Depression Support Thread

rose07

meyore wrote: »

So sad OH was meant to be home tonight, but got stuck at Bristol because of flooding or something and now can't get home and he wouldn't let me come and pick him up either. Hes turned his phone of because he has no battery and I just feel so disappointed and alone. I don't know where he is or whats going to happen, he wanted me to book us a hotel in Bath for tomorrow but I just don't feel like it. I'm talking rubbish I know it sorry

((((hugs)))))

Does he live far away from you then?

I can understand you were looking forward to him coming home and its nice to have someone there. IS he going to be able to get home tomorrow?
Its not rubbish, you feelin let down as of course you were lookin forward to seeing your oh, true what they say, absence makes the heart grow fonder.

im about if ya wanna talk hun

xxx

meyore

Just feel really rubbish about it I started driving up and everything and he just said no he doesn't want me driving, bad weather and he knows I don't like driving at night because I can't see so well in the dark. He was just trying to do what was right, but I feel rubbish because I'm home alone and I don't even know where he is. I just feel like I'm moaning no-theres people having real hard times and I'm moaning about this.

He text saying go home and book that hotel I wanted to go to in Bath for tomorrow and that I'll see him then. But his phone is off and I don't know, I don't feel up to making any decisions by myself about where we're going tomorrow etc, I just want him to be here. He annoys me too because if he had any common sense he'd ring me from a pay phone. But he has no common sense.

meyore

He lives in Surrey, hes training in the army.

meyore

Guess I just feel let down. I was so looking forward to seeing him, then when he got stuck at Bristol I was looking forward to staying up there somewhere with him. Then when I was 20 miles up the road he texts saying no I can't come. He said it nicely but I feel rubbish anyway.

juno

Ignore me; I'm just being all self-centred.

I'm currently working part time. And I volunteer on Mondays, but can be changed to another day if necessary. Then I'm doing an accounting course, studying for a qualification privately, and thinking of taking a computer course which would be a qualification rather than learning anything new.

I've been doing loads of overtime at work but there's less now because we're not as short-staffed any more. And I know one guy at work needs overtime because he has a family and stuff, so I feel bad about taking the little overtime there is to fund my shoe addiction. So I've been thinking about getting a part time job to fit around what I already do.

And last night I saw my dream job advertised. And I mean my dream job. It's the kind of job that answers the "where do you see yourself in 10 years time?"question. So I decided to apply, because I didn't think I had anything to lose.

But I was also going for a promotion at my current job. I've been told today I'm not getting it, because my current store don't want to lose me and it would involve going elsewhere. That's fine coz I didn't think I'd get it anyway. But as a result of this, my manager wants to give me extra hours and more responsibility. Which is also fine, but ruins any ideas of getting another job. And tbh I don't know if I'll cope doing the same thing pretty much full time without going crazy again.

When I got home from seeing my manager, I found out I've got an interview for my dream job. I thought they'd just have a good laugh at my CV and throw it in the bin, but they seem really interested. So obviously I'd be stupid to turn that down. I know I haven't got the job yet, but if I do get it I would probably need to leave my current job.

Which leaves me all confused. Leaving fantasy dream job aside, I want to take the extra hours at work, but if I do I pretty much won't be able to get another job to fit round it. If I turn down the extra hours at work they won't be too happy, and I might not get another job that would fit round things for a while, if ever. And I do kinda need the money. And if I did get fantasy dream job then I would be taking the extra hours for only a couple of weeks, when I'd leave anyway!

This is more to get things straight in my head than anything else. I still don't really believe I've got an interview.

rose07

How about if we make a decision together then hun?

Dont do any driving tonight, if you arent great in the dark, there no point doing the driving.

Im not sure i understand on the distance, mainly coz my geography is !!!!, pardon my french.

Of course you want to see him, but there is not long before tonight you can go to bed and sleep, and wake up more refreshed

will you see him tomorrow?

xxx

meyore

If hes still in Bristol hes about 175 miles away, but he could be anywhere between here and there. I haven't given up hope he might turn up, but its very unlikely because I expect hes given up and found somewhere to stay. I was being horrible to him too and didn't text him back so as far as he knows I'm out there driving round still. I've tried sleeping but can't yet.

