Depression Support Thread

Miroslav

week wrote: »

I I often put my "condition"(not pregnancy of course!!!!!) down to being Gemini. IE 2 different people in one.

Just out of interest, what does that make me? I'm on the cusp (sorry, English word, no idea how it's spelt) of Gemini and Cancer - depending on what tarot you read.

Does Gemini mean i'm more likely to have mental health issues and Cancer mean physical issues?

If so, being on the cusp(?) has really done for me

I have no idea with birthsigns and no real interest in them, but thought i'd ask anyway

geminilady

CCStar wrote: »

I have no issue with you week but feel I have been gossiped about behind my back and geminilady has jumped to the wrong conclusion and painted a black picture of me for all to see.

I have made a really life changing decision today and it is our wedding anniversary. Not even a congratulations was said just an attack on me today of all days!!!

I am purging all toxins from now on and I have a lot to do so won't be online for a while anyway.

I don't need this backstabbing thread and haven't felt supported on here for ages.

So unless I get an apology from geminilady for misquoting me, I won't be back

I Did NOT quote you,did not reply to you so i have no need to apologise.Also i did not say you accused Shaz of being a bad parent but that was how your post made her feel.Here are two quotes from your post to shaz.
"If my son had done that, he would get the biggest thrashing and punishment going"
Personaly i believe violance is never an answer but this could have made shaz FEEL you were saying she was too soft with her boys.
"I am sure you a great mother and you sound to be a nice person but I am going to be blunt here, your kids need to be told to cut out their bad behaviour, it isn't helping you feel any better and you don't want them growing up into anti social hooligans"
You accused me of not reading your post properly but if you had read shaz's previous posts about her sons AHD you would realise it is not so simple as telling them to cut out their bad behaviour.
I am sorry you do not feel supported on here, from what i can see people are doing their best,i see as the day went on some people have congratualted you on your anniversary but as you often talk of leaving your OH i for one am a little puzzled as to why you would want congratualtions?

geminilady

week wrote: »

Hi Gemini lady
I presume you are a Gemini? I often put my "condition"(not pregnancy of course!!!!!) down to being Gemini. IE 2 different people in one. The high,the low etc. Bipolar seems to go along with this idea. Whats you opinion on this as I dont know many Geminis, and my best friend is one and she is like a tame version of me.
It is hailstones here and I feel all tingly!
K

Hi week:hello: Yes i am a Gemini lol and think i am lots of people in one.I can be really talkative but sometimes really quiet and do have highs and lows like Bipolar although never been diagnosed as that.I have been quite down for the last couple of months but hopefully i am coming out of it now,much prefer the highs to lows.

geminilady

Miroslav wrote: »

Just out of interest, what does that make me? I'm on the cusp (sorry, English word, no idea how it's spelt) of Gemini and Cancer - depending on what tarot you read.

Does Gemini mean i'm more likely to have mental health issues and Cancer mean physical issues?

If so, being on the cusp(?) has really done for me

I have no idea with birthsigns and no real interest in them, but thought i'd ask anyway

Hi Miro:hello: Nice to see you posting,hows you?Don't know much about birthsigns myself just read my own but think if you are on the cusp you have traits from both gemini and Cancer so you will have both lol mental health issues and physical ones:D me,i have them all anyway and a few traits from the other signs:rotfl:

Miroslav

Hello all :wave:

I hope we are all well. I seem to go away and come back 363627 pages later, thus making it difficult to read all posts, especially for someone like me, who with exception to Britney, has an attention span and memory of a dead fish.

I often fail to frequent these shores for a few reasons:

1. I find that I am too depressed and writing, reading and getting involved with depressing things becomes a negative, when I need to try and be positive.

2. I find I can only type the same things about myself so often, before I get annoyed with myself.

3. Ill feeling within the thread tends to make me stay away.

Coming here is like getting away from what I see every day, whether on TV or out in the streets. The shallow people who only want someone for their money, good looks or expensive car, the foul mouthed people who hang around Subway because it's 'real cool', the companies who try and tell us their company is better because they give you everything for 20p less or give you 0.01% higher interest and the miserable sods in the retail outlets who can't even summon up a please or thank you.

I find people on here in the main, very supportive and can only go by what I read. Alot type but don't offer as much back. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. Sometimes it's because at that time I can't, because I am too depressed. Sometimes I don't know what to say - sometimes you just can't find the words to type. Sometimes I find being in the minority gender wise difficult - I shouldn't, as i'm more used to females than males. I've also been told in life, that males shouldn't show emotion, which is why publicly I am very stern and straight to my point with little or no emotion. I was told when my daughter died that I shouldn't feel it as much as the mother, because I was male and didn't have a bond. I was told when my partner died that I was young and i'd find somebody else and i'd realise in time that I was too young to know what love was.

