Depression Support Thread

BizzyBek

Right now I am really :mad:

One said 'friend' as aforementioned did come round tonight. To ask after Mum? To offer a hand or a cuppa? No - to show off the gown she is wearing for a ball tonight :rolleyes: Meanwhile my mum is now crying with the pain.

Oooh look, there's the end of my tether...!!

cat9586

Hello everyone,
Hope you are all doing okay. Just wanted to say hi.

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Katie They are nice shops that you can spend the gift vouchers in. Any ideas as to what you will buy?

Did you enjoy your pottery class? It sounds like it was fun

Is it quite difficult to use the potters wheel?

You're always so busy. Where do you find the energy lol

miss tbc I hope marriage counselling helps you and your OH. Have you made an appointment yet or do you have to wait?

How do you feel about the GP recommending you go back on anti-depressants?

feelinggood How are you? Is your neck any better?

BizzyBek :j that's really good news about what the CPN had to say. You must be really pleased has she suggested coping methods for your anxiety? Will you have to see her again?

Unfortunately some people are like that :mad: It does make you mad though, especially when you've helped them in the past. Both you and your Mum seem like good caring people, it's such a shame those people who you've supported aren't there to help you.

Are the painkillers not easing the pain?
slowlyfading :T hun. You must be really happy with what your tutor had to say. You deserve it you're always working so hard.

juno Forgetting about what your ex wants for a minute...how do you feel about him?

Horace Yay! If I'm ever in Birmingham I'll be sure to let you know. Same goes for you if you're ever down this way

I assume the eye drops help to keep the glaucoma at bay or something You're so young though I hope you managed to get the 10ml bottle changed to 2 x 5ml.

You have a great attitude towards your work. It doesn't matter what others think as long as you're enjoying the work

When do you actually start selling the art work? Is that what the appointment on Monday is for?

Did you have a good time at the craft centre? Buy anything?

:rotfl: @ the bus driver. Sounds like you had a lucky escape :rotfl:

Tiff It's lovely to see you post. We were worried about you. You've had soo much going on, so big (((HUGS))) to you. Has the chest infection cleared up now? Are you still feeling as low?

Awww hun, you should let us know when you're feeling low so that we can support you in the same way that you support us. I feel so sad knowing that you felt so alone. We're always here for you, don't be afraid to use us.

Sorry to hear about your Mum. How is she now?

Make sure you rest Tiff. That's an order btw

stephb1986 :hello: How was Egypt?

shazrobo How's your weekend going? Did you go into town in the end?

gario900 That colds been lingering for ages hope it clears up soon.


Yesterday at work was pretty crap, in fact pretty much all week has been but yesterday was horrible. My manager told me to bring in my coursework, which I did and she said she would go through it with me. It got to 2:30 and she said I haven't looked at it yet but can I have a word. So I went into the consultation room with her and she tells me how concerned she is, that she's noticed cuts/scars (employer is aware of me self-harming) anyway I said they are old cuts but my GP/social worker is aware of my recent cutting. She asked to see the cuts. I explained that they were horrible but she insisted that she saw them. I showed them and she says I'm now even more worried. She's informed the area manager and he is coming on Wednesday. She made me make an appointment with my GP (I wasn't going to go back as I thought it was pointless).

Today at work she called me out the back and she said go and show 'x' employee your arms. I am friendly with this employee but definately don't want to go around showing my cuts to her, so I said no way. She then said to me you'll be showing the area manager your arms on Wednesday. i said no I won't, she said yes you will :mad: I'm scared of what is going to happen. I've only just been put back on my Pharmacy course (taken off it last year 'cos I was in and out of hosp.) and I fear he will remove me again.

I also found out today that she told another employee on Friday that the area manager will be coming to see me and she also told this employee about the cuts on my arms!!! :mad: :mad: :mad:

I am so !!!!ed off it's untrue. I feel like nothing is private and that they are all plotting against me or something.

Horace

Bizzybek - there are folks out there who just take and that is so maddening. I can remember something similar happening when I was a kid, my dad was in hospital following a car accident and my mum couldnt drive so she would get the bus to Winchester to see him until she got him transferred to Birmingham. Our neighbours were stinkers and when mum started to do farm work to earn some cash, they would cross the road to avoid her - not one offered to help cut the lawn or anything:mad:

Remember Bizzy - what goes round comes round. Lets hope your mate spills some red wine or gravy down her lovely gown:rotfl:

Now I feel even fatter, I havent had any tea but I have grazed - I ate two crumpets, some biscuits and a whole box of chocs that my mate gave me for my birthday present (only 2 months late). I still feel sleepy and did fall asleep on the sofa earlier on.

