of no thinking no one gives a monkey.

I am lonely, and scared to go back to work. just not sure what to do really. I need to go back to work for the money. but no interest or get up go. think it got up and went. everything just seems a struggle.

enough whinging and being needy :rotfl:

Every one take care.


yours

Calley

I am alive...just been caught up with life, work and Swain (he;s a very big distraction!), sorry i've not been active and posting (cathcing up on the thread now). I've been at Swain's a lot recently and i generally only have my phone on me and MSE is a bit hard to navigate (especially when needing to mutiquote).

Can i just say you look absolutely beautiful in that picture Calley And i'm sure you're still as amazing these years on. Its nice to put a face to the name

Work has been here and there, i narrowly avoided a run in with the area manager, got told she was doing an audit on sunday but thankfully she came in the day before. Things with Swain are good although we did have our first argument the other week. I;d told him i couldn;t come to his cos i felt tired on the sunday, and he was kind of annoyed as he saw me on the monday night and e stayed up to watch wrestling, even though he had an early hospital appointment, he said he felt that he was putting me first but i wasn;t putting him first. I saw his point, i really should have gone to his but tbh i was being lazy and the easier option was to go back to mine...so it was right he brought it up. I have to say he 100% does put me first above everything. he got called about starting a new contract at work and specifically asked for later shifts so its fits in better with my shifts, he worked his !!! of last year just so he'd have money to treat me, if i'm ever short he lends me money with no questions asked, he gave me his winning £5 scratchcard to buy some cordisyl mouthwash as he saw my gums looked a bit sore and knows i have a fear of dentists, and the other night he was sick but saw i was asleep and left me in bed whilst he slept on the couch as he didn't want to wake me up cos he knew i had work. Honestly he actually does put me first. He said to me the other day "true love is all about sacrifice".

He's also sorted me put with my meds, i as struggling to take the morning ones and as well as reminding me dail to take mymeds he worked out that if i set my alarm a few hours before i need to be up, i can sleep off the crappy side effects (this happened yesterday, i woke up and was completely not with it, so he told me to get comfy in bed and that he;d come back in a few hours).

Also i've seen my family! It as my baby(!) sister's 21st on friday! Was lovely seeing the family and catching up Next time i see them will be my cousins wedding in march :eek:

Torry_Quine

Messedup he sounds lovely.