Depression Support Thread

Stephb1986_2

antronella wrote: »

Steph, hope your mozzy bites are easing now..Is your dog ok after being in kennels..did you need to get his limp looked at? Hope your hol did you good.

Hey Ant my pooch is fine now thanks for asking i guess it was just stiffness from the kennels as she's use to being inside with us all the time and the kennels are outside and mainly concreate. I had alot of time to think on holiday and decided that if last night didnt go well with my fella that i would end it, but things went brilliant and it turned out he really missed me, even bought my fish a new tank today so they have more room

I hope your keeping well hun, Im always here to chat if you need to it sounds like you need a hot relaxing bath

Take care

Stephb xx

Tulip

well I am off now,

chat tomorrow

Night! Night!

love and light,

Katie xxx

antronella

DawnyLou, so glad you've picked up since your appt with the psychologist. I wouldn't try to analyse why you're feeling a bit better right now-just go with it! Your fiance sounds really supportive. let us know what hair colour you decide on!

SF, it's human nature to feel envious of people who seem happy with life..when we feel the opposite..don't beat yourself up about it. When I'm feeling low i seem to notice that everyone else seems happy-but sometimes they're just covering up and their lives aren't that great. Really think you should eat something..even if it's small..otherwise you'll have no energy to do anything..., .it'll keep your metabolism going too.

Horace, well done for ticking off stuff on your list..in fact..well done for even making a list! My dishes are piled up waiting for me to get some motivation to tackle them.

Gillette, Well done you!! Bet getting that email made you feel that your hard work had been worth it..its nice to be recognised when we're trying our best.

CCStar, hope you can find somewhere you like in good time before you have to move out.

Diamond, Welcome:hello: you have been through so much...glad you plucked up the courage to post- we don't have all the answers, but it helps that others understand and don't judge. Hope your counselling comes through soon.

Grace, Welcome to you too :hello: I'm sure your mum is so pleased to have you to support and understand her.

Hope Tiff is feeling better x ILGD, hope you get rid of the bits and pieces off pc that you don't want OH to see...wouldn't he understand if you told him you were trying to help someone else? sometimes it seems a bit of an effort though to try and talk your way out of something..even when you've done nothing wrong.

Hope everyone else is ok tonight.. problem with mentioning people by name is there are always people who don't get mentioned..but its not my intention to miss anyone..hugs, antronella x

gario900

antronella wrote: »

Gario, hope your cold's a bit better. Have you booked a hol away somewhere

Thanx Hun!

Yeh, got a holiday booked for Thailand 11th Feb. The way i'm feeling i just can't be bothered.
Was asked tonight (thanx Saz for the PM) to go away with a friend a week on Wed to a carnival in Sitges (barcelona), but thinking about it, i have to much to cope with.
Unfair to leave the 'going on's' with the folks.

I don't know what's happened to me this weekend, it's like i've crawled back to the beginning again, it's bloody awful and sore.

Supposed to be working at Johnstone tomorrow and Tuesday, but tomorrow it's a no go.
Gonna phone Doc and see if i can get an appointment to have a chat with him.

I have had so many plans but now i'm letting them slip away.
I need to get out and get my own place and start afresh and get away from things that are eating away, every corner i turn there are always memories
lingering.

Sorry for ranting on,
Heads a bit messed,
Just a bad weekend.

Hope u all have a good week.

Gary

xx

dawnylou

Antronella - I am just hoping it lasts!!!
I went for 'really red'

Shows more at the roots than anywhere else I think but not sure if that is just where light is shining so it looks brighter?

slowlyfading

antronella wrote: »

SF, it's human nature to feel envious of people who seem happy with life..when we feel the opposite..don't beat yourself up about it. When I'm feeling low i seem to notice that everyone else seems happy-but sometimes they're just covering up and their lives aren't that great. Really think you should eat something..even if it's small..otherwise you'll have no energy to do anything..., .it'll keep your metabolism going too.

I guess so, but then the grass isn't always greener. its a tough time. how are you this evening?

slowlyfading

Dawnylou, how are you this evening? xx

dawnylou

I am ok. Feeling tired and keep feeling a bit sicky too though so am off to bed.

Hope you are well and have a good nights sleep too x

meyore

Hi all, hope everyone is ok. I'm going to try and get round to reading whats been going on in my couple of days absence... OH has been back for the weekend, which explains why I haven't been around (as if you couldn't have guessed!).

Worked all day Friday.The usual managers weren't in, so it was an ok day. I am going to speak to the assistant manager about the whole job/contract/hours thing. I think shes in tomorrow. Anyway, I drove all the way to work on Friday and when I got there I realised I had forgotton my handbag. :mad: I'd been so busy packing stuff for my night away with OH that I forgot the essentials! I rang my mum and even though she was busy she brought it up to me. Aren't mummys great! :A I went to boots to get her prescription and some travel size toiletries. I asked at the clinique counter if they had any mini sets for sale and she gave me a hand full of testers. I liked that-free stuff, even better because I was all prepared to buy it!

After work I drove straight to Exeter to pick OH up from the station, then we drove to Tiverton and stayed in a place there. We stayed there before and it was as good as I remembered!

Drove back down here on Saturday morning and didn't do much all day. Where OH is stationed they haven't had any water all week, so I did all his washing for him. We watched some weepy films and I cried on him. Sat and watched his football with him too-for once that didn't end in tears! He ordered us a nice indian takeaway in the evening.

Sadly today he had to go back, so I drove him to Weston-Super-Mare as usual. Eaten far too much this weekend, going to have to work very hard at the gym tomorrow and the rest of the week I think.

Been feeling a bit weird again this weekend, I think I'm going to try and see my doctor this week. I'm getting anxious again, which in itself scares me. I get scared of being scared. I then worry that it will get out of hand and I'll lose control and do something I might regret. Its the anxiety itself that turns into a vicious circle.

I'm not feeling too bad tonight though.

Xx

Karrie

Hi Guys

Haven't been around for a while. Hello to all those that know me and hello to anyone that is about to read my rant. I just feel I need to let loose tonight as I can't sleep and feel like I am at breaking point. This site was my saviour before that's why I am selfishly returning for some support.

Depression is a wicked, relentless, evil and unforgiving illness. It knocks me to the ground every time I pick myself up! My life is ruled by this illness and I am getting the point where I just don't have the energy to fight it anymore. I don't want to go back to the docs and tell them it's reared it's ugly head again. Why can't I get rid of it on my own? I am a complete and utter failure. I can't remember things. I want to be alone ALL the time. It's just ruined my relationship of 5 years. No matter how hard I try, it won't go away and I just don't have the energy to fight it anymore. A close friend of mine died suddenly recently and they were the only person I could confide in. Now I have no-one. And do you know what? I just give up. I try so hard to be positive and get on with life but IT always knocks me for six. All over Christmas I knew it was coming and there you go, it walks right up to me and punches me in the face. I struggle to wake every day AGAIN. I haul myself into work and pretend "Yay life is great". I put on an act for my son which is becoming harder and harder to do as he gets older.

I've had enough of it and don't know what more I can do! The end result will be more tablets for a few months. This illness is so hard to deal with. People can't see it. People just don't know what it does to those that suffer from it and I am so angry that I have this illness.