Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

Torry_Quine

I have been feeling useless recently. My life is just an existence with little ever happening as I am too exhausted to do anything much. I don't contribute anything to the world around me and that is unlikely to change. Today I woke to the news about Terry Wogan and it has left me completely in a mess. Penguin about death My father is exactly the same age as TW being born on the same day. So I am scared that my Dad will di soon and I couldn't cope with that. End penguin.

Not helped by my husband doing his very long 14 hour + shift today. Sorry for moan but you understand.

whitewing

Torry,

Yes, we do understand exactly how you feel.

Somebody with in excess of 22 000 thanks on MSE must be contributing something to the world!

mellymoo74

Me and doglets are in the living room door closed.
My little old man was snoring with a head on what was my boob
Porky tucked behind my bum
Just made a tea (didn't speak to him) kissed tomcat and came back in

And your right WaS he's prone to selfishness anyway when he's like this he's unbearable and a love him a little less each time

mellymoo74

Torry
We all feel like we are useless and treading water sometimes I think when it's grey and cold that doesn't help.

You do contribute the world would be a different place without you in it

Waves_and_Smiles

Oh, Torry have a hug. You aren't useless, I bet your husband wouldn't view you that way at all. Exhaustion can be so demoralising, it can really influence or moods and how we feel about ourselves. I know when my autoimmune disorders flare that is accompanied by exhaustion and feeling very low in mood which means other things trigger me that normally wouldn't. I am sure you contribute far more than you think right now, not least all the helpful posts that you make on this forum and that is just the tip of the iceberg.

We are all here for you and glad that you are here with us. We do understand and I wish I could make things easier for you right now. Maybe plan something indulgent for yourself today even if it's just a warming a drink and a nap with a hot water bottle? You are worthwhile, remember that I believe that so someone in the world doesn't see you as useless at all.

Melly, that is totally understandable. Selfishness slowly erodes feelings sadly. I really hope he gets back into therapy soon and does all he can to get better. He owes it to himself and to you who have spent so long being there for him.

mellymoo74

He's been worse since cbt stopped and there was no what will happen next. He'd been referred to the mental health team for long term cbt was our understanding but nothing has happened.
I am chasing it, no recognition, fighting to get support worker, no recognition, got no pride because someone I don't know lent me money to get food? No recognition.

When he's like this I figure he knows what he's doing but oesnt care.

Torry_Quine

:AThank you so much for your kind words, you have made me cry!!

In two weeks it will be our anniversary and I should concentrate on that.

I will try and remmeber your words when I feel awful.

Hugs to all, you are stars.

Waves_and_Smiles

They really shouldn't have just cut his therapy like that, Melly. OH clearly has problems reaching back years and then to open the can of worms and stop before the lid is back on is bound to cause problems. You really are doing all you can, far more than you should be doing. You really need the support worker to carry some of the load for you. It is awful that it is taking so long.

Have another hug, Torry. We are always here for you.

mellymoo74

I meet healthy minds Wednesday
Calling them tomorrow tho I can't cope with him.
Just taken some tramadol wanted to take all of em.

mellymoo74

Don't worry I wont