I'm sorry I'm going to stop going on now and ask if you're ok? Thanks for being so nice to me.

rose07

meyore wrote: »

If hes still in Bristol hes about 175 miles away, but he could be anywhere between here and there. I haven't given up hope he might turn up, but its very unlikely because I expect hes given up and found somewhere to stay. I was being horrible to him too and didn't text him back so as far as he knows I'm out there driving round still. I've tried sleeping but can't yet.

I'm sorry I'm going to stop going on now and ask if you're ok? Thanks for being so nice to me.

Now I know where Bristol is, kinda, I think i need to travel more :rotfl:

Best thing for you to do, is stop worrying bout it. easier said than done, i know. ring him back, just incase he has charged his phone, then you can make sure he is ok, and he can know that your not half way across the country. If he is tierd he will want rest, and you are bound to be tierd too, so need rest.

No worries hun anytime
huggles
xxx

meyore

I texted him, but his phones off. They've reopened the line between Bristol and Taunton, but I don't know if hes still trying or what. Not to worry I guess, things will probably be ok.

Overtired probably describes me-like a small child!

Hope you ok thanks again rose

Xx

rose07

Hi everyone hope we are all ok tonight xxx

Antronella
Firstly hun, lotsa these:


I can understand after being with someone for soo long, there is bound to be pain, it is normal, and more importantly ok, for you to feel the way you feelin, you must get some support around you tho, if you feel you may slip. Good friends and good contact with your doctor. I know with my 1st love I thought i would be with them forever, but things never go that way we want. But sometimes if things in a relationship arent right, you need to get out of it, and it sounds like you have done the right thing. keep talking to us, as you will get through this with some support and time xxxx

Tiff, Hi hun, how r u feeling?

I hope things aren’t to stressful for you, and that your getting lotsa rest, get that ds off his erm !!!! and tell him to bring ya hot chocolate in bed. I have been known to bring my parents breakfast in bed, amazing aint it lol. Get lotsa rest hun, huggles xxx

Sazzie, how r u? So the launch……how did it go? And the coucelling is it helping? Its good to talk aint it? I had a random text tonight from an ex, made interesting reading anyway lol. And met up with a friend on weds, which was good laugh. IM soo tierd today tho, we had an incident at work yesterday where a box fell on a girls head and she went unconscious, we had to call an ambulance, and I sat with her, and omg it was just awful, its been one of those weeks, ff it’s the weekend eh? Lol hope your ok, take care , huggles xxx

Gario, Hi hun, how r u? must be hard with the split going on. Try and take it easy tho. You cant do nothing bout those things that have passed, im here if ya need to talk xxx

Gillette. Sounds like you work down a coal mine. Whaat does your job entail again? Hope your ok atm, don’t let work get too much tho. Take care xx

BigMummaF, ok firstly check your pms, nextly lotsa these:





Im sorry things are soo tough for you atm. Your bil decision, must have been hard, as it may feel to the family like he is giving up. But he sounds like he is an young at heart kinda guy, and a really lovely person, that just wants to live what time he has left. Instead of struggle on with the chemo. I guess its his decision at the ned of the day. But all decisions have repercussions on the ones we love.

Im here anytime

Take care
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Shazrobo, hiya, how r u and your ds’s? Did I read right back there? Are you talking to your ex still and meeting up with him? I guess only you truly know whats in your heart of hearts. But we have exes for a reason hun. Don’t feel you need to go back to him. Take care xxx

RBK, HI hun, how r u atm? Have you been back to see your gp? Hope your ok xxx

Juno. How r u? Well done for doing soo much and keeping yourself busy. As to the problem with the jobs. You only get one shot at your dream job, and obviously go to the interview and see how it goes, don’t make any decisions until you know. Then you will have a clearer idea of what to do. Take carexxx

Hope all the regulars, anyone I haven’t mentioned, and lurkers, and the long time no see’ers are all ok


Much love and huggles



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