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disabled_NCIS_fan

The new GP is on about new tests and specialists and possible treatments. Tbh i came out with my head spinning lol. I did give in yesterday and buy some night time protection since i kinda wet the bed. That's another thing they want to check.

Georgiegirl256

Just been really cowardly. DH's eldest brother phoned (hardly ever see them, just usually Christmas and not even always then) because his GF's daughters laptop is faulty. Now, I can't stand the GF. You know when you take an instant dislike to someone? Well that's me with her. She's irritating and she's patronising as hell. I always get the feeling that she's talking down to me and she bangs on about the same things over and over and over again. It's safe to say that she really grinds my gears. :mad:

So he said they'd bring the laptop over (only time they phone is when there's a computer problem, but DH reckons he owes his brother as he paid him though college, so I can understand that), and I decided that then was a good time to go and get a takeaway! I just couldn't face them today, got a splitting headache, in old trackies and t-shirt, hair needs washed, and it's fair to say I'm not exactly feeling my best....plus I haven't seen them for about 2-3 years, and I've put on weight since then....generally just feeling inadequate and feeling sorry for myself.

In the end up it wasn't even her that came round but the daughter and the BF

mumps

seven-day-weekend wrote: »

No, it was me and I did lose a bit of weight, but the sessions have finished now and TBH they were only a help inasmuch as I got weighed by a professional every week, which was motivating, but she did not offer me any help or advice I didn't already know and tbh
did not seem to know any more than I did. It wasn't combined with any counselling which I hoped it might be. I just got weighed really.

I know I have to eat less and exercise more, but food issues are often more complicated than that.

I was always very thin, even after 4 pregnancies, and then my weight suddenly start to go up. I had other symptoms but it was ignored by GP. Then practice nurse guessed what it was, did a blood test and yes I had a very underactive thyroid. So I started on thyroxine and gradually I lost weight. Great, easy solution but I reached a point where I stuck. I think I need to lose a stone, 2 stone would take me back to a more normal weight for me but I don't think I need to be that thin. I have never dieted in my life but think I need to work something out but my problem is a husband who is always hungry, is disabled and can't prepare food himself and who loves everything that you shouldn't have if you want to lose weight. Makes life awkward.

disabled_NCIS_fan

Not cowardly Georgie. More like self preservation to control your emotions. Besides you could have done something much worse than remove yourself from a situation.

I am having a colouring afternoon. My destress time. With how the past few months have been im surprised it is only migraines I have been having and not a stroke. I am not ashamed to admit the toy store took a hammering for colouring supplies with birthday money lol.

Errata

seven-day-weekend wrote: »

For quite a while, I have not been able to control my weight, I am now at my heaviest, I tell no-one, including my husband, how much I weigh.

I just want to eat all the time. Not necessarily because I am hungry. I just 'want' to eat.

Now whilst looking for something else on the internet I came across an uncommon but well-documented side effect of dopamine agonists. I take these in a low dose for Restless Legs Syndrome. One of the side -effects is overeating!

I feel pretty sure it is this making me want to eat all the time. I eat secretly and hide food occasionally. I'm beginning to think I may have a type of eating disorder caused by this medication.

The first post in this link details exactly how I feel (although the author takes ropinirole for Parkinson's Disease, not RLS. The same drug is used, but in a lower dose, fro RLS. I take Requip (ropinirole) either 2 or 3 mg a day depending on hew bad my legs are).

http://forum.parkinson.org/index.php?/topic/9206-ropinirole-and-compulsive-eatingwhat-to-do/

I get sleepy too.


I don't want to stop taking the medication because my life will be unbearable, I won't be able to sleep, sit down for very long, watch the TV because I will have to keep moving around. But I am going to ask the Doc if he has any non-dopamine that might help. (However, i don't think there are - I've tried others, they work for a week or two and that is all.)

Other than that, I need to manage my compulsion and try not to give into it.

Please hold me in your thoughts and also any advice welcomed).

http://www.rls-uk.org/#!what-is-rls/c5mn

Thinking of your. RLS is an absolute buqqer, I had it when I was on a cycle of one particular chemotherapy - drove me nuts but it only happened in bed, so a hefty dose of a sleeper meant the legs could do whatever they fancied and I'd know nothing about lt. It would be worth talking to your doc about a med review for it, especially if you've been on something for it for a while - there may have been developments in treating it which might suit you better.
Secret eating and hiding food is concerning; if this is a fairly new thing do you think it's related to the recent and current stress of buying and refurbing a property whilst trying to sell your current one? (It would give me the opposite problem, I'd go off eating) On the other hand, have you given any thought to why you're keeping your eating a secret from your OH and hiding food from him?
Wishing you well, ignore above if not useful to you.

seven-day-weekend

I am secretive about it because i know I shouldn't be eating it and feel like a greedy pig and it will upset him to see me eating things I shouldn't.

Things like the chocolate bar or the cream cake (not that I eat them every day, you understand!).

I think it is to do with stress, but not to do with the house move, I have been like it longer than that. I think it is having to do with having to be the calm one, the peacemaker, the sensible one, the decision-maker, the organiser, between my husband's anxiety and my son' 'aspie-ness'.

Anyway thanks for taking an interest. I do feel that it might be the medication, I have other symptoms which it can apparently cause. Will make appointment for Drs x

(Taking sleeping tablets makes things worse RLS-wise, because my legs still won't let me sleep, so I'm still up all night but feeling hungover , and my brain wants to go to sleep but my body won't let me).

Errata

The strong man at the bottom of a pile of a dozen acrobats chooses that position, but often finishes up with with dodgy joints and spine whilst the rest of the troupe get a way scot free.
To put it another way, your OH, son and his GF are living the life of Riley and you're paying a significant emotional price for it. How would they cope if you weren't around? Probably quite well.
Good luck at the docs.

Georgiegirl256

disabled_NCIS_fan wrote: »

Not cowardly Georgie. More like self preservation to control your emotions. Besides you could have done something much worse than remove yourself from a situation.

I am having a colouring afternoon. My destress time. With how the past few months have been im surprised it is only migraines I have been having and not a stroke. I am not ashamed to admit the toy store took a hammering for colouring supplies with birthday money lol.

Thanks NCIS You're right, I could have ended up saying something I might have regretted, with my emotions up and down like a yoyo this last week.

Pyxis

Errata wrote: »

The strong man at the bottom of a pile of a dozen acrobats chooses that position, but often finishes up with with dodgy joints and spine whilst the rest of the troupe get a way scot free.
To put it another way, your OH, son and his GF are living the life of Riley and you're paying a significant emotional price for it. How would they cope if you weren't around? Probably quite well.
Good luck at the docs.

That's brilliant! :A

seven-day-weekend

Errata wrote: »

The strong man at the bottom of a pile of a dozen acrobats chooses that position, but often finishes up with with dodgy joints and spine whilst the rest of the troupe get a way scot free.
To put it another way, your OH, son and his GF are living the life of Riley and you're paying a significant emotional price for it. How would they cope if you weren't around? Probably quite well.
Good luck at the docs.

Oh they're not, they all have their problems, I'm the caregiver, that's what you do for people you love if you can. My husband does look after me too, he does things for me that I find difficult, we share, that's what people do.

It does fits in with my personality type:

http://www.personalitypage.com/ISFJ.html

But I agree the acrobat at the bottom of the pyramid who holds the others up get the achey joints . But without that acrobat, there would be no pyramid.