Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

elona

Tea

I am so glad that you have told some people at work as it is an extra level of shielding for you.

As you are a nice person you might fall into the trap of feeling sorry for him. He may not be doing it consciously but there may be a feeling that if she sees how upset I am then she will change her mind.

Remember how bad he made you feel and step back.

tea_lover

http://www.theguardian.com/culture/2015/dec/21/how-we-made-the-muppet-christmas-carol

This article does mention the death of Jim Henson (not as the main theme of the article) but it's a lovely piece and really shows the emotion behind the film.

elona - you are spot on. At the moment I am feeling incredibly sorry for him. Part of me thinks he's finally saying everything I ever wanted to hear and I should call him and apologise for being mean and we should get married right away. But it's a v small part! Most of me knows I really can't ever speak to him now. Actually mostly I'm just tired, and I still can't stop crying.

faerielight

hi guys.. hope christmas looming isn't getting too stressful. I'm doing ok, slowly recovering. The pain is subsiding , which is a relief.The surgery has really affected my me/cfs. I'm super exhausted .
My mood is pretty low too. I hate Christmas , it's going to be pretty lonely for me. All my friends are doing stuff. I might be able to visit one for a couple of hours, on christmas day, of I can drive by then.. I wish I had people coming to my flat, but it's not going to happen this year.. I have way too much time on my hands alone to reflect on all the crap. I'm still in so much pain about my horrible mother.. I guess Christmas is bound to amplify the pain.I still miss my ex, even though it was 8 years ago, I can't believe it's been that long since my last relationship. I'm clinging onto the hope that at some point next year I will get assessed for the BPD centre and that my life might get a bit better. I am def feeling the BPD emptiness a lot at the mo. I am finding it hard to imagine life being any different though, as my illnesses hold me back so much. It just has to get better than it is now!

codemonkey

Ok tea, I'm going to be brutal here, which I feel horrible about because you're so lovely. That's why that wee part of your brain is telling you to feel sorry for him and marry him. But that's not going to work. It might work, for 6 months or so, then he'd go back to being the same, and you'd be miserable again. For what it's worth, I don't think he's a bad guy, as such, although his behaviour over your miscarriage was a major deal breaker I think (bad enough for a 'normal' pregnancy but for pregnancy that you put yourself through hell for, it's unforgivable), but he's not the one for you. He needs someone independent who is into the same things as he is, whereas you need someone who will acknowledge your needs, spend time with you and not treat you like an invisible person or somehow inferior for your interests. As an aside, if I had £1 for every guy who thinks an engagement ring will solve all relationship problems, I could buy us all a massive, luxury blanket fort and an unending supply of wotsits and haribo.

Faerie, sorry you'll be alone at Christmas. I think if I were alone at Christmas, I'd have some of my favourite films, make a cosy duvet cocoon on the sofa and make a carpet picnic of my favourite foods and whenever I felt lonely, I'd think about people making me watch the Queen's speech and smell Brussels Sprout farts.

I have the opposite problem. I offered to cook Christmas dinner at my parent's house, which was supposed to be for 4. Then my mum invited my brother and his wife, so it was 6 and now she's invited more people so its now 8 (maybe, if they can be bothered to turn up).

Pyxis

Well, at the moment I am not feeling too good, physically that is, (my old recurrent problem), while ensconced in a hotel at Heathrow airport.
I really didn't want to go away again this year, but the awful family stuff and then the start of the Christmas jollies warned me that I couldn't stay in England For Christmas, so I booked a trip to Greece. Never ever been to Greece, don't speak a word of Greek, but it does mean I can tick the Acropolis-where-the-Parthenon-is off the List! And it'll keep me busy so I won't have time to brood.

Trouble is, this thing that flares up from time to time has decided to do so. I can't complain, 'cos I avoided it for my other hols. Just hope it doesn't get worse.

Anyway, tomorrow I'll be travelling from the hotel to the terminal in a driverless pod thing! That'll be fun!


If I'm late doing the Advent Calendar, this'll be why!



Edit... Code, I always watch the Queen's Speech, quite willingly! And I love Brussels Sprouts, though not the farty side of things, natch!

tea_lover

Ooh Christmas holiday!! Have fun pyxis I hope your health recovers x

Code (((squish))) I love you!

elsien

Have a great time Pyxis. I spent Christmas in Paris once as an avoidance mechanism and thoroughly enjoyed it.

And on an equally festive note, I have spent the afternoon at a singalong carol singing event. Which considering I accidentally booked the wrong event and am a confirmed atheist turned out to be surprisingly enjoyable. I like singing although I'm quite bad at it, and find the Christmas religious rituals remind me of my childhood in a good way, even though I no longer believe.
I wish there was a rock type choir round here I could join.

Georgiegirl256

codemonkey wrote: »

and smell Brussels Sprout farts.
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Yeah sorry about that! We have eaten so many Brussels sprouts in the last few weeks, it's unbelievable, and it isn't even Christmas yet! I just love them!

Hugs (((faerie))) Codes plan sounds like a good one! Just watch all the junk tv and look forward to the Doctor Who Christmas Special! That's if you're a Dr Who fan that is! Which let's face it is almost the law if you're on this thread!

Enjoy your hollz Pyxis! Hope you're feeling betteroon, and it doesn't blight your holiday too much.

Glad you enjoyed your carol singing elsien Sounds like fun!

disabled_NCIS_fan

I just wanted to say I'm feeling really proud of myself. I had my very first smear test Friday. There was a few issues. Penguin turns out I had a big polyp in my cervix and the thingy they put in burst in. I wasn't allow to look at the table. I remember being out of it and in pain but mum said the polite way of describing it was chainsaw massacre and that they were worried they were gonna need me in hospital. It's set off a period and I'm bleeding and cramping but plus side the pain in my groin is gone, well besides the pain that is left from the burst lol. End Penguin.

Also had to deal with customer service at the Vue today. My dad is working Christmas Eve night to Christmas Eve morning then working all day Boxing Day so we won't be seeing him much this holiday. He's a support worker for people with disabilities. So me and mum schemed and decided we would surprise the family with tickets to the new Star Wars film on Christmas Eve morning. So I went online and booked them and a error message came up. I checked my bank and it looked like money came out but more than it should. So I rang up and she said oh it went through and it's one payment and here is your booking number. So I thought great at least it's worked. Rang my bank and they said three payments were due to come out, yes three. So I waited until I could check my bank to see, Sunday evening it usually updates and Vue took a total of £117.60 for five tickets! I only book cause I need the wheelchair bay. So I rang up customer services this morning. It only went through as one booking so head office needs to sort that out and they are sending me a £10 e-card as a good will gesture to spend. Which when it comes through I'm gonna spend on some extra treats for us. I will say it spoilt the surprise though lol.

mellymoo74

I'm going to see HSE Director tomorrow