Depression Support Thread

fantastico_2

I went to the doctors again today and he suggested that i have bloodtests done to see why im having panic attacks. He said that it would detect any thyroid problems that could led to the attacks. I told the reasons why im having them and he still thought it best i have them done, i havent made an appointment as i dont feel it necessary. I have been having them really since the blumming clocks changed and i expect them to come to an end next spring as thats what happened last year. A couple of times i felt a bit wobbly, but generally ok. I havent ever dealt the passing of my mum 2 half years ago and its only since then ive been having them.

Has anyone else had these done?

Love H xx

Hope all are feeling better today in the lovely sunshine (if you have some, if not im sending you some sunny hugs.)

EthelBloggs

hi guys.. my son is on the mend and out of danger, I can't stop crying tho. I think the same film that hit tiffy yesterday got me too and i've been blubbing ever since

poppycracker

HI ethel

so glad your son is doing well :j (((big hugs)))) to you

((((big hugs))))) to Tiff too and everyone else who wants one

Stephb1986_2

He's turned round and said he didnt mean to hurt me to be honest it feels like he's trying to push me away all the time after the weekend we've had im wondering weather its worth all this heartache all the time. He's working nights for the next 3 weeks and part of me is like dont bother going seeing him on wednesday with his tea he can starve but part of me wants to sort it out. last night i cried myself to sleep wondering why he is with me if im so fat my day isnt getting any better i want to get back in bed hoping that i never have to get out of it again

Stephb xx

juno

fantastico wrote: »

I went to the doctors again today and he suggested that i have bloodtests done to see why im having panic attacks. He said that it would detect any thyroid problems that could led to the attacks. I told the reasons why im having them and he still thought it best i have them done, i havent made an appointment as i dont feel it necessary. I have been having them really since the blumming clocks changed and i expect them to come to an end next spring as thats what happened last year. A couple of times i felt a bit wobbly, but generally ok. I havent ever dealt the passing of my mum 2 half years ago and its only since then ive been having them.

Has anyone else had these done?

Love H xx

Hope all are feeling better today in the lovely sunshine (if you have some, if not im sending you some sunny hugs.)

I had blood tests! Like you, I thought they were pointless and I was just depressed. But I found I do have an under-active thyroid, and now I've got medication for that I feel a bit better.

rose07

im in pieces...
ive just got back from seein my gp, told him how im really feelin atm, plus a few other things, and you know when you dont really think bout things or try and keep them in and just get on with things because its the only way you can be, but then sooner or later all those things creep up on you and ......

keeeeeerrrrrrrrbooooommmm!!!!!

well everything is just hitting me all in one, speakin to my gp has, i dunno, just reality hits dont it and you think ohhh sh*t, fcukin h*ll. My gp said hes soo concerned bout me he is going to call my councellor and my psychiatrist again, he did end by saying "come and see me anytime, and we can talk bout how i dont know whats going on' (he doesnt know about the assault, about my ex, my gran, about my childhood, etc...) but the thing is he is a lovely guy, and i soo nearly broken down there and then and just wanted to tell him everything, and why, and how, but somethin stopeed me, the same thing that stops me each time, like a wall inbetween you and people, not lettin them in, not trustin anyone, so you dont hurt anyone. god i dunno whats wrong with me. im up and down like a frickin yoyo . I did tell him about my mate commiting suicide recently, then that just brought up more cr*p . my gp also concerned bout the stress im putting on my heart and i gotta go for a heart thingy, an echocardiogram, anyone know what this is?

i dunno whether to laugh or cry i really dont :rolleyes:

Tiff, i soo agree with what your saying here:
I guess what I mean is that we shouldn't try and quash every 'negative' emotion, because it can be a release of pain and a part of the healing.
.your right, we do need to let things out, and not quash it (i like the word quash hun, can i steal that?), i know your not too greaat atm either, wish there was more i could do, but i send my thoughts out to you hun, and lots of these...,
..................but tiff ...ohhh arghhhhh

xxxxxx

fantastico_2

Juno wrote: »

I had blood tests! Like you, I thought they were pointless and I was just depressed. But I found I do have an under-active thyroid, and now I've got medication for that I feel a bit better.

When i seen the Duty Dr today as i made an emergency appointment the Dr started writing up Panic Disorder and was talking about blood tests. I was so scared i didn't have the blood test done, would understand why he said panic disorder. Ive been getting myself in a tizz all afternoon and cried so much i was sick. I'm petrified that I'm worse than i thought i am. I know that my problems are nothing compared to all of the ones everyone else has, I'm trying to get a new life together and now i feel as though all my world is falling down around me.

I have re-made a Dr's appointment for next Monday(my Birthday) to see the Dr who i seen originally and prescribed me Propranolol, he was really nice and very dishy. Putting his good looks to one side, I'm going to write down what happens when i get a panic attack and hope he doesn't say its anything else. I'm sorry, i know that you all have far worse problems than what i have, i do try to keep myself together, but today i just fell apart. I'm watch Fresh Prince of bell air while typing this, trying to distract myself from getting into a mess again.

Lots of love to all, Thanks Juno for your reply.

H xx

feelinggood_2

Evening all. Hugs to those who need them.

Well, I'm now officially working lol. Its only 2 hours a week in a charity shop, and its voluntary, but its a step in the right direction!

Had a couple more slips with the self-harm, which is rather annoying. That was under control, but seems to be a problem at the moment.

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Hope all is well,I am fine,Just found out tonight that my sister is also going to see Kylie at the 02 Arena :rotfl: but on the Sunday evening as I go on the Wednesday of that week.

Glad is all well with you Feelinggood and that the work in the charity shop will help you


*hugs* to those that need one


love and light,

Katie xxx

fantastico_2

Good morning to all,

I woke up at 4.30am again today and all i have on my mind is the blummin blood-test. I have the envelope in my shoulder bag (new one i bought on Sat) and thinking of building up the courage to go back this morning and arrange for it to be done. I think that the fear of 'the unknown' made me feel so crap yesterday. Now i have had some time to think, Ive calmed down a it. I'm so scared of what the blood-tests will revel, but that is because i don't know what to expect. I think that being able to come here and write down what I'm feeling is helping more than words can say. Expect some random scribblings from me over the next few days whilst i get this done. Of course i also had started my period yesterday so that isn't helping me with depression, i know i will more feel lousy and fearful because of this. Gong to ring my sister later and see if she will be there to support me, we have got along really for a few years now but i really need all my family behind me. i have always done things for all of them and have never asked for anything in return, not even when i feel ill do i call on them. I know that i need support now as i cant keep not asking. I figure that with the support of family i can lift some of the pressure from my shoulders as i wont feel as though i am all alone, and that is the worst feeling in the world.

Im sat in bed now after having a shower watching 'Ironman Triathlon', having a nice cup of herbal tea. I dont want to be so scared all the time. Sorry for he ramblings and feeling sorry for myself.

Love H xx