Depression Support Thread

ElegantlyWasted

shazrobo wrote: »

hi lisa, (((((big hugs))))), i know exactly how your feeling right now, somebody made me feel the same way last night, and i ended up cutting my arms, and i feel terrible and really down today. just been to see my gp, and he has said he is so worried about me, that he is refering me back to the crisis team.
do you need to keep in touch with the person who has made you feel bad.
in my case its my bf, he is so loving sometimes, then at other times he makes me feel so cr*p. i am thinking about ending the relationship, but that itself is so scary, the thought of having no one to turn to, the long lonely nights etc
big hugs
shaz x

Unfortunately, I live with this person. The contract on the house is up in June, and then I don't have to have anything more to do with them. I just want them out of my life. I can't even make myself be around them anymore, so I'm just trying to avoid them, which causes problems in itself.

Hope the crisis team are able to give you the support you need hun *hugs* and that things get better with your bf.

Lisa x

hayley11

I'm so annoyed, just waited 40 minutes for a taxi and missed my counselling appointment :mad: I didn't really want to go today because I've been feeling so down, I just wanted to stay in bed tbh but my mum and OH convinced me to go because I always feel a bit better afterwards and then I couldn't even get there. I feel so bad for letting my counsellor down at the last minute, I haven't even been able to get hold of her, just left a message on their answering machine.

Anyway i'm going to try and tidy up a bit, got a load of ebay stuff lying around that I can't even list because ebay is being stupid.

Hayley x

shazrobo

ElegantlyWasted wrote: »

Unfortunately, I live with this person. The contract on the house is up in June, and then I don't have to have anything more to do with them. I just want them out of my life. I can't even make myself be around them anymore, so I'm just trying to avoid them, which causes problems in itself.

Hope the crisis team are able to give you the support you need hun *hugs* and that things get better with your bf.

Lisa x

lisa, that must be terrible living with someone who makes you feel like that, i really feel for you, (((HUGS)))
i'm lucky in that my bf does not live with me., going to ask him to give me some space whilst i work out in my own head whether the relationship is worth continueing, or whether its contributing to me being so ill this past year.
shaz x

shazrobo

hayley, dont feel bad for letting your counsillor down, it wasnt your fault the taxi didnt turn up. if i were you i would ask to speak to the owner of the taxi company and let them know how disappointed you are with their service, or lack of it.
big hugs
shaz x

shelby161

Hi everyone.I read your posts a lot and you seem like a friendly bunch. I am suffering from a lot of anxiety at the moment.My heart feels like its thumping constantly [like a terrified feeling-constantly!!] I feel really detatched from things and i am tense all the time.Ihave had these symptoms before and been given Citalopram to take.Unfortunately i never keep up the appoinments as when i feel better i hate having to go and talk things over.One doctor commented that i must be feeling better as i had done my hair nicely that day,i just felt totally patronised.I have a doctors appointment tomorrow and will probably be given another prescription but a huge part of me is scared that they wont.Have any of you used any different techniques to relax-the heart palpitations in particular are relly getting me down as i havent slept much in the last 72 hours.Thanks in advance for any advice you can give me. x

shazrobo

hi shelby, the only advise i can offer right now, is to continue the medication even when your feeling better and keep up the appoinments.
i'm taking citalopram too, my gp just upped the dose today upto 30mg.
have you tried any alternative treatments, eg aromatherapy, etc,
hugs
shaz x

shelby161

Hi Shaz-thanks for the ultra quick reply!You are right i know i should stick to my meds ,i think thats why i get so worried to go back because i feel a bit stupid! I just cant understand why i get this awful feeling and i feel angry with myself-which probably doesnt help.I have never tried alternative therapies but again thats probably because i try to ignore that i feel like crxp and then end up going to the docs.Last few times she has given me 5 days worth of Diazapam which seems to take the edge off of the "scared feeling"until the ADs kick in.Just feel like i am wasting peoples time if you know what i mean-dont really talk to anyone about it anymore as i hate hearing the sound of my whinging voice.Trying to act normal around the kids is sometimes a challenge when i spend my whole day feeling terrified.

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Hope you are ok,Sorry to hear you didnt make it to your councelling session Hayley,I am sure the counceller will understand I had a good day today,went to my parents for lunch,then I food shopped at Tescos so I dont have to do it tomorrow so I dont have to write a food list tonight like I usually do,Got the Tescos Jute bag and its so good holding all my shopping as its really strong

*hugs* to everyone


Have a lovely evening


love and light,

Katie xxx

hayley11

Hi Shelby, welcome to the board

You sound like me in so many ways, I get an awful feeling like somebody has died or like something really bad is going to happen and I dont understand why so I get very annoyed with myself for feeling this way and hurt myself. When i'm having a bad day, I can't think straight, all I can think about is how bad I feel and how I feel like i'm never going to get better. But then I have a good day and I can't understand why I let it all get to me. I'm really waffling now aren't I?

I've been on citalopram for almost 4 weeks now, I can't say I've noticed them working but i'm going to keep taking them. Don't feel bad because you need medication, you're ill just like anybody else who has any illness of any kind.

Please don't feel like you're wasting peoples time, if doctors didn't have people going to them to talk about how they're feeling, they'd be out of a job! And i'm sure your family and friends will just want to support you. I hate going on at my OH about how bad i'm feeling but I always feel a little better after having a good whinge and a cry, it doesn't do us any good to keep it all inside. And don't forget you can post on this board any time you want and we'll all be here to support you, no matter how bad (or good) you're feeling.

Big hugs hunny

Hayley xx

hayley11

Tulip wrote: »

:hello: Everyone,

Hope you are ok,Sorry to hear you didnt make it to your councelling session Hayley,I am sure the counceller will understand I had a good day today,went to my parents for lunch,then I food shopped at Tescos so I dont have to do it tomorrow so I dont have to write a food list tonight like I usually do,Got the Tescos Jute bag and its so good holding all my shopping as its really strong

*hugs* to everyone


Have a lovely evening


love and light,

Katie xxx

Thanks Katie, my counsellor rung me and she was really nice and we've rescheduled for next week.

Have a good evening hun x