Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

dragonette

*hugs for Melly, Welly and Tea* and *hugs* for everyone else too. WaS, I hope you are feeling a bit more settled again.

Ginger, well done with the fridge! Sounds like it was very badly needed.

So yesterday evening I ended up looking after my metamour and deputising cooking so her husband could help her shower etc safely. I'm exhausted this morning! Wasn't strenuous but it's takes a couple of days for me to recover atm

theresamum2

Hi everyone have just skimmed through thread will catch up

Well today has consisted of going uptown with partner bob doing food shopping and ended up spending nearly 40 pound in b an m but did get a present each for Chloe and Lily Rose for christmas getting excited now i have started.

Feel much better today the weather is clear and no rain hopefully my mood doesn't go down hill.

Hope everyone is ok squishes for people who need them

piggles1

thanks for the replies code and Georgie. I'm not sure whether to post this and I know I ramble on but counselling never helped much.

penguin (people not here any more/religion/not very nice family): some of the people I've lost were over 20 years ago and the guilt remains. I'm not sure how to make the gallery any more benign. I was brought up being disciplined by some quasi-religious threats, some of which I can't remember properly but their essence is still in my brain. I could never do the right thing growing up but I've not been able to learn any alternatives. I don't have a low esteem and I don't think I'm a bad person, just a beaten-down one I suppose.

Thank you for saying my mother was wrong to stop me crying. She has personally ruined my experiences of every family bereavement. She takes over everything and nothing is safe from her influence. But she didn't cuddle or say nice things. I've not told her where I am now because I'm trying to get away from her. Talking to her makes me have panic attacks and my alters get really angry afterwards and it all gets a bit unpredictable before it calms down weeks later. end penguin

I've looked at the local cat charities (including CPL) in the hope they have some kittens but I'm not sure they'd bring one to me. It might be better if I get to see them and see which one likes me/I like. I don't have bowls or a carrier but I do have a kitten sized litter tray.

Maybe I should call them and see what they say? If I explain I'm struggling a bit they might have some suggestions? If someone produced a little kitten in my house I'm sure I'd rally and get all the stuff for it. It's just the decision of getting one maybe I'm stuck with. Getting a carrier will probably be the point I've made my decision.

Hope everyone's okay today. Hi Theresamum

I have a wall to paint today, which is not what I'm meant to be doing but I can't get my head together to do anything important.

dragonette

I have managed 2 scary phone calls today this may be the limit of my productiveness tbh. One for a physio appt, and one to HMRC for a tax credit overpayment about 2 yrs ago. It didnt show up on their records properly, so i asked if I could just pay it and be sure it was dealt with. They were very surprised! But its paid and dealt with, and I'm happier that way

*hugs and squishes to all*

Flybaby

**sheepishly peers in**
apologies for the middle of the night rant - that's what insomnia does to you. Yes - I actually flounced at my curtains as if they were going to talk back to me - sigh!
Assignment finished and submitted. Well it's submitted and I ain't doin any more on it, lets put it that way!


{Moosquish} - remember his smile and how often you were the cause of it.x


{welly squish} hell yeah - you can blame almost anything on lack of sleep - even curtain flouncing! {mini scapette sized squish} Ooooooo........ does she have totally squishable armies and leggies yet???


and Oi - you lot stop with the sausages and bacon sarnies will ya? **drooling**

dragonette

*hugs for Piggles* I dont know what to say that might help, except I think you are probably doing the right thing re the gallery. I'm sure the CPL would do their best to be accomodating too - its in their interest to get as many cats adopted as poss afterall.

piggles1

Thanks dragonette Maybe my focus will change a bit if I got a kitty. Yes they must want as many to be rehoused as possible. I'll do some carrier pricing I think, and work out the montly cost so I can see if it's ok. Mind you if I was a tenner short I wouldn't turn a cat away but it's nice to be sure I've got space in my budget. Then I'll get the numbers of places ready to try one of them when I feel really brave.

I didn't paint the wall but I did cut the grass out the front and fixed the gate. I hate being outside so I was really self conscious but I'm trying to think this little place is mine to do stuff with at the moment. I could barely stand up afterwards though and felt all faint.

And well done handing the assigment in Flybaby

tea_lover

Did someone mention bacon?? I am so hungry!!

Pyxis

Piggles, could I ask you not to get a cat unless you really, really want one? If you are not really, really excited at the idea, then please hold fire until you are?

It would be bad for the cat if you got one and then found it made things too difficult. If you really, really want one, even the difficult things won't seem so bad.

If you are in the position of really, truly wanting one, do some visualisation. Imagine the cat in your house, imagine it scratching furniture, crapping in the wrong place, eeling round your legs so you have to keep looking down so as not to tread on it.

Imagine having to make sure there's food in.
Imagine having to take it to the vets for its jabs etc.
Imagine have to give it worm tablets, and be deflead occasionally.
Imagine it bringing in a dead mouse or a live frog!

Then imagine the cuddles you'd get, and the hair everywhere!

If none of those imaginings strike fear in your heart, then you're on!

Then to show commitment, you could get things like the carrier, tray, bed if you want one, collar etc, name tag thing. Even some tins of food.

Then you can go for it!

If you do, it could be the best thing you've ever done!
But remember that, if you have any doubts, postpone it for now. :A:A

Waves_and_Smiles

Melly, it is my dad's birthday today too. Have a hug, we can miss them together.

Piggles, counselling has never really worked for me either. There are targeted therapies though that work better. Particularly as you have DID you may want to look into a specific therapy for that if your others are in agreement? The type we had doesn't change anything other than get you all talking and sharing memories if it's agreed with all parties. It made us all work far better together and the missing time stopped, now we chat away so that we can make sure everyone is happy. Keep it in mind, don't do it unless you are all willing to but it was a huge benefit to us. It is very different to counselling.

I have a new friend, a game developer in Iceland. One of WaSp's games wouldn't play so I tracked down the developer and one of the people who owned the company replied. I was my usual way too friendly and open self (oops) and now we are chatting about Iceland and the types of food they have there, he gave me a recipe to try and a photo of the Northern Lights which are right above it right now. I find it a little encouraging that for someone who hardly ever meets anyone face to face I seem to be very good at making friends over the internet, WaSp finds it half funny and half embarrassing, I always end up chatting away to people about their lives. It is also frustrating that I actually am sociable but psychosis stops me acting on it. I do like people, I always have. I just think that they won't like me. Oh well, new friend. Yay!