Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

codemonkey

Can you get a refund through hungry house?

I had a Dominos. It was also kind of disappointing.

Feeling like human wallpaper again.

Wellyboots6

We ordered through them this evening and it took an hour longer than they said and was cold when it got here.

Having all sorts of irrational thoughts this evening, hope a sleep sorts it. I think I need to keep away from the news and social media for a good while.

codemonkey

Hugs welly. The key thing is that you know your thoughts are irrational.

System

Well i'm working boxing day

And by the look of it new years even and new years day

So thats everything !!!!ed up. Part of the reason i made the descion to go to Swain's was that i could work xmas eve (and be able to get the bus to his and theres no public transport on boxing day) and new years eve and have boxing day and new years day with him. New year for the past 2 ive spent alone and miserable and it looks like this year will be year 3.


I need a new job. I'm going to be !!!!ing miserable on boxing day. silly me for thinking i'd escape the xmas depressive period.

codemonkey

That doesn't seem fair MU. If you can't travel to work, how can they expect you to get there?

System

codemonkey wrote: »

That doesn't seem fair MU. If you can't travel to work, how can they expect you to get there?

Taxi

I did point out that it's a £20 fare there and back, and that it will most likely be double time but apparently the manager whos done the rota has said that work will pay for it and that is that. I tried to point out they'd be paying more in taxi fares than my wages for a 5 hour whift but that fell on deaf ears. I'm more !!!!ed off that they specifically asked us what our availability was over xmas and new year and they have completely ignored it. Also my manager has been there 2 years and hasn't worked xmas or new year, and suprise surprise, she's off again this year! :mad:

I do understand that at the end of the day, i workin retail and not enough peoeple had put themselves down for boxing day, so she had to pick people and it sucks and thats the way it is. I'm just feeling crap because i was lead to beleive they'd try and accomodate us and i'd made plans based on that and now it feels like everything has gone to !!!!

faerielight

hi guys, thought I'd give you all an update.. I hope you are all doing ok. I'm still fighting the post op infections, I can't seem to overturn them, but I'm so crap at resting and relaxing.I am so anxious and agitated. all that stress can't be good for my immunity I'm so devastated that my belly looks so more deformed,I really hope the fluid hump goes away,I'm panicking about that as there is already so much deformity It is such a weird shape, it was triangular on the left, damage from previous surgeries, but now there are some more angles on the right side,my belly button ,which doesn't resemble one is veering off to the left even more . My midline scar is being pulled i n a c shape , it's a mess.I can't seem to come to terms with the physical aspect of the rolling negligence..It really does make me feel; so ashamed of my body, and so butchered..it takes its toll on my self esteem. I would make a great candidate for some abdo cosmetic surgery.. maybe I should apply!

. Also.I had to deal with 2 debtors today, both of which were due to the company mistakes.not mine.. for a debt that wasn't .. I won't bore you with it all as I asked for advice on the other sub forums.. I desperately need to put all of the complaints and fights down for a while so I can heal, but I can't seem to let go, there is always so much conflict, The thing is, they are all really pressing, but..I'm neither resting nor writing just being very stressy and crying a lot. I am so rubbish at compartmentalising things and awful at being able to shut down and tune the worries out.

Pyxis

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12th December

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iXHeyAXYcxk

Pyxis

Do you know, I'd never thought of this!!!

mellymoo74

Lol pyxis.

Calley are you ok?
Welly proud of you for going.

We won't talk about what I ate yesterday but the sleeping tablet worked I am still groggy.