Depression Support Thread

Sazbo

gillette147 wrote: »

The nuzzling badger's just won scrapheap challenge!!!
And I might abandon any outdoor plans today.

I got this email from the scarey boss at work friday night...V pleased.
It's the first indication of how he feels about my work.
He eats people for breakfast so this is amazing.


Subject: Re: Bow Site Security.
Thanks Richard for your efforts and continued diligence on this and all
matters which you are engaged in, I think we are getting somewhere, and
you are coming on leaps and bounds - great stuff.

Many Thanks

Liam

Senior Project Manager

Hey gilly badge! :wave: Nuzzling badgers eh? Sounds like you might have been nuzzling the scary boss!:D Only kidding - it's no surprise to us that your hard work is paying off. You deserve the recognition x But I just wanted to ask if you've finished that kitchen yet? The party an all... y'know... it's just that our BMF needs enough notice so's she can get her glass eye polished! :rotfl:

Enjoy the cheese fest. You should try Leerdammer. I buy it ready sliced coz i can't slice cheese for nuffink!

Much love, Sazzyxxxxx

Sazbo

Hello my lovelies :wave:

Gosh, where did the weekend go? Hope you're all taking it easy today.

Horace - I think I have sleeping sickness too... seem to be doing an awful lot of it of late...:o And I'm still not awake, think I need more tea...

And good to have you back, our Tiffy! :T :kisses3: Post when you can hunni xx

Much love to you all,
Sazzy xxxxxx

Horasio

I wish I could sleep more. I get about 4-5 hours and it's making me blooming grumpy. I am having one of those don't want to do anything days, every little thing is annoying me and so pointless. My poor OH is being told to keep away but not had a row but don't like being this horrible to him but I want a day off from everyday irritating stuff!!

January is such a blooming boring nothing month.

Sazbo

I know, January's not much fun is it? It's no bad thing imo, having a 'do nothing' day - I'm the expert at those! CC could you maybe curl up with a dvd perhaps - lose yourself in a good film, or have long soak in a bubble bath? I'm going to do that myself in a little while. Take the focus off stuff that's annoying/getting me down. I think it does help me to relax, which in turn helps me to sleep better. And I have the world's worst sleep problems.

Sazxx

CCStar wrote: »

I wish I could sleep more. I get about 4-5 hours and it's making me blooming grumpy. I am having one of those don't want to do anything days, every little thing is annoying me and so pointless. My poor OH is being told to keep away but not had a row but don't like being this horrible to him but I want a day off from everyday irritating stuff!!

January is such a blooming boring nothing month.

ilovegreatdanes

hi,
rbk....just wanted to say i think your boss is a right "animal who eats grass and dispences milk!!":mad: how dare she treat you like some circus odditity!cant you have a quiet word with the area manager about how you are being treated?sh is an illness ,the same as others but i doubt she would be showing anything like that if it was her.hasnt the woman grasped the term, tact!!
ok ,rant over, sorry:o
bmf.....sorry ,think qwbs graphics win everytime:rotfl: although im now jealous of you both re the comp stuff.

as for sleeping sickness......charlie has developed it now since i put down a quilt for him.so comfy he wont get up:rotfl:

sf....im ok ,thanks for asking.i only seem to get on the comp once a day so im not ignoring you.xx
dont get on for days when dhs off.

genini...that was a really good post to rbk,btw, just what i thought.xx

sazzy.....good to hear from you.x
rose....also good to hear from you.been a while.x
tulip.....im not surprized that you need a nap as well.you are such a busy bee these days.hope you are keeping up with the comps...you seem to be really lucky at them.x

tiff.....hope you are abit brighter.thanks for the lovely pm.keep the pics coming ,even though theres nowt canine, ill let you off:D

gillette.......that was a really good email from the boss.well done:T all that hard works paying off now.xx

juno......hope you are ok after seeing your ex.its hard to trust your feelings sometimes when ppl play on them.

big hugs to everyone and all ive missed.hope you are doing ok.

take care all.
love ilgd xx

ilovegreatdanes

btw,
rbk....just thought where i saw that girl who shd....and it wasnt gmtv ,it was on the bbc breakfast time.so i looked at their homepage, and there are a few links so when you have time, maybe you could have a browse.sorry i sent you to the wrong place before.i hate it when im stupid like that.
kind regards, ilgd xx

Diamond78

Hi Everyone,
Ive not actually read all the posts as yet as there is quite a lot and when i read a lot i start getting sleepy lol.I suffer with depression and have done since I was a tenager.I started self harming when I was about 14 and a few took an overdose.My depressin would come and go and back then I was not on any kind of mediaction.i was actually drinking a lot of booze.I had a bad time,a lot of problems from childhood to tenage years and even now but am no way as bad as I use to be.I am now a mum and have been for nearly 6 years and I think becoming a mum has saved my life.

