Here we can all be heard for a little while

Wellyboots6

Improving Access to Psychological Therapies. It's like a sort of self-referral system which is supposed to make getting support easier. I'm sure someone else can explain it better than me!

You might find you end up with a lovely new housemate MU who will kick the naughty one in to touch!

Flybaby

Morning all, {squishes all round}


Right...... **gets down on one knee to talk to Katy's tummy** It's Tuesday (checking....yep definitely Tuesday this time) and my wager is on a Tuesday so please get a wriggle on and saunter on out here so I can get virtual cake (and if you do it quickly and painlessly for mummy I will share it with you!)


Calley - so agree with you - contractors/workmen drive me nuts and the ones I like are the ones who actually have the good grace to call or text just to say not going to make it or will be late, good customer service counts for 90% of the job for me.


Hope everyones ok.......I am plodding along.........I am now pointing the patio and path we laid over the last few weeks.....currently on day three and hoping to finish that today as it is a bit boring, but so pleased that most of the heavy lifting and shifting is done.


I don't read newspapers, watch the TV news or look at news on the web. I occasionally hear the hourly news reports if I have the radio on. I rarely know anything that is going on in the world and that's the way I like it. If something major is going on, chances are I will hear people talking about it or my other half or mum will tell me, but other than that I am a (bad) news free person. It's for two reasons - firstly it is either upsetting or winds people up and secondly, having worked in the media, I know just how much of it is hype and how it is hyped. Whenever people are talking about (or ranting about) something they heard in the news, I always suggest they ignore what they have heard on TV or seen in papers and go to the source to investigate the information and then see if they have a different view. The facts are so often different to the media coverage. So please don't ever get upset by the news - just avoid it and if it does get you, then look up the genuine information to re-assure yourself.


I had a front row seat to the GM rice "Scandal" about 10 years ago and the media hype of the situation was unbelievable. The media had the public scared to eat rice at all and screaming for blood at the organisations involved for giving them GM rice, when actually, there was nothing wrong at all, someone just didn't complete the paperwork properly. But by the time the media finished with it, you would have thought there was some major conspiracy going on. I was the one who drafted the press releases containing all the facts and information - so I could directly see how they picked and choose the information and presented it in such a way as to make a news story out of it - It was after that that I stopped watching the news.

Pyxis

I don't buy newspapers for that very reason. (Well, occasionally for the crosswords!)

However, I do expect the TV news, and especially the BBC news, to be factually correct. In recent months, though, I have become very disillusioned by even the BBC's reporting of some situations; as you say, hyping things up for all they're worth.

Very depressing.

Wellyboots6

I'm not sure escapee was listening Flybaby I guessed a Tuesday too, but have just been down to the bakery to get real cake as I'm not expecting much.
Had tummy ache since last night but not much else.

Just having a cuddle with Little Sod. He overheard me on the phone to the vets booking him in for his injections tomorrow and now he is pulling the most sorrowful faces!

Going to attempt to make pulled pork in a bit, although not sure I have got the right joint of meat. It's got like a layer of fat/skin on one side, although from looking online the meat they use doesn't look like that.

I stopped watching the news a while back, and don't buy newspapers. I had quite a bad depressive episode and decided I didn't need more negativity than I already had so stopped watching. I haven't missed it at all. I do end up changing channel a lot now when things come on that I don't need to be seeing.

Pyxis

Escapee break-out poll!


MONDAY.........Katy, Georgiegirl, RjHammond
TUESDAY........Flybaby, WaS, 7DW
WEDNESDAY...Pyxis, Mummyroysof3, Solarjunkie, Birdie
THURSDAY.....Codemonkey, Oldestgnome, Mellymoo
FRIDAY..........Geminilady, xXMessedUpXx, Elsien, BeardedOne
SATURDAY......JobbingMusician, Indiekid
SUNDAY..........Whitewing, HeartbreakStar

dragonette

I listen to the radio a lot, but really don't pay too much attention to the worst of the news. Or at least, I try to!!

I've never understood why people like depressing films or books - there's enough bad stuff without trying to add in any more!

Birdie85

I'm feeling really frowny today. Work is starting to get on top of me and making me feel really anxious. I try so hard to keep my anxiety under control and not to get too worked up about things, but sometimes it just gets too much. I changed roles within the same department in January and agreed that I would carry on doing part of my old job whilst they sort out the replacement. Guess how much progress they've made with that?! It includes doing out of hours work, some months there's hardly any, other months there's 1/2/3 nights a week for weeks at a time. For the last 4 weeks I've had to do out of hours work twice a week, with very little option to refuse since I'm the only person who can do it, and it's getting on top of me now.

