Here we can all be heard for a little while

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Well finally got a doctors sorted out. Am exhausted. Migraines suck. I got a message today from someone I knew I'm high school. In this mood I don't appreciate being hit on. Seriously I considered making up a fake boy friend just to put him off.

oystercatcher

Subscribing....... but still in a quiet mood


Have a wonderful holiday WaS .

Faith177

xXMessedUpXx wrote: »

Shiny new thread!!!

My festival tickets have arrived! 2 weeks today and i will be there :eek:

Lol i ordered a hand trolley to help me get stuff there but when i got it, it had nothing to secure the wheels on with. Emailed the seller on ebay and he said he'd send the missing bits. Heard nothing for a week so emailed again and he said he'd send a replacement. Well..he sent 2! Neother of which had anything to fix the wheels on with! So i was looking at having 3 unusable trolleys! BUT someone has told me that theres simple way to fix them on. So i now have 3 potentially working trolleys for the price of one

I'm feeling rather excited. Last year when i was with my ex, he really didn't want to get involved and do anything. He just wanted to stay at the tent. But this year..oh this year i will be doing so much! As well as watching bands i plan to go on the funfair, play some laser tag, watch some comedians, go to the outdoor cinema and basically everything i can. Plus my money only has to cover me this year so i can treat myself and buy what i want

Are you by chance going to Download?

I came on here for a nose as I am feeling a bit down at the minute and when I read the opening post thought you girls might be my kind of medicine that I could really do with right now

Then I noticed your post and saw 2 weeks laser tag and comedians and thought hmmm sounds like Download

Pyxis

That's ok, Oystercatcher! You can be our little voice of calm amid all the holiday mayhem!

The word Diawoowoo kills me!:rotfl:

And polyamory sounds like Jackanory! Best not get the two mixed up, though! :rotfl:


Hello, Faith177! Welcome t'thread!

Georgiegirl256

Welcome Faith! How are you doing Hun? I've been wondering how you've been getting on.

Hello oystercatcher! I joined the other thread later than others, so don't know if you're an original member or a newbie?

Georgiegirl256

Thought I'd wash my curtains, and use some of those scent booster thingies as they smell really nice, and I like everything smelling all lovely and fresh. Think I may have been abit generous with them....said you could put up to three capfuls in, I only put 2, but think they may have reacted with the detergent or something, as it started erupting from the detergent draw and all over my kitchen! :eek:

Faith177

Following my post above I thought that introducing myself properly might be a good idea lol

I am currently going through a very bad time after recently losing my mum suddenly. It has left me deverstated and with immense feelings of guilt that I just can't seem to shake. I miss her so much she was my best friend and now I just feel so lost without her guiding me and just being able to talk to her. I lost my dad when I was 5 so now it is just me and my brother and my grandparents really. I have an aunt but I hate her with a passion as I blame her in part for my mum passing so quickly (long story) and also for her actions since my mum went. My family all live a minimum of 2.5 hours away from me and I don't drive and as I work 2 jobs I don't get a lot of time off. My brother is the furthest away in Glasgow so I don't get to see them a lot.

I had a breakdown in 2009 that last about a year in total and was on anti depressents and was at an incredibly low point in my life. I managed to get myself together and got better but was left with severe general anxiety and IBS

The anxiety went unchecked for several years mainly due to my ignorance and just thought that the way I was acting was perfectly normal things reached breaking point in 2013 and my mum suggest I speak to the GP as she couldn't cope with seeing me the way I was. I was given CBT and it has really helped. I still have to remember to do my mental flow charts occasionally when things get bad and have to review my "problems" every couple of months to evaluate them the way I was shown in CBT. I know I'll never be 100% but I'm much better than I was.

At the moment though I am incredibly low I tempted to go back on to medication but I feel like that is admitting defeat and that by doing so I am letting my mum down. She was fantastic when I was ill the last time and was so proud that I got through it

Sorry to ramble

Faith177

Georgiegirl256 wrote: »

Welcome Faith! How are you doing Hun? I've been wondering how you've been getting on.

Hello oystercatcher! I joined the other thread later than others, so don't know if you're an original member or a newbie?

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Hi hun been thinking of you too how are you?

I'm not doing great tbh (see prev post) I have good and bad days but the last couple of weeks it's really began to hit home. I even tried to call her phone yesterday after I got out of a job interview because it didn't go very well and she was always the first person I ran to. Spent rest of the train journey pretty much in tears

Georgiegirl256

Faith177 wrote: »

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Hi hun been thinking of you too how are you?

I'm not doing great tbh (see prev post) I have good and bad days but the last couple of weeks it's really began to hit home. I even tried to call her phone yesterday after I got out of a job interview because it didn't go very well and she was always the first person I ran to. Spent rest of the train journey pretty much in tears

*hugs* It's totally understandable that the first person you thought of phoning was your Mum. I was always taking photos and emailing them to my Dad, of all different kinds of things, scenery, food, funny things, and I quite often find myself thinking how my Dad would have loved to see that photo that I'd just taken. He had the most amazing sense of humour, and I miss our jokes, the laughter and being able to talk to someone who understood me totally.

I'm not doing too bad. Good days and bad days. I cried myself to sleep the other night because I was going over and over his last day/week in my head, and the feeling that I'd totally let him down was overwhelming....so, I can totally relate to the feelings of guilt, I can't seem to shake them either.

You're not letting your Mum down if you go back on medication. By the sounds of it, she was a lovely caring lady, and she'd totally understand.

You've joined a great thread here. They're a fab bunch, and someone is always on hand to offer advice or just to listen.

codemonkey

Hi Faith. Going back on medication wouldn't be letting your mum down at all, anymore than taking medication for blood pressure or thyroid problems or any other malfinction. If you need it, you need it. Hugs for losing your mum though. My parents are in their 70s and 80s and I know my time with them is limited.