We all need to be heard for a little while.

Waves_and_Smiles

Evening All! Welcome, SWC! We all always listen to you if you want to talk.

Elsien, sometimes just being there for someone is enough, just a presence so that they don't feel alone. Look after you, too.

MU, it is still very early days, you will still need a bit of time to process everything. Disney films to the rescue! Or Pokemon! (I want a Charizard!)

They won't take my blood either, LIR. It's annoying!

As for me, well blah. I am still feeling shaky but I seem to be working through it in my dreams rather than whilst awake. For the past few weeks I have dreamt of a converted theatre every night. It is full of people from my past living in rooms, the accommodation is apparently for those who feel vulnerable. I have been meeting more and more people each time I dream.

Last night I met my old flatmate. For some reason I asked her if she has ever wanted to have another try at life? To go back to the beginning and start again and try to put things right. That it wasn't fair that I had so many years behind me and decisions that I couldn't change. I was crying because of lost opportunities, I woke up very depressed. Now, until today I didn't feel depressed at all, just very shaky and paranoid. I still don't know what all of this about and frustratingly I seem to be dealing with it when I dream. When awake I can't think of anything that has happened recently to cause depression at all, but now I definitely feel it. It's confusing.

elsien

They don't want mine either anymore. I used to donate without any problems then the weight limit got revised upwards and I suddenly became officially too small. I did offer half an armful but apparently it wasn't worth their while.
Same with the Anthony Nolan bone marrow register, they have similar rules. And you had to be under 45. Very worthwhile cause though if anyone's interested and does fit the criteria. They were quite keen to register more people from ethnic minorities as well.

System

I want to give blood but apart from the meds i think

small PENGUIN i don't think they let you for either 6 months or a year after an episode of self harm, so i cant for a while /PENGUIN

i can't so not sure. I would if i can though even though i faint when having blood tests

Waves_and_Smiles

Your little penguin is correct, MU. I have been told the same myself.

Pyxis

I've tried more than once to give blood, but no, due to meds.

Even when I was only on asthma inhalers, they wouldn't let me.

Waves_and_Smiles

I'm the same Pyxis, steroids for a start is a big no no nevermind everything else. Plus I am either anaemic or borderline anaemic so they won't let me give blood for my own sake. My dad used to do it and I always told him that I would when I grew up, sadly it isn't possible.

lostinrates

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

I'm the same Pyxis, steroids for a start is a big no no nevermind everything else. Plus I am either anaemic or borderline anaemic so they won't let me give blood for my own sake. My dad used to do it and I always told him that I would when I grew up, sadly it isn't possible.

My meds are allowed ( oh, I don't know about the happy pill) but after some thing and froing my health condition was deemed not.

The final word on it was ' should you recover we would be pleased to consider'. Hmm, apparently this is gonna kill me at some point, so chances are slim :rotfl: :rotfl:

jobbingmusician

xXMessedUpXx wrote: »

had to remind myself that the bit i'm grieving for wasn't the relationship we had but the relationship i wished we could have had (and in the beginning thought we would have), and the reality was that bit didn't really exist except in my head i guess.

OMG OMG that is sooo wise! I wish someone had said that to me at some of my breakups, earlier in life! I am stunned and in awe of your wisdom, seriously! xxxx

WaS - hang on in there. Sounds as if you are doing really well, actually, but it must be horrid. If I can be bossy and diagnostic, I think your depression is actually repressed anger (crossness, if you prefer) at your confidentiality having been breached. You are too nice to say anything or even admit it to yourself, but you are seething inside! And it's a proper reaction, so don't worry! xxxxx

codemonkey

Pyxis wrote: »

So if I gave 8 pints, I'd be slim! :j

No, you'd be in need of a blood transfusion.

I don't want to boast but I just made beef rendang and coconut rice. So very tasty. Didn't even wait for it to cool down and thinking of having more.

Waves_and_Smiles

Omg flasback, JM! My psychotherapist used to constantly tell me that a lot of my depression is anger turned inwards because I was scared of feeling angry (thinking people die when I get angry) so I turn it on myself. It's funny because I always say I am the most laid back person you could meet because I am hardly ever angry, it actually isn't necessarily healthy. You are probably correct.

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