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Pyxis

Hahaha! Purpleshoes!

I say, hahahaha, but they sound like they were a nightmare! A lesbian, just because you were going on hols on your own? :eek:

Well, in the last 10 years, all but two of my holidays were on my own. Albeit with a holiday company, but still, on my own! No-one I know, who is able to holiday without family, likes the sort of hols I do, ie not beach hols, but music/history/archeology/art etc. hols. so if I didn't go on my own, I'd never go! Have found a couple of companies with whom I feel very, very comfortable to go on my own, and there's a good mix of people on their own and people in couples, so it's great!

In fact, on the two occasions I went with a friend, I found it quite restricting, as I was constantly compromising! :rotfl:

purpleshoes_2

Yeah, more or less

The thing is, after he had insulted me (and it wasnt because he called me a lesbian, it was the snap judgement thing), he was like do you want to meet up with us and party????

I was like, thanks, but no. I actually wonder if they made it back to the plane in one piece and believe me I live in the west of scotland where people get drunk now and then.

But Ive been on midnight flights with folk who were steaming drunk, but not as steaming as these guys were, Im amazed they actually got on the plane in the first place.

I had to listen to, when I was young you could have a cig in the loo, even after he was made to sign the form, same, on repeat. Thats what too much voddie does to you, clearly.

purpleshoes_2

I should have told him I was in my mid 40s (I look a bit younger)

And have cats, that would have really got him going

ha ha ha ha ha

Waves_and_Smiles

I would love to go on an archaeology holiday! One of the things I wanted to be when I grew up was an archaeologist. I find it fascinating, hence my love of fossils!

jobbingmusician

WaS!!!!!!!!!!!!! Does WaSP KNOW that's what you call him? :eek:

:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:

Waves_and_Smiles

Hahahahahahahaha! Oh dear, now I have to explain him why I'm laughing so much!

tea_lover

Pyxis, your hols sound amazing! I think I'd be able to pluck up the courage to go on my own...we shall find out! I'd be fine if I was totally on my own (eg. staying in a cottage or similar, then exploring by myself). It's the thought of going on my own but with other people (iyswim) that freaks me out.

Pyxis

Haha! I'm the opposite! I'd hate to go completely on my own! I go with a company that organises everything. It means I don't have to be on my own unless I really want to! I don't mind eating on my own in the hotel restaurant but I'd hate to go out to a restaurant alone, especially if I don't speak the language.

It's the language thing, much more than the being on my own thing. I go into wimp mode when I don't understand the language!

SingleSue

Josh got brave again last night and was singing in public once more.....think his demons are finally being slayed!

Video of it here, apologies for the shaky start, pesky nerve damage means I now have a bit of a tremor... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=od2C7BNeask

SingleSue

My update - been a bit of an up and down week. Started off the week ok but it gradually got worse and yesterday (before the concert), I was feeling almost in my bubble.

I don't know why I allow it but controlling ex husband manages to do it every time...this time, he made me feel the bad guy because he was annoyed at what he received for his birthday from the boys (which they had chosen with much care and thought), so much so that he declared that he hadn't received anything at all from them and went off on one.

This obviously upset the boys, I was running around trying to keep everyone happy and in the end, I got all the blame (not from the boys though, they were and still are very angry at their father).

At the same time, mum was ringing from their caravan saying dad was not right again (he has heart failure, history of heart attacks and numerous strokes), so not only was I trying to fire fight between the boys and their dad but was also trying to advise mum on what to do and of course, stressing about dad.

I know it seems all very minor but it doesn't take much for me to start to withdraw or have those feelings of being a crap mother, a disappointment to everyone, a failure.

On top of this, I have been feeling tremendous guilt, eldest son went away abroad for the first time as an adult and because of the hereditary condition I gave him, he has had a nightmare journey and a holiday full of pain when at 21, he should have been having the time of his life.

Sometimes I hate what I have given the boys, they only have to look at me to see where they will end up...in a wheelchair with a house adapted for a disabled person. Eldest will probably get there a lot sooner than I did, he already needs to use a stick (and probably should use a wheelchair too at times) whereas, my stick usage wasn't until I was in my 30's. He was warned he would be in a wheelchair by his mid 20's but was determined to beat the odds, unfortunately, he only seems to have quickened the process.

I've been so strong these last few months and I am so annoyed at myself for feeling so weak and tearful these last few days for what is (in the grand scheme of things), things that are so minor.