Depression Support Thread

hayley11

shazrobo wrote: »

thanks hayley and lisa,
its good to know somebody understands. just had to turn my phone off, he keeps ringing me, and saying such nasty things, i'm crying so much i;m scared of waking kids up. they are the only reason i carry on but its so hard, just wanna go to sleep and never wake up
shaz x

Awww shaz, wish there was something I can do or say to make you feel better. It will get easier hun, it really will. Whenever you get really low, just think of your children and how much they need their mummy. How many do you have? Boys/girls? Just being nosey

Lots of love hun xx

shazrobo

hi rose, my bf didnt live with me, we had been together a year and he stayed at mine few times during week, and weekends. its deffinatly over, as i cant take him being nasty. infact on another thread somebody mentioned emotional abuse, and when i looked at the link, i ticked almost every box, he ignores my feelings, insults me, put me down, makes me feel useless, these last few weeks have been like walking on egg shells.
i spoke to my counsillor today, and i knew in my heart that it wasnt right to be treat this way, and when i told my bf, he said i was imaging it all.
tells me i'm an attention seeker for getting upset, tells me i've screwed up my kids lives by being a crap mum etc
i have suffered from depression on and off for the past 12 years, but this year has been the worst, with the suicide attempts and the self harm, just feel so hurt, and i know deep down hes not right for me, but i loved him despite his faults still do, and missin him so much. aching for a hug and for the pain to stop
shaz x

rose07

shazrobo wrote: »

thanks hayley and lisa,
its good to know somebody understands. just had to turn my phone off, he keeps ringing me, and saying such nasty things, i'm crying so much i;m scared of waking kids up. they are the only reason i carry on but its so hard, just wanna go to sleep and never wake up
shaz x

yes leave your phone off

ohh hun, just wanna wrap you up in ya duvet xx

I understand how you are feelin tho, not sure if that helps, but try and keep busy, keep talkin to us, your around friends, we are all here, just vent it out, we will catch ya.

Let it out hun,

Your kids are something to keep going for, can i ask how old they are?
(((((hugs)))))))
xxxxxx

rose07

shazrobo wrote: »

hi rose, my bf didnt live with me, we had been together a year and he stayed at mine few times during week, and weekends. its deffinatly over, as i cant take him being nasty. infact on another thread somebody mentioned emotional abuse, and when i looked at the link, i ticked almost every box, he ignores my feelings, insults me, put me down, makes me feel useless, these last few weeks have been like walking on egg shells.
i spoke to my counsillor today, and i knew in my heart that it wasnt right to be treat this way, and when i told my bf, he said i was imaging it all.
tells me i'm an attention seeker for getting upset, tells me i've screwed up my kids lives by being a crap mum etc
i have suffered from depression on and off for the past 12 years, but this year has been the worst, with the suicide attempts and the self harm, just feel so hurt, and i know deep down hes not right for me, but i loved him despite his faults still do, and missin him so much. aching for a hug and for the pain to stop
shaz x

You dont need someone like that hun, its good you are going to walk away, you dont need him, and you will be stronger for it, well done for realising its what you need, some people get stuck in patterns, but least your breakin free -as it were.
And if he thinks youve screwed up your kids, what a bang out of oder thing to say, why i would whoop his behind soo fast, and i tell ya Bigmumma would be there to, he would have a double helping

If i was there i would hug you soo hard, we all need to feel loved, close, or just like we have someone. but we dont need people that are hurting us. Some of us here feel lonely, but we all come together, and no longer are alone as there are many here to help and be friends

xxxx

feelinggood_2

Evening all. Hi to everyone I've not met. How are you tonight Rose?

rose07

Tiff wrote: »

Hi guys!:hello:
Bet you thought I'd forgotten to do what I get paid in catnip for, didn't you?
Tiff-bits time! And in no particular order, (that's what they all say!),...

rose - I hope you're feeling better yourself rosie - remember, one step at a time, ok? Thank you for your kind words hun, much appreciated. And you can put those wellies away 'cos I 'fessed up! Take care rose.


Much Love,
Tiff xxx

The wellies arent out hun, its safe to come out

I hope your ds finds his way hun, i think if he has a mum like you tho, how can he not, you are such a strong tiffstre, that your ds must be a strong thing too. but i know your havin a tough time at, and im sorry thats the case, its hard when we feel the ones we love are suffering, with your mum bein unwell, and your ds not too good atm either, your bound to be feelin a tierd and tearful tiff, we all have our off days, are down times, and you are aloud them too, we arent all superwomen, or should that be catwomen ? :rotfl:, really tho, dont expect too much, and as you have always told me, take baby steps, we are only human after all. wouldnt it be great to have superpowers tho? if i could have any power think it would be the power to heal, alot of us feel soo much pain, mostly through what other people have done to us, you and me know this feelin well. But then we also know that its the people that hurt us that have the problem, and realistically, we are stronger than them, coz we got through it.

You take care, maybe you should have some Tiff time

much love xxxx

shazrobo

hi rose, missing his hugs real bad, i love my kids i really do, but sometimes they just not enough, if ya know what i mean?
want grown up hugs and luv to make me feel wanted. get loads of hugs of my lads, i have 12 year old twin sons, and even though they asleep now, i know they are hurting too, they loved my bf like a dad, and will miss him terribly, feel guilty at putting them thru this too, and they dont really understand as they have learning disabilities.
shaz x

rose07

feelinggood wrote: »

Evening all. Hi to everyone I've not met. How are you tonight Rose?

long time no speak, hows u?

im exhausted tonight lol had a ruff week

hop ur ok

feelinggood_2

rose07 wrote: »

long time no speak, hows u?

im exhausted tonight lol had a ruff week

hop ur ok

I'm alright. Having a few 'alright' days, which is quite nice. Still rather up and down, but I'm sure that'll settle eventually.

I'm a bit nervous tonight, as I'm going with a friend to a rehabilitation centre tomorrow, to give a talk on Alcoholics Anonymous. I don't have to do much as its my first time, just give a bit of information about me and then answer a few questions on AA. Its nice that I was asked, but a bit scary!

Its been a while, I'm still not that great at keeping in touch. You do need to keep an eye on your PM's - your box was full last time I tried!

rose07

shazrobo wrote: »

hi rose, missing his hugs real bad, i love my kids i really do, but sometimes they just not enough, if ya know what i mean?
want grown up hugs and luv to make me feel wanted. get loads of hugs of my lads, i have 12 year old twin sons, and even though they asleep now, i know they are hurting too, they loved my bf like a dad, and will miss him terribly, feel guilty at putting them thru this too, and they dont really understand as they have learning disabilities.
shaz x

well ya can have a virtual, telepathic kinda hug fro me (((((((huggles)))))



I know what ya mean, someone gave me a hug yesterday and it just feels good, in a way you know your kids love you, but when someone of the same age etc.. shows some compassion, its a moment to share, (god im gonna get all soppy now:o)

They will miss him , but i think its better to miss someone than to feel the pain wiht someone. I was in a relationship with someone, and it was very stressful, tense, and emotiomnal but we were soo close, and its just nice to have that, but it made my depression worse, i dont blame her, i blame myself for not realising sooner, as we were together for nearly 3 years, its def hard to break away from a pattern.

What disabilities do your kids have?

xxx