I suppose my main point here is that i'd like to think that those who come into this thread are all as important as each other. No matter who has been through what, or who is going through what, everyone's 'issues' are as important as the next person and we don't get the negative and ignorant comments and looks that we may get in the real world by people who just don't understand what we go through each and every day.

Yes, I sometimes see posts on here and think 'ungrateful sod' or 'sod off' when someone says something I don't agree with, especially any negative male comments that go on occasionally, but then my opinions on women in relationships is at an all time low - I think women are shallow, materialistic animals in the main, but this thread shows me that maybe not all are, and i'm sure (judging by comments) that alot of the females think men are not very nice creatures, but those thoughts and feelings come from somewhere - usually from being on the end of an evil woman/man in the past, so we all learn to live with each other. In reality, I know there are some half decent women who wouldn't drop me for someone with more cash....I just haven't met them yet!!

Anyway, i'm babbling on, all I meant to say was - let's keep the thread as friendly as it usually is, or we'll lose it We can mis-read things and when we don't, we've got to accept that the person making a comment we don't like is usually commenting out of their own pain and not aiming anything personal at anyone.

Make any sense? Doubt it :rotfl:

Anyway, for my dislike of females in a relationship sense, you can blame the past 2 'things' that i've kind of dated

Miroslav

geminilady wrote: »

Hi Miro:hello: Nice to see you posting,hows you?Don't know much about birthsigns myself just read my own but think if you are on the cusp you have traits from both gemini and Cancer so you will have both lol mental health issues and physical ones:D me,i have them all anyway and a few traits from the other signs:rotfl:

Hi gemini :wave:

I'm not so bad, bit of a strange week, that i'll post about shortly.....nothing exciting

How are you?

I'm June 21, so Gemini in some places, Cancer in others, but take no notice as it's so ambiguous

I want to change to the one that's meant to be the nicest and more importantly, least negative

Miroslav

Well, i'm going to talk about myself briefly, so you may want to skip this post

Anyway, i've been depressed and anxious for as long as I can remember. It's why I took up bodybuilding, to try and build confidence, not just muscle. Sadly, it ended up 100% muscle and no confidence - something went wrong!

I don't care what people think of me, other than people that I have loved and/or cared about, so i'm not sure where my anxiety comes from, although my depression is obvious. I'm harder on myself than anyone could ever be and I have the motto "If someone doesn't like me, there are 6.5 billion others that might"

Earlier in the week, I got a bit angry with myself for getting depressed, so I did something about it. I told everyone I knew what I thought about them and any current issues, cutting out the feelings and being totally straight. Now, i'm an honest person, but usually I don't just say things straight out.

Afterwards, I felt....good! I upset a few people, but not enough to make them hate me. No-one attacked me physically or verbally. They wouldn't physically, i'm bigger than all of them :rotfl: I think a few were shell shocked and some were a little upset and thought I was being unfair. Despite them knowing i'm straight forward, they'd never seen me that way.

I don't think i've damaged anything and I don't have too much that I could, apart from my flatmate, who accepted what I said, even if she thought a little of it was unfair.

It lifted a bit of weight and some of those people have responded positively. I was too worried about upsetting them, but in fact, they needed to hear it.

Now, i've someone else I need to have words with - my estranged sister who has just left her husband (I posted about it, but nobody responded )......now I really may cause some long term damage with what I have to say to her :eek:

antronella

Well done Miro for being so honest with people around you and telling them your thoughts. Wish I was able to do that sometimes, but I was brought up to never say anything that may upset someone, to be polite etc and I'm just not able to say what i really think. I do think that people respect you more for being honest and I'm glad it's had a positive effect so far. Good luck with opening up to your sister too. Nite nite..off to bed now..working this weekend x

whitevanwoman

Hi Miro
I just joined the thread last night, and whilst I admire your ability to be honest and say what you are really thinking to people, please be nice to me cos my big problem is that I worry too much (to the point of making myself ill) about what people think of me. In fact, I've spent my whole life being what other people want me to be and somewhere along the line the real me got lost and I don't know who I am or what I want out of life. And so I wish I could be like you are & not care what people think of me. I can't cope with any form of criticism or rejection - apparently it's "anxious personality disorder" and when I do get criticised or rejected I retreat both physically and emotionally into depression.
You say you have no confidence but you must surely have enough self-confidence to feel that your opinions about people are valid and therefore to express them to those people, especially in way which you say has not caused any damage. I'm curious and envious - if someone was like that to me, I would be devastated, and yet I think I need to be more like that with other people.
Funny isn't it, the more you try to understand and figure things out, the more confused you get. Well, I do anyway.
Good for you. I'm glad you felt good for doing it and that there's no damage done. I guess the people around you do care about you otherwise they would not have accepted your honesty.

whitevanwoman

ps - Miro

I might be an animal, but I don't think I'm shallow and with my finances, definately not materialistic!