The single track road - life on a different path

maddiemay

De-lurking to say hi from another B12 deficient bod, Pernicious Anemia in my case which means that I cannot absorb it from food, no matter how much liver I eat LOL. Injections for life for me:D

Sub-lingual lozenges or spray work much better than tablets, H&B do a spray which might help, the lozenges I usually buy from A*azon, pm me if you need any details.

It is very often the case that low B12 goes hand in hand with low iron and/or folate, both are needed to make B12 work at cellular level, GP's invariably tell us that our levels are fine, but they need to be fairly high normal. Sadly the majority of medics know sweet nothing about the condition and leave us to struggle.

I will climb down from my soap box now:D

liltdiddylilt

maddiemay you superstar - thanks for that!!! xx

MeandO

Maddiemay, thank you so much for the info, I'm going to look at the spray and lozenges today, ready for purchase on payday Please stick around too, pull up a chair (not the orange one, that's Lilty's and she's quite possessive over it:p), there's tea and cake a plenty.

PBS It's all down to your lovely post, so thank you. The positivity has been tested this morning, but I'm fighting through the negativity ninja-stylee.

Lilty sorry to hear you have the B12 thingy-majig too, pretty scary how it can cause so many symptoms. I could literally tick off 95% of them when I was going through the list. :eek: Maybe the lozenges or spray Maddiemay suggested will be an idea for you too?


I didn't sleep well last night, so I was feeling a bit stressy and irritable this morning. The grumps did start to creep in, especially when Ds burst into tears at the prospect of getting dressed, but I tried to banish them as quickly as possible.

Ds is having trouble at school, with one 'child' in particular and I think that's what the tears were about this morning. This little [STRIKE]brat[/STRIKE] darling is terrorising a few of the kids in Ds's class, nothing serious, but just telling them what they can and can't do, being horrible to them and basically ruling the roost. Ds is not the most confident child and will not stand up to him unfortunately. He has now started to say he doesn't like school anymore and he drew a sad face on a picture at school yesterday and told me it was because of this kid.

We have spoken to his teacher about it before and they did address it, but it seems it's not had much effect, so the ex has spoken to her again this morning whilst taking O to school and basically said it can't be tolerated anymore as it is having a negative effect on our son. She has said she will take it further now, so hopefully it will stop soon. I was genuinely shocked that 'bullying' occurs between 3 and 4 year olds.

I put the chairs together last night and put some new curtains up across the french doors in the kitchen that I have been meaning to do for a while, it's looking lovely.

I also put together the ex's new table, which was the last of the jobs in that house, except for a few pictures and shelves etc., but they will be done at a later date. Happy it's all done for him now, he loves it and did thank me for working so hard to get it all done for him. He was going to pay someone to put the blinds up as he is the least practical man alive, but I have saved him some money doing it myself.
He installed the TV I bought last year for me last night, and is off to get me a DVD player and digital radio today (mostly paid for by boosting our nectar card points hopefully :cool:), to replace the ones that he is taking as these were birthday presents of his and I insisted he take them to his new place. I told him these things are not precious to me and don't bother me, but he is insistent I will have them!

Right, I am officially skint until payday.
The car needed diesel this morning, but I only put £15 in it to conserve funds. I have about £30 left in the main account to last me until Wednesday. The ex has said he will buy cake for Saturday and a few bits of party food for Ds. We found a big box of duplo with car ramps and cars in the garage last night that I's bought for Ds's birthday but forgot about, so we will wrap that up for him for a 'Daddy's new house' present.
All of the bills are paid and there's food in the house, so I don't really need to buy anything, maybe just some fruit and veg.
I could dip into the other pots I have within my bank account, but want to avoid doing that unless I really have to.

Anyway, have rambled on for long enough this morning,

Happy Friday everyone.
xx

MeandO

Oh, forgot to add, have been approved for 0% CC number 3 and associated BT, so all of the debt will now be at 0%, spread across 3 cards (which I'm not keen on, but the only way to make it all 0%), so I will now focus on paying those off ASAP.

MeandO

oh, and I also ordered my Dad a beautiful rose bush today as a birthday present, paid for with a tesco clubcard offer and posted directly to him, saving me £20.

