New Alcohol self help

star-X_2

hi, sorry to interrupt. My name is ____ and im an alcoholic, i have been for many years. I have been clean off of class as for 8 years on 7th feb 2008, but drinking and smoking green and pot seems to have overtaken all the good ive done. i am at a loss, i am struggling, i have frreedom of choice i know that, unfortunatly its gone further than that as i hope manywill idnetif. Ive been 2rehab, i chose to celebrate 45 mins after returning home, of that i am appalled about. I had stoppee smoking green and pot for one day under 2 weeks and gave up, drinking i can do one day, im a mess physically other than that. I ams oo cross with myself, i hate drink, why do i have to do it all the time, i dont even want it, you know when it gets to the point where u know u hate it but youre still doing it, resenting every mouthful, ive been ,like that for over 8 years, why am i stilll doing it. I dotn even look in the mirror any more, i make myself sick that much, i soo hope someone identifies. I wasboguht up in care if that helps xxxx

lewt

Hey star you just told my story there... puff and drink were the things i used at the end years after putting the class a's down. but its all the same thing really don't you find ? i used it for the same reasons as i used class a's
i remember feeling the same way about drink as you and still doing it. it was not long before the end, i just didnt feel p1ssed no more i felt like i had the flu all the time, but if i stopped i went into withdrawal and that was worse. hard place and rock eh ?
i never looked in the mirror either unless i was well gone and trying to figure a hard look so no one bothered me on the way to the shop......
you may have read on here that i go to AA. I also go to another fellowship in which i can talk about all the substances i used, alcohol was just one in a long line for me. its called http://www.cauk.org.uk/ cocaine anonymous, please dont be putt off by the name as you said your not using class a's at the mo. it is for all mind alturing chemicals. including alcohol. and from your post it seems you have the requiremnts for membership which is a disere to stop using all mind alturing chemicals.

you sound like you have had enough of feeling like you do, i had and the fellowships have helped me recover.

Its all there i know i sound like im up my own when i say but my life has completely changed from going through the process suggested. i hope you keep posting mate. and wish you all the best. well done for making the step to post. please dont feel you are intrupting

lewt

mygeorgie wrote: »

Hi Horace, This is my very first post. I myself have a drinking problem that is to say if i have one i get a taste for it and then just keep going and going until i pass out. So i have to abstain completely which is what i am trying to do again now. I sympathise with you wholeheartedly as i know i have caused my OH alot of worry upset stress anxiety - you get my drift? The problem is i think your OH has to admit to himself that he has a problem if he car'nt do that I to think that alanon could provide you with the support you need.

hey georgie, welcome and thanks for posting.....

Bogof_Babe

Just saying hi and welcome to mygeorgie and star-X, you are both very brave to have taken this first step. That's the hard part over with :T .

Know what, this is a lovely thread - it sort of hugs you and makes you feel you can get better, and the day you join in is the day you first glimpse the light at the end of your particular tunnel. I've only been here (on this thread) for two months (hey today is my calendar month anniversary ) but I feel like I have a whole load of new, genuine friends.

Onwards and upwards, we are all here for eachother and nothing is too much trouble. So keep posting, and we will keep encouraging both of you and everyone else.

lewt

Bogof_Babe wrote: »

I've only been here (on this thread) for two months (hey today is my calendar month anniversary ) but I feel like I have a whole load of new, genuine friends.

:T Whoop whoop!!!!!!!! :T

Bogof_Babe

Lol, steady on . It's only two months, not two years! :rotfl:

I nearly had a crisis moment there - all my soft drinks were in the shed and it's tipping it down (rain, not booze ), while the fridge is full of OH's cider cans. Luckily he offered to go out and get me something.

Schweppes Summer Punch Lemonade and nibbles, anyone?

Horace

Bogof_Babe wrote: »

Well I am more than happy to reply... Hi Horace ... but I don't have any experience of their (can we assume 'she' despite the name?) situation. My OH and I have always done our drinking at home, together, so I have never had the worry of him not coming home when he says he will, or vice versa.

Very happy to listen though, and be here with a sympathetic ear if Horace needs one. Welcome to our club Horace, you have come to the right place.

