Depression Support Thread

meyore

rose07 wrote: »

Ahh your the same as me with the membership then. do you do more than just tae bo then? i was in the cardio zone today, only did 20mis too and felt like id ran a marathon :rotfl:. But tomorrow im gonna go for an hour now thats dedication :rotfl:. Its mainly my left leg and foot that hurts mainly coz its gone messed up after my op last year. I need somethin to patch me up :rotfl:

Well as ya can prob tell by my other posts, my day was awful :rotfl:

I need someone to tell everyone off at work, give em a good slap, :rotfl:


right i really am going to bed now

take care hun

huggles
xxxxxxxxxx

Yeah I do (on a "I'm being good" week!)-

Mondays-Bums tums and thighs and 30 minutes gym.
Tuesday-Cardio tone and 1 hour gym.
Wednesdays-Circuit training and 30 minutes gym. (But I usually chicken out of this one!)
Thursdays-Tae bo followed by tae bo tone.
Fridays-An hour in the gym. (Again, I usually make excuses and don't go...)

I'm always too lazy to do weekends though!

Hope work is better for you today, I always think work would be fine if I was the only one there, but thats more the customers than the other staff for me!

Yesterday a guy came in, he was 90 and wanted to take his pension out of his account. He put the wrong number in 3 times, so he couldn't get any money. So he had to go without. With the thought of him having to starve etc, I felt so guilty and from there my day went downhill. Glad I'm not working today, I need some time to clear my head from that place sometimes.

Xx

dawnylou

rose07 wrote: »

Time is time aint it? can be a healer can not be, its what ya do with it that matters

yeah im like a yoyo, weird aint it? up and down, one minute ya can be flying high next minute ya wonder how ya got sooo low , today is a v good example of that, one minute i was ok next minute, was soo low and in tears i couldnt believe it, ah well we just gotta keep going

I hope your day tomorrow is a better one too

xxxxxxx

Yes today I went with MIL (to be) for her coffee morning. Had a good start, bit of a chat but then it was like I got sick of talking and couldn't be bothered anymore, and then I got all tearful.
I HAVE to go back to work, but can't while I am like this - I can't even have a !!!!ing simple conversation without crying now!! What the hell is wrong with me and how much longer am I supposed to go on like this???
I can't just keep going....

Everything would be so much better without me and everyone would be so much better off.

jen.eng wrote: »

Dawnylou How are you doing today. Hang in there hun, it WILL get better I promise x


Luv Jen x

Just the same unfortunately.Everyone keeps saying that - but the longer it goes on the harder it is to believe that


Happy birthday Juno love x

meyore

Dawnylou I don't think anyone would be better off without you as you say and if you asked them they'd tell you as much. I know things must be so hard at the moment, I've been there and it feels terrible, but things got better for me and they will for you too. I know it doesn't feel like it and when you feel like this you think whats the point in living like it, and then guilty for like that, so its endless. But it will get better with the right support.

(((HUGS))) Sorry I can't be of any help

Xx

meyore

shazrobo wrote: »

morning all,
meyore, it was the first time he had shown up at my house since the split, apart from the once which was arranged so he could collect his things. now everytime there is a knock at the door i jump out of my skin.

been to see the dietician this morn, she thinks a healthier diet will help with the depression, i've had to promise to eat three regular meals a day and include 5 pieces of fruit and veg :eek: , i'll never eat that much..
big hugs everyone
shaz x

Fruits ok, its the veg I find hard to eat. Think strawberries, grapes, melons and all the nice fruits you can get, not just apples and bananas.

Xx

meyore

jen.eng wrote: »

I'm going back to work today, I rang and told them I'd be in once I've dropped DS at school. Now I feel sick and low. I feel guilty being at home, but not up to being at work. I can't keep taking time off, they'll sack me at this rate :eek:

Hi Jen.

Glad you're feeling up to trying to go back to work, but don't be too hard on yourself either way, it'll only make you feel worse.

Hope it goes well

Xx

dawnylou

meyore wrote: »

Dawnylou I don't think anyone would be better off without you as you say and if you asked them they'd tell you as much. I know things must be so hard at the moment, I've been there and it feels terrible, but things got better for me and they will for you too. I know it doesn't feel like it and when you feel like this you think whats the point in living like it, and then guilty for like that, so its endless. But it will get better with the right support.

(((HUGS))) Sorry I can't be of any help

Xx

Well I really do. I am filling up my time today in the Comp board. Haven't even bothered entering any comps this year and used to really enjoy it. Just can't be bothered with anything.

How did you get yourself sorted out?

meyore

Keeping myself busy a lot helped and slowly you forget about things. Its hard to explain really, it must've been a gradual thing, I didn't just wake up when day and realise it was gone. I was on antidepressants, but they weren't doing anything for me other than making me feel numb and I wanted to come off them, but didn't know how. There was a death in the family and I was so unhappy about that, that I just stopped taking the tablets because the pain I felt was real then. I don't know how much sense that makes. I just threw myself into being "normal" and realised eventually that I was pretty normal. Everyone is pretending in the same way to a greater or lesser extent I guess.

I still have bad times with anxiety especially, but there are a lot more good and ok times now than before. I try not to think too far ahead though. Me and OH are planning on getting married, so I should be happy about that all the time right? But sometimes even that doesn't make things better and then I feel guilty. But it isn't about to be happy all the time, and thats something I try to remember when I'm down.

Xx

ilovegreatdanes

hi,
juno.....may i wish you a very happy birthday and a wonderful year.
........and best wishes to everyone.xx
feeling very tired 2day and cold is back but not as bad.
charlie dane is going to vets tom about a cyst on his leg.its size of a golf ball now so he has to go.hope all wil be ok.dh is off for 5 days from tom so may not get chance to post, but wil be thinking of you all.
love ilgd xx

feelinggood_2

dawnylou wrote: »

How did you get yourself sorted out?

Thats a great question, and I know it wasn't aimed at me, but I want to answer it. I asked the same question a lot when I was very ill, and I didn't seem to hear the responses. It may sound like too much work, but hopefully some of what I say may help.

To sort myself out, I just focused on the basics. Firstly, I tried to get out of bed each day. Then, I tried to wash everyday. Then get dressed. Then leave the house once a fortnight. I gradually built it up regularly, and now I go for 2 walks a week, 3 or more AA meetings, to work one afternoon and I try to go out another time, to see a friend or shopping. I also made sure that I ate well - that made a real difference to me. No sugar, caffine or alcohol. I also worked really hard at keeping the house clean and tidy. I tried not to allow myself to isolate - I tried making friends and visiting family.

These things were really, really hard at first. Most of the time, I didn't manage half of what I wanted. But I kept trying my hardest, every day, and things are so much better now. It took quite a long time for me to start to see some changes in how I felt, but now I'm starting to reap the benefits of all the effort. I'm glad I stuck with it.

I know its incredibly hard, but just keep on plodding along, putting one foot in front of the other, doing your best and it will pay off. It may take longer than you'd like, but acceptance of 'life on life's terms' is a valuable lesson that will make things easier to deal with in future.

feelinggood_2

Happy Birthday to our lovely & wonderful Juno!!! Hope you have a day as special as you are (thats very special incase you were wondering)!