Better half of 2014 - all about me

lulabelle

Trained this morning. Proud of myself for getting out of bed as the temptation was just to roll over when the alarm went off at 540 but talked self out of bed

Hard session but feel epic now

Drying hair as I type (multitasking at it's best)

Feel very positive today and not sure why as have a lot to do to prepare for trial and it's hard stuff. Maybe it's because I now have no option but to focus. This is the culmination of my running this case for the last 3.5 years

Think I'm also getting used to being in own again and once again relishing own company and being in my house without someone else here or always rushing off to boyfriends (now ex obv) parents house. Have to say all the fab series on netflix are helping

Trainer and gay best mate seemed appreciative of the slabs of ginger cake they got this morning. It did smell fab when I opened the tin!

lulabelle

Hmrc have accepted my appeal and are refunding me!!!! Not sure if it's the whole 880 but fingers crossed!!

And I also got a letter with my tax return for the rock I live on and am due a rebate of 440 - yay!!!!

Some good news for once!

Not spent a single penny today as had protein shake for brekkie, room soup, a roll and some ginger cake for work then had the other half of last nights take away (oops but it was only 5.95) for tea

In other news it's only 5 days until trial and I don't feel ready. The amount of work before me and the stress that goes with it feels overwhelming and I'm losing my voice which is what always seems to happen to me when I have substantive hearings to do

Buffythedebtslayer

Hey Lula,


Before anything big I always get super ridiculously stressed. Thing is it never is the end of the world and it works out in the end what ever it is.


You work really hard and you know logically you are well prepared. Have some faith in yourself ok?


Plenty of sleep and decent food, you will do it.


XXXXX

lulabelle

Thanks bufster. I do keep telling myself that the worst the judge can do is shout - it's not like she can kill me or anything.

Think I'm just real nervous as never done anything this big or complicated before. There's 14 lever arch bundles of documents (double sided) to get head around!

lulabelle

Omg I just started a blog!!! I'll not publish address on here until I feel it's worth something to anyone but my friends said I should write a book on relationships and dating so am starting with a blog!

lulabelle

Missed training this morning as didn't sleep and wanted extra 2 hours - £30 down drain plus one session down towards my fitness but am so stressed re this trial I just felt sleep was more important

I had so many anxiety dreams which were clearly about the trial last night. At one point the judge was Judge John Deed off the telly! Then he turned into a hot youngster who I was appearing before in a coffee shop dressed in jeans and then I was somehow in a swimming pool with him snogging him!

Then I was at lunch with the client and his wife before trial started and they were commenting on how many drinks I was having

I'm now clearly very anxious!! 5 days - arghhhhhhh!

lulabelle

Only just home and shattered. Had to get another take out as couldn't face cooking anything. Am SO stressed re this trial. Feel I'll never be prepared in time. 4 days. Going to stay until 10/11 tomorrow and Friday (getting in around 730) then do full days sat and sun in hope will be ready.

Eyes hurt

lulabelle

Worked until 9 last night and shattered! Managed to get up for training though which am glad about as I do feel better for a workout

Plan is to pull a long one today and try to get everything into my master document so that I can at least work from home tomorrow in relative comfort

I plan to "sleep in" until 7 then get up and run and do my grocery shopping and pick up dry cleaning then work from 10 until late. It's depressing but it's what you have to do when you have a trial

Bonus is barely spending and not had any alcohol in 6 days (and unlikely to until next fri!)

Buffythedebtslayer

Oh Mate, you are doing brilliantly!


You can do this!


XXX

lulabelle

so, bonus (sad I know but silver linings are rare at the minute!) is that work are getting us lunches in for the duration of the trial. We usually have to work over lunch to pick up any points made in the morning that we have to deal with in the afternoon but it means I won't have to pay for lunch for the next 3 weeks and thus save cash!

My work is not going as quickly as I expected or planned today - I think I'm being over detailed and over diligent but worried it may mean I miss out in other areas