Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

Brighton_belle

Pyxis wrote: »

Hello, Brighton Belle!
What sort of organisation offers stand-up comedy course? I'm intrigued!

In my case, a successful comedy club. But I also noticed on twitter last week a known (not hugely but still a 'name') comedian offering classes in London.

Georgiegirl256

Pyxis wrote: »

:eek::eek::eek:
Blahugh!

Just bleugh that people even put milk in tea full stop!! :eek: Totally changes the flavour. No sugar for me either (even though I have it in coffee), just black, or should that be red as I drink red tea?

Georgiegirl256

Brighton_belle wrote: »

In my case, a successful comedy club. But I also noticed on twitter last week a known (not hugely but still a 'name') comedian offering classes in London.

Ooo now I'm intrigued! Not because I want to sign up, but just because I'm curious who it is.

Pyxis

Georgiegirl256 wrote: »

Just bleugh that people even put milk in tea full stop!! :eek: Totally changes the flavour. No sugar for me either (even though I have it in coffee), just black, or should that be red as I drink red tea?

Must admit, I haven't had milk in tea for years. I just went off milk. I have my coffee black too, though I don't drink much of it these days.
And no sugar for me either. Not since I gave it up for Lent in the 1960s!
Penguin about religion..Another RC turned atheist, Ono! Hahahaha! End penguin

benrben

Hello everyone, would you mind if I popped in here for a while, I'm feeling a wee bit low at the moment.
I hope I'm doing this right, but apologies if I haven't. Possible penguin re bereavement

PENGUIN
Sorry to barge in, starting to feel a little out of control & worried that past issues with mh/ocd's may be rearing their ugly heads again. My sister died christmas eve, we were very close, she was the last connection to growing up, parents / step mum / brother deceased previously & lost my aunt/uncle last year, her funeral is tomorrow & for various reasons I'm not able to go. I'm hardly sleeping, feeling overwhelmed & I'm physically having to stop myself from entering into "touching" routines which formed a huge part of my previous ocd's.
I'm not sure why this is happening now, my mh breakdown was when I was in my late teens / twenties & was due to brothers passing / marriage problems, it took 8 years to get to a better place, I coped well with my step mums & dads deaths, aunts / uncles dying, sons ill health & subsequent disability, I was lucky enough to be able to visit my sister to say goodbye, the journey there / back was long & horrendous but I coped. Christmas wasn't the best ( I had a thread on here about it ) but I managed to make sure the youngest 2 had a lovely time & I coped with telling them better than I ever thought possible, yet now, I feel like jelly.
I'm trying to be kind to myself, but am struggling with anything other than the basics, I'm not neglecting the kids / son, everything is getting done, even if on autopilot sometimes, I'm not sure why I posting even really, I hate having any attention on me, I think I just needed to write it down to acknowledge to myself how I'm feeling, sorry.

END OF PENGUIN

Flybaby

Pyx - the minion messages are absolutely perfect and being printed out as we speak.


Calley - (((hug)))


Hello Oak and ((((hug))))


Moo - was it not a fun interview?


Tea - I think everyone else has said it very well. Bless your heart for being such a caring person as to feel guilty about a person who has been so nasty to you - I think that is a sign of your awesome compassion. Just remember that for you to become involved with him again in any way will not actually help him, so you are doing the right thing for yourself and for him.


Hmmmm.............. maybe I should not be allowed in the fort..........I get through 10 pts of milk a week on my own in tea and coffee and drinking milk! (skimmed I hasten to add!)

Izadora

Bleugh to tea altogether (the drink that is, not Tea Lover!!). I've tried so hard to like it but still can't drink the stuff.

Hello benrben. Sorry for you loss and there's no advice I can give you (I'm sure far more helpful people will be along soon) but hopefully having got it off your chest will've done you some good.

Flybaby

benrben - (((((squish and hug))))) for you..........it is a most sad time for you and you are doing very well even to manage the basics. Allow yourself some "sad" time and don't feel guilty about it as it reflects how wonderful your sister was that you feel her loss so much.

tea_lover

ben, please don't apologise for posting. If we can offer any support at all then that's what we're here for xx. Would a visit to your GP help?

Pyxis

Firstly, (((((((((((((((((Benrben)))))))))))))))))

And your penguin was perfect! :A

I'm really not surprised you're in a bad place. You must be feeling so alone, 'orphaned' in more ways than one.

You've kept things together to look after your children over Christmas. Now that you don't have to be quite so strong, you're dissolving a bit. I can fully understand that. You'd been running on adrenalin and now it's worn off.

Well done for keeping the urges at bay. That's admirable.
Is there anyone who knows about the urges whom you could confide in? If not, no worries, there's always us.
Is there anything that could distract you? Work? Something else?
Exercise?

Just remember, that you are grieving, and grieving takes lots of different forms. If you do slide into old habits a bit, don't feel guilty, as you can beat it... You've proven that.
And it will take lots of time. You've had several body-blows in quick succession. That's hard to come to terms with, and will take time, so please don't feel guilty for feeling bad.
Do come on here anytime you like. If you've been hovering, you'll know that we're all flawed, and we all have our demons, but when shared, they can shrink a bit! :A