Just needed to be heard for a little while

whitewing

Hello everyone.

I got some great feedback at work yesterday from some people who had visited us recently. So I am chuffed with that. (Impressing everyone except the people who part with the money, so it seems!)

House is a tip so I need to sort it out, if I can get my act together. I have a doctor's appointment later and if I put my skates on I could have it spick and span before I go. But that requires me to get started.



la la la la la. diddle diddle diddle. faff faff faff. Hmm. Haven't checked my horoscope yet today...

whitewing

I'm still putting off starting. This link is about Approved Food

https://forums.moneysavingexpert.com/discussion/5096624

Errata

You will be able to see the white text if you highlight it or if you quote it (so please don't quote a penguin!)

Not sure what's happening, I can see the white text in your post clearly without highlighting it. That's also the case for some posters who post on the Strictly thread.

whitewing

I think that is because pyxis is quoting the etiquette, so it has a coloured background.

I assume you can't see the white penguin text in a normal white background post?

codemonkey

Codemonkey penguin related to work.

When I first started my job, I loved it. I loved it so much that there were a couple of weekends I wished could be over so I could go back to work. Years on, I'm bored out of my skull. I have nothing to do. I've mentioned this to my line manager but as she has nothing to do either, she can't help. All training has been denied for me anyway (others have been able to do stuff), job shadowing hasn't panned out. I've been on loan to another team but the promised work hasn't materialised there either. This and the cliqueyness have worn me down to the point where I'm either upset or even worse, I don't care. I spend most of my work day not wanting to be there. I can't move jobs because my sick leave went over the number of days permitted due to flare ups of my medical condition (GP said I was too fragile to go back and signed me off for 2 weeks) and I don't want to leave the organisation because it does have an excellent flexible working policy and they have made provisions for my medical condition that other employers perhaps wouldn't.

I don't want to make a fuss in case they lay me off. I hate feeling like this! I actually want to be busy and care about my job.

Responses don't need to be in penguin response forms. Just worried that somehow my employer will 'see' and know its me.

end penguin

Its a grey, nasty day today and I am glum.

codemonkey

Screw it, I'm going to the shop for sweets. I'm fat anyway!

oystercatcher

Hugs for codemonkey. No ideas but it must be grotty

I hope WaS got through the night OK.

Husband has day off work and we are going to the zoo shortly, once dogs settled

codemonkey

Oystercatcher, that's fab. I love the zoo.

lostinrates

Just doing what I need to to get through today I think. Feel not great. May or may not have a meeting here tomorrow but I don't know yet.

Dog food is delivered this afternoon, so have to stay awake for a couple of hours.

Waves_and_Smiles

Bad point-I am in a huge state and shaking like a leaf.

Good point-there is a lovely reason for it.

MIL called WaSp and asked if she could talk to me, she never does this because she knows phones are extremely hard for me. But I braved it! She missed me, that was why she wanted to talk which meant so much. We chatted for an hour and she surprisingly complained a lot about BIL and so did I and we were in agreement. We also established that she won't allow BIL to visit if she has a vist from niece and she understands the position it puts me in so hopefully that situation is resolved.

We talked about her sisters and how we worry about WaSp and amusingly how glad she is that I have stayed with him for years or she would worry about him and thinks that he wouldn't be safe without me! Also she said how I must stay with him when she isn't around anymore or he might end with someone like his past girlfriends! I am still scratching my head at how she was apparently so awful to WaSp's wife and past partners, she honestly couldn't be sweeter to me, I am so fond of her.It was lovely, we haven't spoken for years and she told me her life was lonely without me in it which melted my heart. We are still such good friends and it was like we had only just spoken yesterday.

Oh and here is another confusing family point. To me she was saying how inconsiderate and selfish BIL is, WaSp was stunned because if he says one word against BIL, MIL defends him and tells WaSp off. She certainly wasn't defending him to me, it was nice for us both to have a rant and to be honest I am happier for it and MIL said she needed to get it all out! WaSP is now bemused and feeling a bit hard done by! I will never understand how it all works and now WaSp is confused, too, he spent most of our conversation waving his arms at me signalling not to discuss certain subjects because she wouldn't like it, she happily joined in with me as she has always done and we agreed on them. WaSp then got told to make sure that he takes care of her adopted daughter, that he is responsible for me and that I am his top priority! I shall be quoting that at him for days...

Now I am wrecked and having all kinds of strange thoughts about radio-waves in my brain, people listening into conversations, etc but I am so glad that I did it. I am going to take an emergency dose of anti-psychotics before this gets out of hand (it was still worth it).