We all need to be heard for a little while.

mellymoo74

I agree code.

Tea really get some one to stay with you for moral support.

Right I AM showering now. I smell like a rotting corpse.

tea_lover

There is no way on earth he's getting in my nice clean bed again! Legally I can't stop him staying in the spare room, if he can be bothered to move all the stuff that's in there and sort the bed.

Unfortunately there isn't anyone that could stay here. Shame. I'm starting to wish I had a big burly mate that could have a word with him.

He seems to think that because he's changed his mind we'll now just go along with what he wants. Stupid thing is that he doesn't even want to be with me. I think he just doesn't like that I'm telling him to get stuffed. I've put up with whatever he's done for years, I don't think either of us expected me to stop.

mellymoo74

They don't have to be burly just there (He's behaviour will change of there a witness)

mellymoo74

Shower not best plan

Arm gone again

Scalp hurts
Stupid head

Hoipolloi

Tea, what a nightmare. No one should have to put up with that. He should be ashamed, but more importantly, he should be addressing his drinking issues/alcoholism.

Georgiegirl256

What an absolute idiot he is tea You've made it perfectly clear that you and him are over, and yet still he won't leave. I hope he starts playing ball soon.

whitewing

tea,

I hope things are better for you today.

I have lost a total of 12kg. Someone asked if I noticed the difference. The answer is yes and no. Certainly I can physically do a lot more things without using my hands, eg getting out of bed, getting up out of the chair. My clothes are looser.

I am finding though that I am more likely to look at myself in the mirror or be in photos and, for the first time, I am not ignoring my size. I am also talking a little about it too other people so I guess I am easier to live with in that sense as I am not sending off bad vibes. I find it really disappointing that I have let myself get to this stage (whereas before, although I didn't like it,, I did take comfort in the fact that it made me more invisible). The other slightly odd thing is that I can't really tell about the weight loss myself ie I can see the scales saying a different number but I don't feel any different. This is very hard to explain.

On the plus side, if I can lose another 3kg, then I will be lighter than DH has ever known me and I think that will spur me on.

Definitely it is my martial arts class that has made the difference. This is because there are other people there so I try to keep up with them, but in MA it is also normal to have different levels of abilities in the class and hence people doing slightly different exercises too so we get pushed and inspired but it doesn't become too difficult.

We are going out for the day soon. Struggling to get going but it will be good once we do!

calleyw

whitewing wrote: »

tea,
The other slightly odd thing is that I can't really tell about the weight loss myself ie I can see the scales saying a different number but I don't feel any different. This is very hard to explain.

Well done on the weight loss. I am slowly losing mine. About 3 years ago I was about 15st 7lbs. I went down to 12st 7lbs and then put about 1st 7lbs. And been losing the same 7lbs. But trying trying really hard.

No its not odd. Even when I was 12st 7lbs I felt like that and did not see that I was any different. I still had a big belly and bum and boobs.

But my clothes did fit better and I was size smaller in jeans. An ex use to call me buxom but I say fat. And know that with hard work and it will be very hard work that I can get slimmer.

Losing is half the battle. But keeping it off will be the biggest battle. I am single at the moment so its easy. I can eat what and when it suit me. Not sure what will happen if I get in to a relationship and then god forbid live with them. Not going to be easy. I am very sure of that.

Anyway. Right time to go and do some food shopping. Catch you all later.

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Yours

Calley

codemonkey

Well done on the weight loss whitewing. That's brilliant :beer:

In the last month, I have lost just over 1 stone (6.35 kg), which is great and I am feeling more confident. I still have another 4 stone to get back to the normal BMI section and 5 to get to the optimum, but for the moment, I'm focussing on maybe being a dress size smaller when we go on holiday, because last time we were away I was really self-conscious about being photographed. Part of the weight loss I think is from coming off the weight gain 3000 and the other part is because I have really been trying.

DH has noticed a difference and keeps pointing out that my jeans are too big, so that makes me feel good.

In other news, I had difficulty sleeping last night. I kept getting these massive waves of adrenaline which were physically jolting me off the bed and then I couldn't relax. It's not a bank holiday here so I have to work.

Also had the MRI on Friday. I was so nervous but once I was in there my inner geek kicked in and it was ok.

Calley - everyone gains weight in relationships. I've mentioned before about the schadenfreude I felt when an old friend of mine who was really about looks gained a lot of weight after she got married. I'm not sure if it's because you have loads of meals out or you're just so comfy that it's nice to just laze in front of the tv and share a tub of ice cream.

calleyw

codemonkey wrote: »

Calley - everyone gains weight in relationships. I've mentioned before about the schadenfreude I felt when an old friend of mine who was really about looks gained a lot of weight after she got married. I'm not sure if it's because you have loads of meals out or you're just so comfy that it's nice to just laze in front of the tv and share a tub of ice cream.

Well a relationship is a long way off on the horizon for me LOL!!!

Well thats the thing I don't want to slide back the way I did in my marriage. I gained a lot of weight. As my husband was one of these people who can eat loads and gain hardly any. And I just lost respect for myself. Nothing that he did, he adore and loved me to bits. I got complacent and let myself go.

I am comfort/binge eater and I am working on that.

At the moment I seem to be on an even keel not happy but not sad. And seem to be keeping my emotions in check too.

My eating at the moment yes is very boring but it's helping me and I am sure going back out to work is going to test me as well.

Yours

Calley