Just needed to be heard for a little while

lostinrates

Sorry its been such an emotional day, but HURRAH for getting through it so well.

Sorry I wasn't around.


Fir and I decided I couldn't go on like this so he helped me with some of the sort of exercises I cannot do myself last night and this morning until my body finally gave in and relaxed a lot and I'm feeling a bit better. Battered, but better.

We have another meeting tomorrow and I have to walk up two flights of stairs ( I could have scheduled it for home but was feeling so good when I booked it!) and didn't want to crawl up the stairs, lol.

Thinking about meetings is an interesting gauge of progress. I feel confident and calm about them but poorly prepped. I'm I big prepper, and its not clear to be whether the failure to feel in control is part of my physical health or because I've simply failed to pick up the reins again, or if I'm not ready to. In any case, at some point I'm going to have to. Hopefully tomorrow will start to put be back in a better driving position for running my household and my business and helping fir with his finances and his business and income and job! Sometimes I realise that though our plates are small now we are keeping insane amounts spinning, especially my husband.

Waves_and_Smiles

Hahahahaha! Hopefully it will be on sale, Joan!

Welcome home, Pyxis! (this thread is home, right?)

Thank you so much for thinking of me, I slept the day away which was the best thing for me. Did you see lots of Christmassy things?

I can't do a lot of my physio exercises alone, LIR which is where my carer helps. I am not allowed to manually use my limbs, they have to be lifted and turned by someone else so that I don't use any muscles.

Stairs are my nemesis! I can't walk down them because of my hip and knee pain and my balance disorder makes everything spin when I go up or down. I deal with the stairs here by shuffling up and down on my bottom.

Good luck for tomorrow, it can take a while to get back into thinking professionally. Take it slowly and give yourself lots of rest inbetween.

elsien

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

Yes, I feel a lot better now. I will be shaky for a few days but the worse is over. I wish that I could predict when chemical blips will happen but it seems to be completely random.

Yes but you kind of did predict it when everything was up in the air with MIL and BIL, I can remember you saying then that you expected to crash once the worst was over. So in an attempt to look at the brighter side, now that you've got it out of the way you can look forward to Santa's visit with less chance of another blip.

Lir, your exercises sound like a very extreme version of a Swedish massage when it's excruciating at the time but worth it in the longer run. Although at least with a massage you can ask them to tone it down a bit.

Pyxis

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

On an amusing note every day I read my horoscope on a certain site because it couldn't be more spectacularly wrong. It makes me laugh with how much it doesn't apply to my life. Today's horoscope is "You need to spend time with your family to relieve stress". Despite everything I am laughing my head off.

Actually, on one level, it sort of is 'right', 'cos we're your virtual family, and you can spend time with us to relieve stress!
GO! the Golden Lights!:rotfl:

Well, there was a bit of a Christmas market, but I've seen better! There was a Christmas lunch involved as well, pre-booked and paid-for, and that was very nice actually. In fact, it was very tasty! And in a nice olde worlde pub in a small country town.

Waves_and_Smiles

This is very true, Pyxis!

That's a good point, elsien. I was expecting things to go haywire once I relaxed. As you say, hopefully it's over now and I will be fine all the way through to the new year.

WaSp is back and is all depressed because Milliefleur gave him money to buy me gifts for Christmas and wants to know what he gets. He had no idea what to buy me from him, now he has double the problem!

Pyxis

Poor WaSpy! I shouldn't laugh, but it is a bit funny, because I just thought...."It must be quite hard being a man!" :rotfl:

Waves_and_Smiles

He hates buying presents and never knows what to get for anyone so I do Milliefleur's. Buying double the presents is his worse nightmare! He even has to report back what he buys so he can't get away with giving me the money. He is sulking quite a lot.

lostinrates

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

I can't do a lot of my physio exercises alone, LIR which is where my carer helps. I am not allowed to manually use my limbs, they have to be lifted and turned by someone else so that I don't use any muscles.

Stairs are my nemesis! I can't walk down them because of my hip and knee pain and my balance disorder makes everything spin when I go up or down. I deal with the stairs here by shuffling up and down on my bottom.

Good luck for tomorrow, it can take a while to get back into thinking professionally. Take it slowly and give yourself lots of rest inbetween.

Originally fir was told I wouldn't survive, then that I'd be a vegetable, etc etc. I'm expected to rest all the time, but sometimes you just cannot,me.g. My dogs still need exercise, my birds still need letting in or out, I don't have horses any more, but sometimes I still do the other horses here. You cannot say to them 'sorry.....cannot today...don't wee/go outside'.

I am allowed to move my limbs anyway I want and can and will not be told otherwise sometimes my limbs don't agree, or my back.

I have been known to have to use a chair as a Zimmer frame, or even to crawl or drag myself . Occasionally, till things get moving, but I ALWAYS succeed eventually. I don't take no for an answer from this lump of flesh....unless fir is here to give me time off.


Elsian, it is quite like that, but not at all forgiving. The muscles to into spasm or cramp and just stay hard and unyielding. I did a trial a few years a go and we found the physio that accompanied it was really very very good. I had very much less proprioception then. Since then I realised how important body work is to increasing and maintaining my proprioception and also comfort. With something that progresses and relapses, especially when its not meant to:D you clutch at all the darn straws going!

jobbingmusician

Tell him to PM some of us and we can make suggestions!

Waves_and_Smiles

Hahahahaha! That's an idea, JM! He is completely at a loss and was before Milliefleur told him to buy hers, too. He also hates Christmas crowds so all in all he is dreading the next few days! I think I am quite easy to buy for, everyone here managed it perfectly!