Carrot cake in the oven

supersaver1000

Okay. Here's my list which is a work in progress, so I will edit it throughout the day:
(This is turning into an epic - or is it - ?)

[strike]Managed the bank accounts and made op to MBNA
Make appointment at Halifax to change DDs passbook ac to. 3% ac
Call buymobiles - payment due Tuesday (we'll see)
Call Engage about why DHs interest is 2% not the 3.25% after charges they quote - it's because there are hidden charges not included - humph!
Avios contacted, they will merge the new account so that I can order my wine after Tuesday
Make routine GP check up appt
Postcode lottery cancelled - have to call can't do online but now done :-(
Call and fix electricians appt
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Research 2 tyres and book appt
Fit new task disc
Put rubbish out
Contact old colleagues x2
Book DDs courses
Submit my course application
Get up to speed with work things
Catch up with Excel Course and Sage course and then the maths cima one
Washing and cleaning
Make HM lemon curd, cake and bread
Tidy
Respond to emails, do paperwork
Also tsb accounts x 2 for safety funds

Next week:
Cancel fee bank ac - moved to next week as it's already paid for this month
Find another account to move dire rate ISA savings to
Appt with Halifax to change DDs ac
Chalkpainting
Dental appts
Meet colleague for lunch re. SE

So quick financials:
£28 on my NHS cashback card
£8.50 on an M&S gift card
£34 due buymobiles cashback (next Tuesday - get instant cashback next time)
£17 will come from Energylink on Daligas switch
£5 Boots advantage
£5.14 nectar points
196 nectar adpoints
2385 Tesco cc points
£14 Tesco cc vouchers
£15 interest due from Santander 123
£0 paypal
30p Quidco
£0 Topcashback
67 Swagbucks
6900 Avios plus Tesco conversion for wine soon :-)

supersaver1000

My pleasures today, before I put my nose to the grindstone and sort out my messy house

1. Checked the bank accounts and have received cashback on Santander123 of £16.78
2. Feel sure it was the right move to pay off the od & some of the cc from safety fund - talked it over with DH and he wants to keep the od in place so I will have to be extremely vigilant we don't slip into using it. Just glad I didn't wake up thinking "aargh! What have I done" :eek:
3. Weighed myself and have lost 3lbs - am now under 70kg again - yayy! Not sure how, but yayyy!! :T
4. Earned 3 swagbucks by watching videos on meditating - I must meditate every day, it makes so much sense. :A
5. Got the whole weekend ahead to get my house in order and DD is around too - maybe she will help with the promise of a take away treat tonight.

Will report in later. :beer:

supersaver1000

Hmm. Found this today. Just in case I ever have any doubts about whether I did the right thing (which I of course do because I will always think 'What if?' I keep asking myself why do I do that and telling myself not to but I don't listen). But this will remind me.

# Consider leaving – regard it as a positive decision in the face of overwhelming odds which are not of your choosing, not of your making and over which you have no control. In this type of situation, walking away can be the best thing because you remain in control. Choose to move on and find an employer who does value you and your skills. Do not allow your health to be destroyed. What is more important, your job, your health, your career, life or family?

supersaver1000

in_need_of_direction wrote: »

Good to hear. Stop judging yourself more harshly than you would a random newbie.

Thanks INOD. I had a pretty bad day Friday. I just couldn't get going and all I needed to do was a few graphs. I've tried to put it out of my mind for a couple of days and concentrate on debt things and this afternoon I am going to try to get myself up to speed with graphs and using data and the organisation.

My worst fear is getting myself into a fug - had one that lasted several years and I'd just gotten rid of it which made me think I was up to a new challenge last year - how wrong was I - although to be fair I didn't realise I was walking into a total mess (I was really sold a dud). I am kicking myself for giving up a decent job with long-term opportunities for a quick promotion' last year and even now I'm wondering whether I could have done more to make that work.(although see post below) . But I've escaped now and feel somewhat better (despite less pay and still worried) but someone on here said it's better to regret what you've done than what you haven't so I'm going to try and do that, instead of worrying about several years ahead.

This new job could be a stepping stone to something else so I need to rise to the challenge. I'm just fearful of letting myself down my family down, the person who appointed me and my colleagues down and of course very afraid of debt. Just when we are starting to see light. It's also not helping that I'm suffering the worst menopause symptoms ever. I may need a docs appt.

I'm going to get on with some housework this morning (tidy house tidy mind). Then settle down to some serious study later.

It's a bit of a plan.

in_need_of_direction

You seem to value the opinion of the person who appointed you. Why not recognise that in appointing you, she was using her skills to pick the right candidate? Ease up on yourself. Bake a carrot cake, bring it in and a lot of support will flow.

supersaver1000

:rotfl: I was planning on baking cakes to take in :rotfl:

Thanks for the support.

I can also report fug lifting.

I have a reduced list of:
Housework
Work work
Work reading
Pay attention to DD
Make cakes for work
Submit training application

Also my friend who is desperate for a job phoned (yet again). I'm really keen to help but finding it's not helping me at the moment to hear so much doom and gloom. I got her a short contract, helped her with applications so that she is getting interviews and now wants help with a cv. I was supportive and helpful but explained I have my own problems so will do so in a week or two when my life has settled. She was happy with that and perhaps wasn't thinking straight as she's got another interview date and also got a few more weeks on contract hours (she has more than 37 hours booked in each week) and more people calling from a circular I did for her, so is worrying prematurely. Just like me I guess! I think it helped both of us to put it in perspective and hopefully the next call I get will be to say she has a job. Fingers crossed.

Looking at the progress INOD. :-)

giblet1979

Hey supersaver,
Glad to hear that things are better, although sorry that you're stressed. You're doing amazingly well, and deserve to give yourself a bit of credit (and a rest from worry).
The first few weeks are always difficult, but I know you'll do really well x

supersaver1000

Hi Gib. Lovely of you to pop in.

Thanks, I really appreciate it. Have had a good day today. Most of the washing done, hoovered, made cakes, made HM lemon curd (all gone it was so good) and a delicious carrot" coriander and lentil soup.


Watched the tennis with DD and feeling very relaxed. First time for a long time. Just got to crack the work now, but I'm having lunch with two old colleagues this week which I'm really looking forward to and I would never have found time before.

Just got to keep seeing the positives. Thanks for the encouragement it means a lot. Sorry I've been a bit (lol!) self absorbed lately, I'm going to pop over and catch up with you in a min. Second bowl of soup first.

:A

giblet1979

You've not been self absorbed - where else can we share other than diaries!
Glad to see you had a relaxed day x

peaceandfreedom

supersaver1000 wrote: »

Watched the tennis with DD and feeling very relaxed. First time for a long time. Just got to crack the work now, but I'm having lunch with two old colleagues this week which I'm really looking forward to and I would never have found time before.

Hi Supersaver - I've been reading your diary today and you've been through a lot lately with your job, I feel for you.

For what it's worth, I think you did the right thing by leaving. I once had a job that I absolutely hated. The money was rubbish as well but the main thing was that I dreaded going into work in the mornings and I was miserable. I remember chatting to my cousin about it in the pub one night and he said 'Get out of that f******g job.' So I did. I had no other job to go to at the time but I knew from the happiness I felt after handing in my notice that I'd done the right thing.

Some jobs are just not the right ones for us - no point in flogging a dead horse. You will be fine when you settle into your new job - have faith in yourself. And stop worrying about whether you've made the right decision. You've made it now, you are already happier, so just follow it through with confidence.