I was 1st diagnosed with depression when i was 18,a bit to late but i basically had to beg for help.I had so many scars on my arms from cutting that I was made to feel a freak which I am not.Was put on prozac ect,sent for councelling but being the age I was and not having stability or a family around me I didnt go thru bwith it.i got a job, a council flat and things seemed ok.Somedays would be good, some bad but I got thru things.Then some events happened which again triggered my depression and I was very low, living with guilt and blame.How i got thru those days I dont know.But did by ignoring the fact I needed serious and proffesional help.I carried on working and then met my sons father who seemed great but unfortunatly he treated me bad and I suffered with domestic violence both mental and pysical abuse.Although he caused my back injury which causes me problems as in pain ect the mental abuse he put me through is the worst of all.He knew what I had been through and made me feel like !!!! by putting me down and making me feel useless.

Anyway, he dumped me when i was pregnant,went back to his ex, got back with me just b4 i gave birth and dumped me again.You would think why did i take him back, well had i had my head i have now i wouldnt of, but i was in fear of him and in a way brainwashed.he made me feel so useless, i lost all confiedence,lost all my friends.But i had to be strong and get on with things as I had my baby to think about.I have been thru so so much with so much more things that have happened in my life.I feel why me,am i jinxed coz Im not a bad person so why am i suffering so much.About 2 years ago i saw my gp who put me on seroxat(parexotine)i was on the liquid formula as i cant really take tablets and the worse i was feeling the more my dose was being upped.if i didnt takeit for oneday i woukd start feeling the side affects.I knew it wasnt helping me, i had started seing a therapists who refered me for CBT and pyscodynamic somethig therapy-sorry cants spell it. I seemed to be getting better but there was still events in my life happening or i was attracting that was triggering my depression.

To cut the story short, i still suffer with depression, still have bad days,have a new gp now whos cut my dose of AD to 4 spoons as i was on 6 and am now taking Zispin aswell which is helping me sleep.I have eating problems aswell but im getting a lot better.My son is a happy and healthy boy although he has been affected by certain events that has happened and he has suffered to but i have made sure my depression has not affected as much as i can by hiding it and putting a brave face and act on.Its been very hard and still is as i have a lot of bad days but im trying to help myself and have been referd to a new councilor so hopefully will start feeling better.I feel I will never recover from my depression as so much stuff has happened but i also know that I cannot live in the past and have to get over things-I have to change the way I think and start loving myself which is sooo hard but in time im sure this will get easier.
Im sorry to all you that have suffered from depression and are still suffering but as long as you can admit that you have it and want to get better then you are on the road to recovery.You need to want to get better and sometimes accepting help makes it that little easier.x

ilovegreatdanes

am abit worried now if dh looks up the sites ive been visiting and he sees the link.hes worried about me enough as it is.knows about the depression but hope he doesnt think im goin to start SHing.......
i do get myself into some scrapes.....never mind.
ttfn, xx

ilovegreatdanes

hi to diamond,
welcome to you.what a good post,and very inspiring to us all.seems like you have turned a corner and you should feel very proud of where you are now after all your history.thank you for sharing your story and im very glad to meet you.
ilgd xx

Diamond78

Thanks for welcoming me ilovegreatdanes-I have wanted to post on this thread for ages but didnt have the guts at 1st-silly I know but I have nothing to be ashamed of and a problem shared is a problem solved.There are many ppl that suffer with deppresion mild to severe that think it will pass,brush it over there shoulders or hide it so well that it gets worse.Thats how I was,I was made to feel to be ashamed of my depression and sometimes i still feel I cannot tell ppl but it is an illness and if i can help one person then I would explain and write it all again.My depression can be bad some days,its close to severe depression with anxiety,panic attacks and so on.But i still force myself and take my son on days out,i take him school everyday even when i cant face anyone,i wish i could get better completly but this will never happen,i wish i could be positive like i sound in my thread but i cant,all i can do is take one day at a time and i now know when i feel so rubbish and low to come on here and start reading thru this thread.We are not alone andit makes me sad that other ppl have and are suffering from depression.i wish i could help but all i an do is be here for you and listen and offer any kind of advice that i can.Thanks for listening all and sorry if i have bored any of u.i got to go and cook now-ive been really lazy today-im a lone parent by the way-me and my son are still in our pjs,im due on so not feeling good as it is so thought might aswell stay the way we are.I would of done a roast but my son wanted a steak which he saw on gordon ramseys programme last night-luckily had some in the freezer.i dont like cooking when i feel low and not well, buthave no choice as my son isnt old enough to cook yet-got to wait atleast 10years before hes old enough to cook-oh well.Nice being on here and chat soon x