Just needed to be heard for a little while

Waves_and_Smiles

Thinking aloud here another thing that stands out is this has happened centred around liver failure and subsequent death before. Now it has happened twice about the same issue it is worth noting it as a potential regular occurrence. Last time I ended up sobbing hysterically in A&E begging them to run tests which of course came back absolutely fine. That gave me comfort for an hour before I decided that they possibly tested for the wrong enzyme or the damage hadn't fully been done yet so didn't show! So I need some kind of coping strategy for those particular thoughts, oh and I really need to stop reading Dr Google at the time. Nothing helpful lies there.

Waves_and_Smiles

Hahahahaha I love gitdog! He liked the window cleaner! Do let us know how the training goes, please!

The catatonia is terrifying for me but also for anyone who sees it. I am completely unpredictable and no one can see what I can so there is no way to know what I might do. I smashed my partners glasses against his face and made him bleed in the early days because he tried to restrain me. To me someone horrid from another world had hold of me and was going to kill me so I fought for my life. He learnt not to do that and I shrivelled up from guilt for months.

Pyxis

Pyxis wrote: »

Another thought, if the emotion is gone out of some things by you repeating them in your histories over and over, would it help to keep repeating on here about the things that still do bother you and act as triggers? By doing that, is there a chance you could be equally desensitised to their effects?
If you think that would help, please do repeat things as many times as you wish. We won't mind!
And also, if visitors to the thread haven't read from the beginning, repeating things would enable them to understand better, too.

Sorry if that was ambiguous. I did, of course mean that WaS could do the repeating, not us.:o
Might it also be useful, at the end of a 'repeating' post, you put 'please do not reply to this post', just so that we know it's a repeater, but more importantly, for any visitors to the thread who may not realise you don't want that particular post commented on?

Waves_and_Smiles

Good idea Pyxis. It may help a lot, the similar therapy that I had put a lot of my PTSD to rest.

lostinrates

elsien wrote: »

That does sound incredibly scary - so realistically then in due course we're trying to come up with alternative suggestions of how to fight it manageably rather than going with the flow when you're on your own. *puts thinking hat on.* Give us a nudge when your anxiety about it has receded.

Gitdog has today demonstrated his guard dog prowess by letting a total stranger (the window cleaner) stroll in the back door unnoticed. We are off to training classes in a bit which are either a total high or me going into the depths of despair with his shenanigans. He doesn't have a middle ground.

Since we moved house, and I got more ill dog dog has become exceedingly intolerant of people, particularly men entering our house. We have to be VERY alert. She's fine out of our property, better with women and great with other dogs and kids, ( though she has always had so e bigotries we find distasteful).

The exception was a guy called Alan. She even learned to say his name and when he arrived she'd wail 'aaaaaalaaaaaaan'. He didn't much like dogs, but she and he became firm friends while he worked here. Dogs can be odd.

Pyxis

What type of dog is dog dog? LIR? Another bull terrier?

oldestgnome

Dr Google never helps anybody at all! The repeated posts suggestion makes lots of sense, particularly WaS as you have success with it aiding desensitising in the past.

Well done Pyxis on remembering to post the etiquette

Elsien, Gitdog is a fantastic character there is no way he doesn't raise a smile as well as cause exasperation to those whose path he crosses

Lovely to see lurkers, delurking, no pressure to those who prefer to lurk!

I know you say you don't want penguins waddling all over the thread all I can picture is a thread with little penguins popping up and waving, having a little dance in the corner, sliding up and down the screen:D

lostinrates

Pyxis wrote: »

What type of dog is dog dog? LIR? Another bull terrier?

Butter wouldn't melt in her mouth in this picture.....greyhound. I have three dogs, but dog dog is the middle one. Big dog is very old now, and kiwi is my little 'un.



I'd like to point out that is an antique chair with the original velvet on, but dog dog loves it and has pushed it out of shape to suit her. The chair feels quite like her. And she does look happy.

Pyxis

Oh! Do you know, when I am able to have another dog, it will probably be a rescued greyhound!
She looks beautiful!

oldestgnome

She looks like a really comfy lady

Hope you enjoyed your picnic and meeting up with friends whitewing.