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feelinggood_2

OA - Overeaters Anonymous, MAA - Multiaddiction Anyonmous, SLA - Sex & Love Addicts Anonymous, CoDA - Codenpendants Anonymous.

I know its the illness talking, but it really, really feels like 'using' is much, much better than being sober. 18 months and 3 days I've been trying, doing everything that is suggested, and I'm still as unhappy as I was. At the moment, it doesn't actually feel any better

lewt

Feelie are you doing everything that is suggested in the book or suggestions by your sponser ? where are you on your ammends ? when you retire at night are t
you throughly reviewing your day P86, also talks about on awaking. are you actively working with other alcoholics and getting out of self ?

feelinggood_2

lewt wrote: »

Feelie are you doing everything that is suggested in the book or suggestions by your sponser ? where are you on your ammends ? when you retire at night are t
you throughly reviewing your day P86, also talks about on awaking. are you actively working with other alcoholics and getting out of self ?

I suppose I'm not doing everything suggested. Just fed up with it all Desire to change has completely gone - have felt absolutely awful since my Step 5.

I've only made 3 ammends.

Taffyscot

feelinggood wrote: »

OA - Overeaters Anonymous, MAA - Multiaddiction Anyonmous, SLA - Sex & Love Addicts Anonymous, CoDA - Codenpendants Anonymous.

I know its the illness talking, but it really, really feels like 'using' is much, much better than being sober. 18 months and 3 days I've been trying, doing everything that is suggested, and I'm still as unhappy as I was. At the moment, it doesn't actually feel any better

FEELING GOOD oops sorry caps lock was on but it is appropriate. just look at the name you must be feeling better than the crap you felt like before.
you are going through a bad patch dont go there it is much harder to climb back out of that slimey pit than it is to slide into it.
go to a meeting dont give up on that 18 months it will get better one day at a time. taffy

feelinggood_2

Taffyscot wrote: »

FEELING GOOD oops sorry caps lock was on but it is appropriate. just look at the name you must be feeling better than the crap you felt like before.
you are going through a bad patch dont go there it is much harder to climb back out of that slimey pit than it is to slide into it.
go to a meeting dont give up on that 18 months it will get better one day at a time. taffy

I was orginally 'Feelingupset', but was advised to change my name and think more positively! Fat lot of good that has done.

It really doesn't feel like this is ever going to end. I know I need to change, but I don't know how to change. I'm praying every morning for the willingness, but it ain't working. I'm taking a daily inventory, and I'm constantly repeating the same negative behaviours (binging/purging, self-harm, casual sex). Sponsor says I need more help than she can give

vik6525

*creeps in as ive never posted on here before*


Can I join in too please?

brodev

feelinggood wrote: »

I was orginally 'Feelingupset', but was advised to change my name and think more positively! Fat lot of good that has done.

It really doesn't feel like this is ever going to end. I know I need to change, but I don't know how to change. I'm praying every morning for the willingness, but it ain't working. I'm taking a daily inventory, and I'm constantly repeating the same negative behaviours (binging/purging, self-harm, casual sex). Sponsor says I need more help than she can give

Hi Feelie, I noticed your earlier post and thought "I don't know what to say". The truth is I do know how you feel. Getting sober was, for me, great at first then having to deal with life and reality without the help of alcohol really sucked. I was full of buttons that got reactions when pushed. I needed constant reassurance that I was liked/loved. I knew what went on in my own head and that if anybody ever found out that they would think me as mad or bad or even both. I don't know what caused these feelings. I only know I had them and I felt bad. I had to eventually accept that I was totally, completely and utterly powerless over alcohol and that I could not manage my own affairs (drunk or sober). I needed help and I got that in AA. It was pointed out to me that as long as I hung on to the option of drinking then I was going to have to fight that. It was only by total surrender and by giving up the option of drinking that I would be relieved of that obsession. It seems to me that you may not have done this. I suggest that if you haven't, then that you now consider doing it. I wish you every success

brodev

vik6525 wrote: »

*creeps in as ive never posted on here before*


Can I join in too please?

You just have welcome and come again soon

lewt

feelinggood wrote: »

I suppose I'm not doing everything suggested. Just fed up with it all Desire to change has completely gone - have felt absolutely awful since my Step 5.

I've only made 3 ammends.

step 5 made me feel not the greatest mate, however by reading it, it pointed out how selfish i had been and kinda six was done as hearing and seeing it all made me wanna change. 7 is a daily thing for me, 8 and 9 are covered in 10. but i cant stress the freedom more that comes from finding the humility to go and make the ammends to people i had harmed and that inculded the people i had had in my resentments. this was the tough one. but like the book says i took the bit in my teeth and i was amazed before i was half way though.

remember its a program of action mate if we rest on our laurels the results are nil.

lewt

vik6525 wrote: »

*creeps in as ive never posted on here before*


Can I join in too please?

crack on mate how you doing?