MeandO

Wooo - and I've got another star!!!

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MeandO

OOh, PBS, I've just seen you live in my neck of the woods too xx

MeandO

Make that £25 left...

I forgot I'd asked my lovely friend and colleague to cut my hair for me and I always give her £10 for doing so. She always says there's no need, but I know she really needs the money and she saves me a fortune in not having to go to salons, I'd give her more if I could.

I also remembered there's £5 in my purse.

Having to fight the sadness big time today, I'm pretty sure it's mostly because of the upheaval of the weekend ahead. I guess when you've been living with someone for 11 years, it's never going to be easy seeing them move out despite knowing it's for the best.

liltdiddylilt

Hello poppet

I am so happy to see there are lots of good and positive things going on. You have built your own personal rainbow in your kitchen. What could be more cheerful than that? mothernerd on the forums has knit herself a rainbow scarf which she wears everywhere so that she takes her own personal rainbow with her wherever she goes. I must do the same (scrap knitting, add buying instead.. a cannot knit!)

You cannot enforce cheeriness on yourself at all times, especially not in times of upheaval. The thing you need to do is recognise the less cheery moments and don't allow them the same impact. You're still allowed to be sad you know...

I hated my ex by the time I moved out 6 months after we had split. He had broken my laptop, repeatedly ignored my privacy, punched the fridge and broke his hand and left an unsightly dent in the fridge. He broke the sofa. He was vicious and nasty and I couldn't really blame him but I couldn't wait to get away.. and yet still I cried like a baby that night after I left. We had been together for 5 years, so not 11 but still... our lives were mapped out and it just didn't work out like that.

With Him... it took him moving out and disappearing and only coming to see Jellytot for us to realise that there was still plenty there in our relationship to be cherished and maybe worked on. I am not saying that will or has to happen for you to be happy; you might find life is far simple after a few weeks and you enjoy it. But don't write it off. Take the time and learn who you are on your own again. DO things that make you happy. Go to bed whenever you like. Start eating peas or mushrooms or asparagus or tonnes of garlic or whatever it is that you cut out of your diet because ex didn't like it.. Find a new tv channel that you think you might enjoy (for me, I got obsessed with Castle on alibi which is on youview as well as sky etc!) and record it... and watch it when you feel like!

As for the money.. worry not - I am sure you will be ok. If not I can always start buying more stuff off you have you sorted the credits etc?

Big hugs chuck. Lots of love.. xxx

MeandO

Makes me sad to hear you suffered such horrible behaviour from your ex Lilty, I'm so glad you're out of that situation now. Love your 'eating peas' suggestion lol! :rotfl:
Yeah, I know all three of us will be fine, but I just fall into pits of sadness now and then, as to how it has worked out. It's like unexpected potholes in the road. I wish some b*gger would come along with some tarmac and fill them in pretty quick!
I guess what I have to look at is that I got a beautiful boy and a best friend, in the ex, out of it.
As for not writing it off, I love the ex dearly and I know he loves me too, but 'THAT' feeling just isn't there anymore and hasn't been for a long time. I really wish it was, but it isn't, especially not for me.
To be honest, it has always been that we got on brilliantly as best mates who make each other laugh like no-one else and would do anything for each other, but I'm not sure if the 'other side of it' was ever there or if we pretended it was because we got on so well.

He is my best friend, he knows me better than anyone and we will always be fiercely protective of each other, but the thought of anything else is a bit 'shuddery' to be honest as he is more like a brother figure to me now, well, than my own brother. I hope that makes sense and doesn't sound bad.
I wish we could have it all and have a perfect life where everything was 'right' but you can't force feelings that aren't there I guess and it's unfair on everyone involved to pretend otherwise.
Like you said, it still makes me very sad though.

Yes, tax credits has been posted off today, so hopefully that will be sorted soon. Do I have to re-apply for the new financial year though? I'm not sure how it works to be honest.

As for rainbows, Lilty - check this out...it's beautiful... I just ordered the ex the superhero version for Father's Day (money taken out of my presents budget of course ).

https://www.etsy.com/uk/listing/217463775/hand-painted-when-it-rains-look-for?ref=fp_item&aref=33142293718