New Alcohol self help

andipandi_2

lewt wrote: »

how do you mean andi?

not really sure but somethings happening with me,i'm going to get radical one way or the other,i'm struggling to say what i feel and thats just not me,i'll post my progress here but if i disappear for a few days it doesn't mean all is bad.

andipandi_2

idunno about 1 day at a time,1 minute at a time is hard enough:mad:

brodev

This thread has made my day.
Congratulations Lewt on having the courage and fortitude in opening a new thread.
Thanks to MS team for permitting it.
I hope Andi that you will have the strength to try and stop drinking. I think that the worst situation is knowing that you should and trying to pretend to yourself that you don't have to. At least it was for me.
When I didn't know what booze was doing to me it was bad enough but after I discovered that what was happening to me also happened to others and that by stopping drinking they were getting better, my continued drinking really screwed me up. Any little pleasure that was left in drinking had been taken away and I now knew what I was doing to myself.

andipandi_2

sweat pouring out like i'm a running tap,hallucinations,sleep deprivation ,its like the f in twilight zone

lewt

you completely off it andi?

andipandi_2

lewt wrote: »

you completely off it andi?

sort of yes,nothing with me is ever straight forward really,i'm not saying everything at the mo,don't want to set myself up and end up failing ,

as i stated before i'm in harm reduction mode at the moment and i'm doing ok with that,last night was better than expected because i got through it with out heart palpitations and meds,not sure how much sleep i got,i didn't know what planet i was on really.

woodandnails

I hope no one minds if I butt in here.
I'm a long term member of MSE forums but because family members know my username I have created a new one to post here.
I've known I've had a problem for some time now. For the past few years I have been drinking alcohol for the wrong reasons (mainly as a way to cope with my social anxiety, depression etc) but over the past year it has really got out of hand. I get drunk every day. My grades have failed badly and I am poorly performing at work. I even got to the stage where I couldn't go to classes without having a couple of drinks before (my depression had got really bad then and I could barely leave my flat).

I've been burying my head hoping this will sort itself out but it just gets worse

I don't know where to go for help, I don't like my doctors (I have been to loads but not found one I like yet) and don't even know if that is something you can bring up there. Also I scared if I tell them this it will affect what drugs they prescribe me (atm I am on an anti-depressant and a beta blocker for my physical anxiety symptoms).

Where do I turn??
I would feel really weird going to an alcoholics anonymous meeting.

ETA: I have REALLY tried to stop drinking but I can't. I really don't know how to start. And tbh I am in my early 20s. A life of sobriety scares me , I don't even know if I want that (bad thinking I know but I am trying to be honest)

ac

'A life of sobriety scares me '

it scares the ***** out of me too thats why ODAAT works.....

if alcohol is costing you more than money, ....
if your drinking when you really dont want to.......

sounds all to familiar my friend.........

you have took the first step into helping yourself....

only you no if you have got a problem with alcohol......

ac

P.S.........

do you think the people in an 'AA' metting feel 'normal' (wotever that is)

they most probably feel as weird as you would

andipandi_2

ac wrote: »

'A life of sobriety scares me '

it scares the ***** out of me too thats why ODAAT works.....

if alcohol is costing you more than money, ....
if your drinking when you really dont want to.......

sounds all to familiar my friend.........

you have took the first step into helping yourself....

only you no if you have got a problem with alcohol......

Hi ac,my point to state here is i like drinking,i have a good social life around the stuff,i quit playing competition pool because i didn't want to drink sometimes but if i'm in the pub i drink alcohol,i always will,when i'm not drinking i stay away from the pub,

i don't like the physical effects of being knackered the next day or the fact my brain is like mush,i don't suffer hangovers because my body is used to the stuff,

until everything came on top i was drinking 2 nights a week which i was quite content with( i was also suffering hangovers which to me is a good sign)

now as you may know AA works with the disease model,ie you drink you don't stop then it will kill you which is very true but not in all cases,every liver function test i have had has been fine thus far but there are no warning signs apart from yellow eyes and back ache.(and the jaundiced look common to drinkers)

what does one say to someone like me in anycase,lungs with asbestos in,worked in preservation using horrid chemicals that are now banned,
bottom line is if i want to drink i will,if my body wants to drink and i don't i won't,just like last night,hellish experience but i didn't want to drink,

its the poor sods i know that when i say i'm an alcoholic they say oh what are you going to do about it,yet these people are mutilated on the stuff,they don't eat, take vitamins or drink water.

oops gone on a bit lol