Depression Support Thread

shazrobo

morning all, feel sad for the ill feelings on this thread, if i took ccstar post the wrong way, then i apologise, i was very upset, and still am, crying as we speak, i like it here, feels safe, feel like i have friends here and dont want to stay away.
big hugs to all
shaz xxx

Miroslav

whitevanwoman wrote: »

Hi Miro
I just joined the thread last night, and whilst I admire your ability to be honest and say what you are really thinking to people, please be nice to me cos my big problem is that I worry too much (to the point of making myself ill) about what people think of me. In fact, I've spent my whole life being what other people want me to be and somewhere along the line the real me got lost and I don't know who I am or what I want out of life. And so I wish I could be like you are & not care what people think of me. I can't cope with any form of criticism or rejection - apparently it's "anxious personality disorder" and when I do get criticised or rejected I retreat both physically and emotionally into depression.
You say you have no confidence but you must surely have enough self-confidence to feel that your opinions about people are valid and therefore to express them to those people, especially in way which you say has not caused any damage. I'm curious and envious - if someone was like that to me, I would be devastated, and yet I think I need to be more like that with other people.
Funny isn't it, the more you try to understand and figure things out, the more confused you get. Well, I do anyway.
Good for you. I'm glad you felt good for doing it and that there's no damage done. I guess the people around you do care about you otherwise they would not have accepted your honesty.

Hi whitevanwoman :wave:

Oh i'm always nice to people It's just the people who are not nice to me and/or those who I think are taking liberties with me, whereas here is an internet messageboard where I could easily misread someones post, which is even easier to do when mental health issues are involved.

When people say things about me, I usually confront them. I'm a friendly chap, but if someone bad mouths me, I tend to confront them and they wish they'd kept their mouth shut. I find it easier all round to know where everyone stands, but like I say, internet websites are not in a sense, reality.

Confidence is a funny thing (funny?) If I could change a couple of things about me, which with a little motivation and a few thousand £ I could, I think i'd be unstoppable, apart from around women :rotfl: I'm confident in who I am, even if most people I meet don't outwardly seem to have my morals and beliefs, I just have zero trust in relationships anymore.

I don't usually say things to upset people. I tend to be honest, but the way I put things tends to depend on how much I think the person can handle or needs to be told. This week, I just had to be honest straight up with people. Sometimes, as English is not my mother tongue, I think I can come across alot ruder than I actually mean to be.

I don't think too much damage could have been caused, because i'm not particuarly close to people. The closest person I am too, is my flatmate, and that's only because we live together and she knows how I can be. She also knows i'm quite hard on her because she is a bit of a doormat and my aim is to toughen her up and tell her to stand up for herself. She's learnt how to with me, which I respect, but her other friends she's still a doormat. Not as much as she was, but I hate seeing people not standing up for their beliefs and themselves. I accept their are many reasons for not doing so, but one of her friends gets beaten by her husband and she's too frightened to leave him. I'm not violent, despite how people judge me when they look at me, but if she's too frightened, i'd go around and help her move out, but she's just going to let her husband do it all again. Like I say, there must be reasons for her to stay. My flatmate just lets her friends mess her around despite her making all the effort with them.

Like I say, i'm not close to anyone, I tend to put up big walls, not that I think anyone really tries to get to know me, so the damage I could do would be minimal to a point and nothing that would upset me.

ilovegreatdanes

just wanted to say how much i enjoy your posts , miro.you are very good at putting your stuff across and you write alot of how i feel also.im glad you are back here more often.another sane voice in a mad world.keep up the good work. xx

Miroslav

whitevanwoman wrote: »

ps - Miro

I might be an animal, but I don't think I'm shallow and with my finances, definately not materialistic!

It's all the women I 'meet' that are.

I must be in the wrong town/county/zone.

Where I live, drop 20p and even the female pigeons are fighting over it :rotfl:

I know there are some good women out there, my partner was adoreable, I think I set too high standards, which can be a good thing and a bad thing, as now I expect maybe too much, but then why would anyone want anything less?

PS - Do you drive a white van, or is there more to the name than meets the eye?

Tiff_2

Hi ilgd!:hello:
Bless your little heart! Thanks for the welcome this morning angel - I hope all is well with you and yours.;)

ilovegreatdanes wrote: »

hurray..:j ..tiffs back....sanity is now being restored.......think it was the impeding threat of a smartie giveaway:rotfl:
its not the same without you so from now on you had better keep us in line or the dogs on his way:eek: ........
yes we are all scared now:D ....dont worry steph ,he doesnt bite...hasnt got the energy.....er, i mean......just becos hes asleep most of the time, hes just saving his get up and go:o
joking aside, good to see you.:A
love ilgd xx

lol - I don't know why people think that I could make any difference sweetie!:rolleyes: I think you were all just looking for someone to blame!

Now, see, you didn't wait for my ominous Caturday piccie and you started talking about w-a-g-g-i-e things - so consider this a warning ...



Just joking hunnie.;)
Have the best day you can angel.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

ilovegreatdanes

ive got to go now, but ill be back.....so behave yourselves while im gone.
love ilgd xx

Miroslav

week wrote: »

I am not anti men its just I cant deal with personal relationships.

Just like i'm not anti women - just anti women i've been with in the last few years :rotfl: And the ones I tend to meet

Like you, I can't seem to handle relationships and I see them as a short-term thing as I don't believe someone would stick around with me that long or something would happen to them.

Anyway, keep posting :j

Miroslav

Tulip wrote: »

Don't you get a bit chilly going out like that?

ilovegreatdanes

if i had a figure like that, id never be in!!!!!!

Miroslav

Tiff wrote: »

TIFFY TIME!!!

I always think 'Chico' when you type that :rotfl:

WHAT TIME IS IT..............IT'S TIFFY TIME!

Nice to see you back........sorry, been away myself, so nice to be back to see you come back, as you've not been back, since i've been back.