My OH rang me to whinge about his dad - dad is a lazy good for nothing creature (another who is always on the take). He keeps appearing at my OH's flat asking to stay the night because he doesnt like being on his own in his own flat. Now he is eyeing up the front room (currently full of furniture and gym equipment) saying that he could stay in there (for someone who hates noise - this is a nonsense because the front room is situated on the busy Brixton Road). I have had to listen to the whinges because this selfish old man turns up when he feels like it or demands lifts ih the middle of the night. I told my OH to come up to Brum at the weekend plus if he arranges some visits up here he can stay during the week as well. Pity he can't change the lock on his flat because dad has the lease and OH pays him £52 a week in rent (not bad for a large 3 bed mansion flat).

I really must do some housework tomorrow - I am fed up at looking at piles of junk/hewspapers etc. I really must learn to put things away rather than just dumping them on the table.

Horace

razorbladekisses wrote: »

Horace Yay! If I'm ever in Birmingham I'll be sure to let you know. Same goes for you if you're ever down this way

I assume the eye drops help to keep the glaucoma at bay or something You're so young though I hope you managed to get the 10ml bottle changed to 2 x 5ml.

You have a great attitude towards your work. It doesn't matter what others think as long as you're enjoying the work

When do you actually start selling the art work? Is that what the appointment on Monday is for?

Did you have a good time at the craft centre? Buy anything?

:rotfl: @ the bus driver. Sounds like you had a lucky escape :rotfl:

The eye drops help keep the glaucoma at bay and also treat the uveitis (disease where the iris of the eye attacks itself). I went to the Pharmacy today and they tried to fob me off asking me to return on Monday - I told them that I needed the drops and as I use a bottle for each eye to avoid cross infection - one 10ml bottle wasn't going to be any good. God, they are so thick in Lloyds chemist - they eventually found my prescription and told me that they were within their rights to supply 1 x 10ml bottle so I reminded them that 10ml wasn't written on the prescription but 2 x 5ml bottles were. They gave me back the 10ml bottle but added a 5ml bottle as well - I wont be using Lloyds again because they're rubbish.

I had a fab time at the craft centre - I bought two silly signs (one for work about the times between tea/lunch break, loo breaks etc is called work and will now be referred to as work breaks, the other sign was for home - about ringing the bell for maid service and if there is no reply then you do it yourself). I bought myself a lovely leather briefcase/shoulder bag that has a zipped top with fold over flap, zipped inside pocket, padded pocket for laptop and a press stud pocket on the back. I was really pleased with it as it cost me £37.50 and I have seen similar bags for £100+. I saw some lovely jewellery too but didn't buy any because to be honest most things in the craft centre are pricey.

My meeting on Monday is with Birmingham Chamber of Commerce - they have good links and it is a way of networking and promoting the business (hopefully, I can make a contact to offload this artwork). I am also trying to sell the artwork to the chinese community and am trying to offload it before the Chinese NY celebrations next month. Some of the artwork is nice but some I hate to say it is pretty awful (its ok if you love cats!) - lots of paintings of cats on scrolls but a few others of different subjects, some fancy goodluck knots and some snuff bottles that have been painted inside using the tiniest brush imaginable.

Your boss has a damn cheek telling folks about your SH - hasn't she heard of the Data Protection Act? She should not be discussing your medical details with anyone else without your permission. No wonder you are SH with a boss like that - wonder what she'd do if you told her that her attitude didnt help and was causing you to SH? (doesn't matter if this isnt the case - a little white fib never did anyone any harm). Let's hope you can stay on the pharmacy course.

geminilady

Razorbladekisses I cannot believe what your manager did.She has no right to discuss your SF with another employee and i do not think she can insist you show the area manager.Maybe she made you an apointment with your GP because she is worried about you but did not think another person could do this without your permission.I do not know the legal aspects of this maybe someone else will but i would definately get advise from somewhere maybe the citizen's advise .How did she notice your arms?don't you keep them covered in work? anyway as you said the gp said he does not know how to help so what is the point of seeing him again

Sugar_Coated_Owl

I wear a white top (Boots) and have started wearing a black cardigan over the top. It covers the worst cuts on my arm. I also wear bracelets to try and cover up my wrists but sometimes they move

Exactly, I'm wasting my time going to see the GP.

