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lewt

where r u on your steps feelie?

feelinggood_2

lewt wrote: »

where r u on your steps feelie?

Going to do some reading on Step Eight with my Sponsor next week.

lewt

feelinggood wrote: »

Going to do some reading on Step Eight with my Sponsor next week.

maybe you have list of people from step 4 ? i'd suggest cracking on with the step 9 ones you are willing to do. its a lot to sit with after doing 4 and 5. i was out doing 9 on the same day i did 4,5 6 ,7 and 8 is an ongoing thing.... speak to your sponser though. what books you reading ?
all the best.

feelinggood_2

lewt wrote: »

maybe you have list of people from step 4 ? i'd suggest cracking on with the step 9 ones you are willing to do. its a lot to sit with after doing 4 and 5. i was out doing 9 on the same day i did 4,5 6 ,7 and 8 is an ongoing thing.... speak to your sponser though. what books you reading ?
all the best.

We just read the Big Book and the 12 and 12. I've made a start on my list, most of it was covered in Step Four, I'm just making sure its thorough enough. I've already made a few ammends, but we need to discuss a few of the more 'delicate' ones.

I'm just back from a meeting and it really helped to clear my head. I think I've been on a bit of a dry bender. I'm going to up my meetings for a while, get back on track. I need to remember that I've got to be willing to go to any lengths.

jo1972

It makes me laugh sat here reading this thread, feelinggood, I read your post day before yesterday and was willing you to not drink and get through the bad patch. Then read your posts today and am so pleased that you got to a meeting and getting back on track. Reason it makes me laugh is, I've done nothing about my own situation but more concerned about others. I presume it's denial although I know all about it, head burying I guess....

brodev

Glad you are getting through your bad patch Feelie. Unfortunately we all go through them. the only consolation is that we come out of them stronger and better able to see them coming and better able to take avoiding action, "growing pains".
Jo although you may think that you have done nothing about your own situation, you actually have. By reading this thread and concerning yourself about others in a similar situation you are laying down the seeds of your own recovery. You just have to remember to nurture theses seeds and perhaps get yourself along to a meeting or two.
Funnily I remember complaining to my sponsor that a particular meeting was full of ****. He said "Good, you can do with some manure to help you grow". I could never win with him fortunately

lewt

feelinggood wrote: »

We just read the Big Book and the 12 and 12. I've made a start on my list, most of it was covered in Step Four, I'm just making sure its thorough enough. I've already made a few ammends, but we need to discuss a few of the more 'delicate' ones.

I'm just back from a meeting and it really helped to clear my head. I think I've been on a bit of a dry bender. I'm going to up my meetings for a while, get back on track. I need to remember that I've got to be willing to go to any lengths.

hey glad your feeling better, was looking at my last post and was not meaning to come across as telling hwat to do. its your recovery not mine. we all go through times where its hard for me its not long after i think ive cracked the whole revcovery thing normally. the importnat thing is to find what works for you.
With ammends ive found that i have to be hard on my self and be sure not to harm others. sometimes the addict in me can try and twist this so i think i dont have to make ammends cause i immagine that it may harm others.
it was the popel i had resentments with i had to paray for a long time to have the willingness to go admit my part and leave theres out. but i have done most of the oridinal ones now.
i have learnt that if im not able to sit with myslef or go to sleep without the tele or ipod on, then im not feeling comfortable with myself. ive found this is a good indicator of where im at. and when im not going sleep in silence night after night then i know there is something i could be doing better. my mate sent me a poen that summed up alot of it and ill post it below.

nice to meet you jo.

lewt

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for,
And if you dare to dream of meeting
Your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
For love, for your dreams,
For the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon.
I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow,
If you have been opened by life's betrayals,
Or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain.
I want to know if you can sit with pain,
Mine or your own,
Without moving
To hide it or fade it or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy,
Mine or your own,
If you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
Without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being human.

I want to know if you can see beauty
Even when it is not pretty every day,
And if you can source your life
From God's presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure,
Yours and mine,
And still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon,
"Yes!"

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair,
Weary and bruised to the bone,
And do what needs to be done for the children.

It doesn't interest me who you are, how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
In the center of the fire with me
And not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
From the inside
When all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone
With yourself,
And if you truly like the company you keep
In the empty moments.

Bogof_Babe

That is quite beautiful Lewt, it brought tears to my eyes. Such simple sentiments, and yet it seems to reach for your very soul. Did your friend write it him/herself?

lewt

dont think so bogfbabe, i liked it though, ill post some more as i get a few things like this most days.....