Depression Support Thread

meyore

Think I ought to try to sleep and I'm never going to do that while I'm on here! Night all, QWB, Antronella and Juno I see you're all still here

Xx

antronella

Nite nite. Hope your toes are less painful tomorrow Meyore....OUCH! x

antronella

juno wrote: »

I'm doing admin at the CAB! I want to get into an officey type role, so this will give me some experience and hopefully look good on my cv. I have a lot of gaps so far, as my depression has meant i've left a lot of jobs. But I've had a job for a few months now (although I got paid on Thurs and already have no money left ), so with that, this volunteering, and my new course which starts on weds things will get better.

I honestly think I am coping better now. I'm not quite sure why though. I haven't felt really down in a long time. I was really upset last month, but that was because it was my mum's anniversary and somehow it felt different. I'm not getting upset for no reason really now. Maybe I'll never be "normal", but I think I'm getting there

:T well done Juno! sounds like you're making really positive steps for your future x

antronella

queensway_boy wrote: »

hugs to everyone

One of my meds is dihydrocodeine which is a class B drug (class A if its prepared for injection) under the controlled drugs act.If i go abroad can i still take these with me? do i need paperwork etc,fanks.Hope your all ok,xxx
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Are you planning a holiday QWB?
Re the meds...sure you will be fine as long as you have a covering letter from your GP ...

queensway_boy

Night night antronella and anyone else whose about

antronella

Nite nite QWB..hope I haven't upset you by being nosey..didn't mean to be x

shazrobo

:j morning all, hope everybody is ok this morn. kids have left for school this morning in their taxi's so some much deserved free time for me, starting with my guitar lesson at 9.30.
hope the volunteering goes well juno, i've often thought of doing voluntary work myself, but i'd hate to let people down if i couldnt do it, either if i was ill or if one of the kids is off school.
right
best get showered and dressed, could quite happily sit in my pj's all day if staying in lol
big hugs to everyone that needs one or wants one
shaaz x

dawnylou

razorbladekisses wrote: »

dawnylou (((HUGS))) What's happened to make you feel like this re: counselling. Do you not think it's helping?

I'm not sure.
I know it sounds horrible.... but he will say something like ' oh so your brother was so naughty you felt you had to redeem him?' and then he will do this rather large exhalation from his nose that irritates me. Everytime he makes a statement about my family he does it!! Also he never has tissues and I always end up covered in snot and tears which is so embarrassing. I get really bad headaches and get physically drained by th sessions.
He makes me sit in one seat and say something and then I have to go and sit in another seat and respond to myself. Also embarrassing.
He writes notes for me to take home - but writes them on the back of a postcard which looks so unproffessional!
I can't even bring myself to look at him as I feel so uncomfortable! I just stare at the floor!

I feel he just wants to say 'oh your parents didn't love you enough' and get rid of me.
I know this isn't the case - but I say something and then feel lik he twists my words a bit and then tries to direct me into agreeing with things he says about my family etc.
It makes me angry!
In fact I was sitting playing with my key in the last session and I just suddenly zoned out and was no longer listening to him - I could just hear this really distant mumble that I couldn't quite make out. And at the time I was thinking 'I would quite like to sharpen this key and stick it into your eyeballs!'
Then I couldn't talk anymore and asked if I could leave early.

I keep being told to stick at it, but what is it really doing for me??
Maybe it would be better if I had a female to work with?

I just don't know.

Anyway I know I am miles behind agan, but will have to pop back later as have to go to doctors now
Again
This is absolutely horrible!! I am ashamed to admit I had such thoughts!

EverDecreasingCircles

Hi everyone. It's only 9.30am and the day's already c**p. OH woke me up first thing telling me someone's broken into our garage. Later realised ES may have left the door open last night and the wind's caught it, breaking the frame and bending the door. OH isn't happy!

Tried so hard to get 15 year old DS up for school this morning but just ended up making him cry (he has depression too). If only there was someone who could help me, someone who could tell me what to do. I feel like I've failed again - failed to get him to school and failed to go to work myself. OH was less than useless once again. He made comments implying I wasn't trying hard enough to get DS up and off to school, but when he tried for all of 2 minutes, he gave up and said Ds would be staying home today!

Tried to get appointment with GP as I just feel like I can't cope with all this and needed someone to talk to today, but she's not in until tomorrow. Didn't want to see another one as I'd just have to explain the whole sorry situation and don't feel up to that.

Now I'm waiting to hear the key in the door as my parents arrive on the off chance I might be off work today I can't face sitting here listening to my mother moan about how ill she feels and talking about 'him' all the time.

God, I just want to take myself away from all this.

Jen x

shazrobo

dawnylou wrote: »

I'm not sure.
I know it sounds horrible.... but he will say something like ' oh so your brother was so naughty you felt you had to redeem him?' and then he will do this rather large exhalation from his nose that irritates me. Everytime he makes a statement about my family he does it!! Also he never has tissues and I always end up covered in snot and tears which is so embarrassing. I get really bad headaches and get physically drained by th sessions.
He makes me sit in one seat and say something and then I have to go and sit in another seat and respond to myself. Also embarrassing.
He writes notes for me to take home - but writes them on the back of a postcard which looks so unproffessional!
I can't even bring myself to look at him as I feel so uncomfortable! I just stare at the floor!

I feel he just wants to say 'oh your parents didn't love you enough' and get rid of me.
I know this isn't the case - but I say something and then feel lik he twists my words a bit and then tries to direct me into agreeing with things he says about my family etc.
It makes me angry!
In fact I was sitting playing with my key in the last session and I just suddenly zoned out and was no longer listening to him - I could just hear this really distant mumble that I couldn't quite make out. And at the time I was thinking 'I would quite like to sharpen this key and stick it into your eyeballs!'
Then I couldn't talk anymore and asked if I could leave early.

I keep being told to stick at it, but what is it really doing for me??
Maybe it would be better if I had a female to work with?

I just don't know.

Anyway I know I am miles behind agan, but will have to pop back later as have to go to doctors now
Again
This is absolutely horrible!! I am ashamed to admit I had such thoughts!

dawnylou, dont know what others counsillors are like but mine sounds totally different to yours, mine also makes me feel more positive about myself. we dont play games just chat, she'll ask me questions and i'll answer, and then she usually gives a positive comment, or says something constructive that i can try that will help. if its making you feel worse i would def ask for a reffferal to some one elae
big hugs
shaz x