I just feel so hurt that everyone seems to know about such personal matters. It's hard to face colleagues knowing that they know, if that makes any sense.

Generally at work when people ask how I am I say I'm fine. I never want to go into detail. However, my manager goes to me you aren't fine 'cos I've seen you're arms and that isn't normal behaviour or something. Yeah, nice one, thanks for that.

I think I should just sleep. All I can think about is what she's said and it's making me mad.

rose07

hello

well everything was !!!!!! then have a drink, and whahey :rotfl:

I had yet more bad news this day, never seems to end, but im learning. i think the thing is things can hit you down, and my god i know what that feels like, but you have to keep going, if not for yourself, then for your friends, for your family , for your pets, for your partners.

You have days where you cant go on, i felt like that before, i just couldnt see the light more and was ready to jack it all in, but then i dont know something hit me, prob a brick :rotfl:and i realised there no point coz then thats like putting all the help and support you have got and going ten million steps backwards.

right i probaby better get to bed

take care everyone

xxx



Tiff its good to see you back, i think i speak for all when i say, we all wondered where you were. You do realise if you hadnt came back, ya woulda had rosie knocking on ya door :rotfl:can you get some help as to regards to your ds's vocational studies? Its important he has something in place, is he going to uni? if so i can help you there? is he lookin to work in tv, if so can try and help you there too. xxx

Tiff_2

Hi guys!:hello:
I hope everyone's safe and sound this Sunday morning?
......
I don't know - you complain about me not posting - and where are you all? Actually no, don't tell me - I've got a vivid imagination and sometimes it's better not to know.
Thank you all for the lovely welcome home guys - it really means a lot to me. I'm feeling a bit better, thank you - the last time I saw my cpn, he had diagnosed the sleep deprivation and wanted me to have a sleeping tablet to take every other night just for 2 weeks so that I could get some rest. I had a telephone appt with my gp who was checking on my chest infection the same day and he said that no, he wouldn't want to do it now, with my breathing being so bad!
I'm sure I'd have noticed if I stopped - but hey, this is Tiffy we're talking about - best not to take any chances!



Aaah - the folly of youth. Never mind, I've got 8 more!

Right then, well I'm here now , so I better do some posting while I can get away with it!
I hope Sunday will be kind to us all. Be kind to yourself guys.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Horasio

Another dull day here

I wish things would leave us alone.

Our son is doing a business venture today and the person who was going to provide the venue for free, decided to try and charge him on the day - this happened before. Who the hell can you trust? One minute people being generous then f*cking him this way. It's always men, the men up here a c*nts - if I argue with anyone it is always the men.

Men, with the exception of the guys on this thread, are so useless, yet they put women down. I see younger guys who are trying to help themselves on here and would kill for the help I gave my son.

My OH is one of the better ones but still high maintenance and don't start me on my son. I wish I hadn't bothered with all the aggro. If anyone asked if marriage was a good thing, I would say, whatever bothers you about them never changes and if you have kids, they will emulate them.

Changes I want - OH to lose weight, get rid of his skin problem and other problems but won't bother the doctors as much as he should. Be closer emotionally, tidy up his act and actually do what he keeps saying he is going to do to move forward - I have heard this for 26 years and find it really irritating when nothing materialises. Our son is just dossing around, OK he is doing his business venture this weekend, which is good but he hasn't got a regular income/job and not finishing his degree. Men always stop at 80%, same with builders, all sails till 80%, then needs 80% aggro to finish the final 20%. You think men have common sense but they don't deal with any physical problems they have and treat us like dirt.

I have given 20/26 years of my life to them and feel I had to put anything I wanted to do to the background. My illness didn't help either but now my illness is far better, I am feeling dragged down by my OH and son now. They soon deflate me if I cheer up and get at me when I'm grumpy, mostly caused by my feelings of frustration about them and a robbed youth.

Now we are going to be homeless in 71 days, I can leave but haven't worked for years, so feel a bit lost but feel so dragged down by them and they aren't helping themselves. I am sick of men's apathy and criticism - it is so frustrating.