Official Trying to Conceive - Thread 12

Rachylou1981

Thanks Millie. The FF app says that too. So officially I should now be 2WW? I feel like I am understanding it all a bit more now.

Fingers crossed those symptoms are preparing you for a BFP :j

Milliebob

I've just remembered also that we went for a long walk today and all of a sudden I got an awful pain in my lower back - totally stopped me in my tracks.

Welcome to the TWW Rachy! It's torture.

Jojo_fry

It certainly is; though I'm feeling hopeful as AF is due tomorrow and I've had no sign of it whatsoever so I could be in the running for my BFP in the next couple of days...which actually made me have a major anxiety attack last night. I couldn't get to sleep at all, this sudden all felt very real, in a way it hasn't been up to this point. Been trying for 5 months, but I'm kind of used to it not happening and starting to get cramps and bad skin etc each month. Haven't had any signs whatsoever, I know that should make me feel hopeful and positive, and I am, but it also makes me feel pretty terrified to be honest. I started having all these thoughts about everything that could go wrong, and how scary giving birth would be, and how scary looking after a baby will be, and how our situation isn't really ideal with my partner living away during the week, and I totally freaked out

sexymouse

Thank you Freddie for doing the list for me. I've been driving for 5 hours today and had a very emotional meeting up in London for bereaved parents so am in bed with a headache now.

Rachylou1981

Jojo_fry wrote: »

It certainly is; though I'm feeling hopeful as AF is due tomorrow and I've had no sign of it whatsoever so I could be in the running for my BFP in the next couple of days...which actually made me have a major anxiety attack last night. I couldn't get to sleep at all, this sudden all felt very real, in a way it hasn't been up to this point. Been trying for 5 months, but I'm kind of used to it not happening and starting to get cramps and bad skin etc each month. Haven't had any signs whatsoever, I know that should make me feel hopeful and positive, and I am, but it also makes me feel pretty terrified to be honest. I started having all these thoughts about everything that could go wrong, and how scary giving birth would be, and how scary looking after a baby will be, and how our situation isn't really ideal with my partner living away during the week, and I totally freaked out

Bless you JoJo. I regularly get anxiety about all you just said. Worrying that we get pregnant and then spend the next 8 weeks or so worrying something terrible happens. Then there's my weight which I struggle with for a start, I fear I will become huge and never lose the baby weight :eek:. As for the birth, I cannot bring myself to think about that, I am terrified and unsure how I will cope at all. My OH also works away now and I worry how that will affect me if I have a small baby on my own...not to mention all the fun things we do as a couple that will be 'different'.

However, I think that all the above anxiety is related to the thing I have wanted for as long as I can remember...to be a mother and ultimately to have a family of my own. That is what calms me down and makes me relax. No-one knows what the future will bring but we can certainly live each day as it comes and try to smile and relax through them rather than getting worked up.

(Have I ever said I don't take my own advice? )

cats2012

Really hopefully for some bfps soon!

Alex I'm feeling similar to you though. I'm on 11 months, 8th cycle, and the 12m+ thread is full of ivf stories which is terrifying but at the same time I struggle when people join this thread and catch first month. I remember when I thought that would be me :-(

Trying to keep up my positive thinking though! Cd5 and hopefully not too long to wait compared to my old cycles. Am hoping oh comes forward even more than last month although that does mean I have no idea when to start testing!

MancMama4

Alex, cats I am almost there myself... its 12 months for me this month, including the mc of course (so 9 really?)... I have been looking at the 12m+ thread too but feel like an imposter compared to what others are going/have been through on there. I am going to just keep going for 3 more months and see what happens.

Jojo I completely understand what you are feeling... I am desperate for another BFP but terrified of everything after! I don't know how I would cope if anything happened again... but then if all goes well I'll have a lifetime of worry anyway.

Millie that's great about the symptoms... really hoping for good news for you!

Mouse I hope you are feeling ok today, I've been thinking of you xx

ps afm, CD14 1DPO, we BD'd CD11, 12 and 13 and will have one more for luck tonight... then done everything we can!!

newcook

afternoon all!!

was going to post over the weekend but I figured that as Im moving into the 2 week wait I would make the most of it and got fairly drunk (hey, it seems to work for teenagers getting pregnant ) and had a couple of cigarettes - I packed up smoking a couple of months ago and resist the urge to have one until I have a drink!

OH was getting more excited than me that the line on the OV stick was getting darker each day though from the look of them Im due to OV today but I wont see OH till the weekend as he works nights so we rarely see each other in the week so hopefully our fun filled weekend did the trick

pink_petal

Good luck Rachy and Millie and anyone else in the 2ww!

I had some EWCM this morning so took an OPK in my bag to work...took a plastic cup from the water cooler in my bag when I popped out at lunch and snuck into the loo to use the OPK on my way back. Got a strong line almost immediately so there will be much BDing at our house today and tomorrow...and maybe the next day depending on when my temp spikes!

I've had terrible ov pains last night and today as well which I've not had for quite a few months. I know that doesn't make a difference to our chances but I feel hopefully that ov will happen and we might catch this month. Fingers crossed!

PP x

sexymouse

Two Week Wait (BFP Hopefuls)
CD14 MancMama4 - 1DPO :cool:
CD21 sexymouse - 7DPO :cool:
CD22 Keekee - 7DPO :cool:
CD24 Milliebob - 9DPO :cool:

Cd 27 the_insider
CD 29 - Jojo_fry- 15DPO :cool:

"If in doubt - BD" Zone
CD13 newcook - Awaiting ov
CD13 Rachylou1981 - Awaiting ov
CD14 pink petal - Awaiting ov
CD16 angel11 - Awaiting ov
CD17 Apple1985 - Awaiting ov
CD23 - Kynthia - Awaiting ov
CD 30 - big5 - Awaiting ov
CD48 - clarabell19894 - Awaiting ov
CD 105 - chocolatelover93 - Awaiting ov

"Wine and Chocolate" zone
CD1 little angel - Awaiting ov
CD - Meepmeep - Awaiting ov
CD3 - midget_1907 - Awaiting ov
CD3 - Alex_88 - Awaiting ov
CD5 Cats2012 - Awaiting ov


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