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Aw Flybaby you weren't to know the nature of their calls weren't work-related! Can you send a little email or text of explanation?

My subconscious is very odd at the moment. I had some strange (but not bad!) dreams last night...!

HBS x

Wellyboots6

SFX, hope you find some comfort from reading and posting on here.

Joan, same goes for you. Sometimes just waffle about anything helps.

We also have our handy life skills team who lurk around the fort to offer advice on anything DIY. Gardening, IT, fashion, music etc etc

Birdie, i neeeeed those dresses! Think it may be on my list for a post-jailbreak splurge.

Gingernutty, I hope it isn't scabies! Vinegar makes my wrists itch, so here's hoping it is something relatively harmless.

Code, dog cuddles always make everything better, so I prescribe a day of taking it easy and dog cuddles to aid in recovery and promote further work-based efficiency!

Flybaby, 2cellos went down very well! Although we then moved on to iron maiden which went down even better. Only Bruce Dickinson era though.

Goodness, this baby is going to escape with a full on mullet and ripped denims!!!!

Birdie85

LOL Katy, my DS had a natural mullet until we caved and cut it off a couple of months ago, I swear the hair on the back of his head grows at 3 times the speed as the hair on top, and he hasn't got any fringe to speak of! Back in the mullet days we'd dress him all in denim and flannel and he'd look like a little trucker!

Don't feel too bad Flybaby, you weren't to know that the calls were personal and he could have sent you a text if you weren't picking up his calls!

calleyw

Morning Again LOL!!!,

This is going to be a very selfish and self centered post today.

Just woken up.

I have decided to stop taking my meds and get my sleep back on track. As I can't carry on like this any more.

I will use other methods to keep my mood and thoughts in check. I don't feel that I can function like this any more. I am not getting any thing done in regards to the house and garden.

I need to get my housekeeping skills back together again, and I know no one here would say this. but I just feel so lazy. I do need to fill my days with something. I have the house and garden and x-stitch, reading and watching films is fine up to a point. But my family don't take up much of my time. I have my husband to keep an eye on that does not take up all my time and very little in the way of friends. So really have nothing to talk about to people.

I also need to think about going back to work in the next couple of months. I may go back to temping so that I can get some money in. Not ideal but I can work when I want to.

Yours

Calley

Birdie85

Calley, I'm not sure if this is something that would appeal to you, but have you looked at volunteering? There are probably plenty of projects locally that would love someone to give a few hours of their week and it will be good for giving yourself a bit more purpose, and will look good on your CV. I'm not even thinking about the most obvious option of working in a charity shop, but maybe something interesting like a small local museum maybe? Or a community garden project? Even just going along to a care home to chat to people? Are there any opportunities like this within walking distance?

calleyw

Birdie85 wrote: »

Calley, I'm not sure if this is something that would appeal to you, but have you looked at volunteering? There are probably plenty of projects locally that would love someone to give a few hours of their week and it will be good for giving yourself a bit more purpose, and will look good on your CV. I'm not even thinking about the most obvious option of working in a charity shop, but maybe something interesting like a small local museum maybe? Or a community garden project? Even just going along to a care home to chat to people? Are there any opportunities like this within walking distance?

I am sure there are. But I am sure that most of those types of things I would need to DBS checked. Not that I have ever done any wrong LOL!!!

Yours

Calley

Pyxis

Flybaby wrote: »

**sticks little finger out for WaV squish under her blanky in the corner of the fort and pushes biscuit plate under the edge of her blanky** Purple..........makes me think of minions..........are we the purple minions???????? I was thinking we might be the wee mac nac feegles and WaS was our Kelda, but maybe we are minions?

Ah, not purple minions! We are WaS's Golden Lights! We are Team WaS!
In the first thread, WaS mentioned some golden lights that helped to keep her safe. So we decided that was us!

Flybaby wrote: »

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sfx - be assured that you are NOT alone at the bottom of the abyss and there are ways to claw your way out. We may come across as happy but there are some days when some of us can't even get out of the bed, can't be bothered to eat, wash or speak and basically exist through waking hours. We all have bad days and good days.

That is so right! Sometimes on here I'm feeling ok and at other times I'm feeling ghastly, but being on here and chatting and posting daft stuff, and reading other people's experiences helps to take my mind off the carpness! Plus if I can make the odd suggestion, I feel useful! It can even make me understand myself better, as it makes me think about a particular problem someone night have, and that can relate to my own stuff.

Joanthebone wrote: »

Thank you, your post has brought me out to say this:

I am a long-term lurker, I read the thread every day. I get a lot of help just reading, I suppose I don't dare start posting, I might let it all out and not know how to stop. It would hurt too much.
I just wanted you all to know that.
Thank you all.

That's absolutely fine, Joanie! Feel free to post or not post. You can post about anything but what's on your mind, if you want to! You can just chat about biscuits and dogs!
Or just listen. That's ok, too! :A


Calley, before stopping the meds, have you thought about discussing the sleep situation with your GP again? There may be an alternative.
Also, have you checked from the medicine notes that it's ok to stop them suddenly? I'm sure you have checked, but I'm a warrior! (Sic)!

Pyxis

katy721 wrote: »

They seem to come in clusters, not had it for a couple of weeks now but sometimes could have 2 or 3 a day over a few days.
They started as long ago as I can remember.
It does feel a little bit like mild fear, but I am always safe when it happens e.g. sat in bed talking to hubby, out for a walk etc.
It lasts a couple of minutes and I have to wait for it to pass, talking about it while I can feel it doesn't change it.
I haven't tried logging them but will do. It almost feels like a memory.
Very odd!

This is why I struggled a lot with CBT, I find it difficult to label feelings and emotions. I also find it difficult to connect my thoughts to my feelings. Oh, and my therapist was a plonker!

Logging them/keeping a diary of them might prove useful, especially if you log where you are at the time, and what you were doing in the previous say, 24 hours, inc. how well you slept the night before.
It may sound daft, but even things you ate and drank might have a bearing.

So a log might show up a pattern you hadn't thought of.

calleyw

Pyxis wrote: »

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Calley, before stopping the meds, have you thought about discussing the sleep situation with your GP again? There may be an alternative.
Also, have you checked from the medicine notes that it's ok to stop them suddenly? I'm sure you have checked, but I'm a warrior! (Sic)!

Thanks for your concern.

As I am on a low dosage it should be ok. I made the mistake last time when on the highest dose just stopping and I was ill for about a week or so kept feeling sick all the time.

I was given anti-histamines last time for the sleep issue. And the pharmacist said that I should not take them very often.

I need to get a routine going of decent amount of sleep, exercise and healthy food.

Yours

Calley

Flybaby

yeah - I have reasoned that to myself - he never leaves messages or texts - so if he had just said I need a chat, I would have called back.


Katy - lol - loving the escapee antics - you will have to think up a suitable rock name for her!


Calley - Totally agree that lack of sleep skews everything - after taking a truck load of sleeping pills last night I got my first decent nights sleep in about 6 months - consequently I have done more in the last 4 hours that I have in the last 6 weeks - no joke. As always, after a decent nights sleep -I feel like a normal human being again.


Can I put in a caution against stopping meds without discussing with doc first? I actually changed my meds about a year ago as I felt it was maybe those making the nightmares worse - so there are others you can try maybe? I take sleeping pills rarely, despite my problems, to avoid addiction, and I would rarely advocate them, however, in your current situation - a few sleeping pills might be in order. it is unbelievable how different everything looks and feels after 1 decent nights sleep. You are sooooo sleep deprived at the moment it is difficult to be confident about any big decisions - so at least consider running it through with doc or hubby or such before stopping the meds?