New Alcohol self help

ac

i realised i was an alcoholic 2 years before i actually tried to do anything about it

i was quite happy in my own little world, and quite happy knowing i had a drink problem (so i thought)

i loved everything about the whirlwind affair i had with the booze......

i loved the sound of the 'pssssst', the screw top made as i undid the top....

i loved feeling the monster inside me 'stir, awaken'.... knowing the second the drink touched my lips that i was going to end up drunk and in the whoooshey placed i loved to be.......

it was only when i hit my rock bottem is when i had a second of clarity of wot was happening was i prepared to do something about it......

i loved to drink and still now would love a drink
(thats how i no i am an alcoholic..........)
who in their right mind would want a drink and risk everything i have been through, acheived since i quit (thats the insanity of the illness)

but thats ok..... ive accepted wot and who i am........

im not preaching to anyone....so im sorry if my earlier posts came over that way......

brodev

ac wrote: »

i loved to drink and still now would love a drink

Hi AC. Identification with a big "I". Eventually I found that I liked being sober so much that I didn't want to drink, but it took a while. Now I am so used to life without drink that if they brought out a guaranteed cure tomorrow I would probably opt not to drink anyway. If some had told me that I could ever say such a thing I would have thought them balmy.

lewt

brodev wrote: »

Hi AC. Identification with a big "I". Eventually I found that I liked being sober so much that I didn't want to drink, but it took a while. Now I am so used to life without drink that if they brought out a guaranteed cure tomorrow I would probably opt not to drink anyway. If some had told me that I could ever say such a thing I would have thought them balmy.

I'm with you on this one mate. that need/want has been removed. it took some hard work and some pride swollwing. and i know i must maintain my recovery but as long as i do what ive been shown and carry on being fearless(easy with a little prayer) in my inventorys then i can see my life without drink. i could nt before as if i thought id never drink again id want to drinkbut i aint had that for a while.

I get my buzz's off helping other people or hearing a wicked share at a meeting. me being one for chasing buzz's i think im going to hang around..

brodev

A friend of mine tried to commit suicide 2 days ago. He suffers from bipolar disorder. We have had many discussions in the past about our illnesses and I am always grateful that my illness alcoholism doesn't really give me any problems if I just stay away from 1 drink for 1 day. What he would give for such a simple answer.

andipandi_2

brodev wrote: »

A friend of mine tried to commit suicide 2 days ago.

a very tricky situation,been there with myself

lewt

What a strange day, i have had a call with in the last hour to say one of my sponcies have taken an over dose in the night. he's on his way to hospital now.

andipandi_2

lewt wrote: »

What a strange day, i have had a call with in the last hour to say one of my sponcies have taken an over dose in the night. he's on his way to hospital now.

maybe its the crap summer,not enough vitamin d or something but theres a lot of folks suffering recently,hope you sponsor is ok(if he wants to be)

lewt

sorry andi i think you misunderstood im his sponser... he aint been in touch lately though.... so he may have found someone else. i spoke to my mate who rang him yesterday and he said he was fine.

all being well he'll be out and we can speak about being honest together and what it means..... you know all that to thy self be true and all that

andipandi_2

lewt wrote: »

sorry andi i think you misunderstood im his sponser... he aint been in touch lately though.... so he may have found someone else. i spoke to my mate who rang him yesterday and he said he was fine.

all being well he'll be out and we can speak about being honest together and what it means..... you know all that to thy self be true and all that

ahh wasn't sure what sponcies means!

glad hes ok ish

lewt

the truth is mate i dont know whats happening i was called today by his house mate abd told he'd taken loads of tablets i said its best to get him to the hospital. and i aint heard anything since. although i did ask to be kept in the loop.

His phones off now. so i'll have to wait and see.

how you been getting on andy?