I am a she despite the name (its an old nickname I was given at school - dunno why but it just stuck). Thanks for the welcome though guys and gals - it is kinda frustrating when one person drinks like the proverbial fish and the other hardly touches a drop. I tend to avoid alcohol myself these days as I had a bad experience in 2003 when I went to a mate's party, I remember having a Bacardi Breezer at the start of the evening and then switched to the non-alcoholic fruit punch (I was told it was that and it didnt taste boozy), I had several glasses of that and still felt fine, then I had a few more Bacardi Breezers and then for some unknown reason joined in a Tequila drinking game (I can't stand Tequila). I stayed over and in the morning crawled into the downstairs bathroom on my hands and knees feeling distinctly unwell - on went the bacon sandwiches and the smell made me unwell, you can guess the rest - I was so embarrassed and in such a mess that I had to have a bath. It was during the bath that the chap's sister (the mate who had the party) told me that he had a great laugh at everyone's expense but the fruit punch had about 6 bottles of wine and vodka in it - there was some left in the bowl and a solitary strawberry was bleached white!. That put me off booze for 12 months but now I can tolerate a few glasses that I have to watch being poured. Can't understand the OH though - still the daft b*gga is on hols for 2 weeks and he can quaff as much as he likes.

He was amazed when I gave him a bottle of dark beer for Christmas (I don't drink it.ewww) and then proceeded to get all the bottles of spirits out of his cupboard and offered them to him - he looked at me as though I was mad and told me as much.

Sorry for listening to me ramble on - hark at me, I used to work for the Drinks Project at Birmingham University typing up interviews with alcoholics and now I am coming here for advice. Still OH must admit he has a problem and I dont see him doing that anytime soon.:rolleyes:

lewt

Bogof_Babe wrote: »

Lol, steady on . It's only two months, not two years! :rotfl:

I nearly had a crisis moment there - all my soft drinks were in the shed and it's tipping it down (rain, not booze ), while the fridge is full of OH's cider cans. Luckily he offered to go out and get me something.

Schweppes Summer Punch Lemonade and nibbles, anyone?

hey 2 months is emense. i used to think 2 days was impossible. so i think credit where credit is due.

that lemonade sounds well nice. i would never have dreamed of buying anything else but value when i was drinking as soft drinks seemed a waste of money then. i couldnt understand people that spent more mony on soft drinks than alcohol. it was cheaper for me to buy a can of 500ml white ace than it was for a 500ml bottle of coke. so the choice was made for me then.........

lewt

star-X wrote: »

hi, sorry to interrupt. My name is ____ and im an alcoholic, i have been for many years. I have been clean off of class as for 8 years on 7th feb 2008, but drinking and smoking green and pot seems to have overtaken all the good ive done. i am at a loss, i am struggling, i have frreedom of choice i know that, unfortunatly its gone further than that as i hope manywill idnetif. Ive been 2rehab, i chose to celebrate 45 mins after returning home, of that i am appalled about. I had stoppee smoking green and pot for one day under 2 weeks and gave up, drinking i can do one day, im a mess physically other than that. I ams oo cross with myself, i hate drink, why do i have to do it all the time, i dont even want it, you know when it gets to the point where u know u hate it but youre still doing it, resenting every mouthful, ive been ,like that for over 8 years, why am i stilll doing it. I dotn even look in the mirror any more, i make myself sick that much, i soo hope someone identifies. I wasboguht up in care if that helps xxxx

Hey starX, are you about? how things going ?

aahh are you reading ? let us know how you are if you see this. i hope all is well.

star-X_2

Thanks to you all for your lovely replys. Congrats on your 2 weeks, im sorry ive forgotten your name, that really is a fantastic achievement :T . Hi Lewt, i used to go to aa/na a couple of years back and i had a home group and a sponsor and was working through the steps. Im on a bit of a poor me/pour me at the moment, im all ready to stop but keep putting it off, excuses i know. Im a little worried as im not allowed to any more home detoxs, ive used up a fair few of them in the last couple of years, the minute its over i 'celebrate' by getting drunk again, silly i know. Im not in the postion to be able to go into residential rehab so i have to do it on my own, saying all this i know what and how i have to go about it, its just doing it, its scary. Ive dug out all my aa books and i will be reading them again. I know i can do it, and i know damn well that im ready again, im just scared. Thats hard admitting that, i loved your bit about not looking in the mirror either, only to perfect your hard face, thats me lol. Ive been clean off off heroin a long time, i still have tiny cravings but i can let them pass now, and if i can get off that i can do anything, i know i can, but boy isnt all this hard. Ive read my post back and i make a good case, if only it wasnt littered with excuses, i can see what im doing and i need to sort myself out, this is not a good life to lead by anyones standards, congrats to all of you that have managed to get over your active alcohol addiction, may i wish you many more sober minutes/hours/days and years to come, youre an inspiration to me and its lovely hearing that youre all doing great, its also an inspiration to hear about the people that are still trying and refusing to give up, even if they have blips, thankyou x Take care xxx