DS has been teething for the last month so meal times are stressful as he doesn't want to eat, bathtime is stressful as he has decided he doesn't like the bath and poops in the water as protest (!!!), bedtime is stressful as his mouth hurts and he doesn't want to sleep as that means no more Mummy cuddles so rather than him happily going down to settle himself to sleep at 6.30 I'm still sat with him wide awake at 8pm or later... I have to do everything on my own as DH works until 10pm (he has his own brand of fun with DS in the mornings!). As soon as DS does go down I have to then run around tidying, getting a shower (I don't have time in the morning so shower at night), eating dinner etc. So to then have to log on and do more work after a full day is too much for me as I don't have any time to just be 'me' which I need to feel OK... I've got an order for my craft business that I've been trying to finish for a week and I haven't had chance to touch it. I've told them that I'm going away at the end of October for nearly 3 weeks so they need to get this replacement sorted and they're still not doing anything so it's just making me feel stressed that there's going to be a huge backlog once I get back.

And just to add to my frownyness, I'm really craving cake of some sort and there was an e-mail sent round that someone has brought in birthday cakes so I skip over all excited and it was a rubbish selection of naff Morrison's bakery stuff. Where's the homemade cake?!

Waves_and_Smiles

I do try to avoid the news at all costs for those very reasons. The problem I have is it pops up on my Facebook. I use it as a way to keep in touch with all the teenagers that I used to work with but being the wonderful people they are, they get very upset over news articles and post them because they want to make a difference. I have learnt to quickly click past most of it but this was a photograph so I couldn't help but see it.

On that note two of my teenagers (who are no longer teenagers) are getting married in four weeks time! They are sending me photographs of the preparations, I have even seen the dress! I couldn't be happier for them, they both had incredibly dysfunctional childhoods and I am so pleased that they have found love with one another. It makes me feel old though, I remember the bride when she was 13! I am also very humbled that they have stayed in contact with me, they still call me their internet mum.

Big Hugs, Birdie you sound like you are under so much pressure. I wish that I could think of a solution for you, it is totally unfair that your workplace is doing this. I did giggle at your Little Birdie though, apparently when I was unhappy as a small child I used to wee on the person who had offended me or their belongings, my dad soon learnt to put my nappy on quickly after bath time although I kept it up for a while when out of nappies too! I have one memory of weeing on my mothers side of the bed because she yelled at me, I must have been around three. I felt very naughty but very satisfied. Fortunately I grew out of the habit and no doubt Little Birdie will too!

Wellyboots6

Oh dear Birdie, didn't sound like you are having fun at the moment. I'm going to make a spiced apple cake later if that helps? I can drop some in to the fort.

Back in bed with back and tummy ache. Not sure if escapee is gearing up for some mischief.

More than likely, given I have just had an assessment appointmt through for counselling. It's for Thursday this week and they rushed it through due to imminent arrival. If anything is going to trigger the jailbreak, then it will be that because if I miss the appointment then I have to go back to the bottom of the list again!

Waves_and_Smiles

Recalling my childhood habits and got me thinking so I want to throw this out there. Penguined because it talks about past self-harm.

Penguin!

I sometimes try to figure out if my behaviour as a child was as a result of emotional disturbance, if it was just my personality or if there was already psychosis from a young age. As a small child whenever I was angry I would hurt myself, including trying to break bottles over my head and pouring hot water on my hands. As well as this, I often felt excited to do things I knew I shouldn't that would physically harm me. I remember throwing myself to the ground on gravel when I was around five and then, crying because it hurt so much. The thing is, it felt exciting to do it like it was a gloriously happy thing. The thought of the pain felt thrilling, I wanted to experience it. When I was six I took a corned beef can out of the bin and ran my hand over the edge because the thought of seeing the blood was exciting. That started several years of me cutting myself on opened cans. I never did these things for attention because I knew they were wrong so I would do my best to hide them from my parents, it was simply because it made me ridiculously happy to see myself hurt and to see my blood.

Fast forward to now and as I have said before, I daily fight the urge to plunge my arms through window glass. I so want to do this, it feels like it would be the best experience ever. There are several other ways of hurting myself that feel wonderful, too. Now, because the emotions are so wrong I can tell that it is psychosis, the latter is often characterised by inappropriate emotions to an event or action. So I understand that one, but I am still unclear on my actions as a child. I have asked psychiatrists and they have said they don't know. It is plausible that I was born with a chemical imbalance that just grew as I got older, or it is possible that living with my mother in her own psychosis prompted me to believe that it was 'normal' to behave that way. I have forgotten what it's called but there is actually a mental health condition where if someone grows up close to someone in severe psychosis that they take on the personality traits because they know no different and it presents exactly the same.

Another possible reason is that all talk of medical matters was banned. My mother refused to watch any tv programmes involving hospitals and no illnesses were allowed to be discussed. When she was unwell it was dealt with or more often ignored and never spoken about again. Doctors were seen as the worse people on earth and hospitals were a one way trip to the grave. I was never allowed to talk about anything I suffered with that might need medical care at all and was neglected quite a lot as a result because my mother would wait until I was severely ill before taking me to a doctor, she was exactly the same with her own health. Perhaps that made anything involving the possible need of medical treatment exciting to me as a child?

Not sure what I'm asking really, erm does anyone relate to this? Ever come across it? I can't be the only one, please don't let me be the only one.

End penguin! Small, grey, fluffy one with a fish in its beak.