Depression Support Thread

Tulip

hayley11 wrote: »

Thanks Katie, my counsellor rung me and she was really nice and we've rescheduled for next week.

Have a good evening hun x

Hi Hayley,

So Glad you have reschelduled your appointment with the councellor for next week

Have a lovely evening too


Katie

Tulip

I am off now,

chat tomorrow


Night! Night!

love and light,

Katie xxx

santashelper_2

shelby161 wrote: »

Hi everyone.I read your posts a lot and you seem like a friendly bunch. I am suffering from a lot of anxiety at the moment.My heart feels like its thumping constantly [like a terrified feeling-constantly!!] I feel really detatched from things and i am tense all the time.Ihave had these symptoms before and been given Citalopram to take.Unfortunately i never keep up the appoinments as when i feel better i hate having to go and talk things over.One doctor commented that i must be feeling better as i had done my hair nicely that day,i just felt totally patronised.I have a doctors appointment tomorrow and will probably be given another prescription but a huge part of me is scared that they wont.Have any of you used any different techniques to relax-the heart palpitations in particular are relly getting me down as i havent slept much in the last 72 hours.Thanks in advance for any advice you can give me. x

i get the same feelings but have found they have subsided since i gave up coffee and if you drink coke or anything with caffeine in it causes palpatations i would using caffeine to boost my energy but if ended up making me ill so i now try and cut it out of my diet, your doctor doesnt sound very understanding is there someone else you could see at your practice as i know what you mean some days you may look good on the outside to other people but inside you dont always feel the same.

santashelper_2

ElegantlyWasted wrote: »

I'm feeling really horrible at the minute.

I've just self-harmed, over the behaviour of someone that I swore I wasn't going to let upset me again. I feel so disappointed in myself, angry and frustrated. I know that this is going to precipitate a downward spiral.

I've been on edge all day, and I can't shake the feeling of panic. I had an attack this morning, and still feel bad from it. Normally cutting helps me to calm down, but I still feel shaky and anxious.

I'm sorry to be such a misery, *hugs* to all that need one.

Lisa x

sorry to hear how you feel dont let this person get you down just think you are better than they are and try and rise above them

when you feel like this is there something else you could do like punch a pillow or get a punch ball and attack that instead dont let people hurt you that you end up harming yourself i went for anger management and thought why because i dont hurt anyone when i was 14 i self harmed only once but never again my dr told my parents it was because i was crying out for help i learnt to internalize my anger because my parents abandoned my needs it wasnt until a few years ago when i was in my late thirtys i discovered i was taking the anger out on myself and this contributed to my breakdown i know self harming creates a release but if you can find another way to release these feelings it will mean you dont have to harm yourself.

Hope this is of some help, please take care because you sound a really nice person and dont deserve to do this to yourself.

ElegantlyWasted

shazrobo wrote: »

lisa, that must be terrible living with someone who makes you feel like that, i really feel for you, (((HUGS)))
i'm lucky in that my bf does not live with me., going to ask him to give me some space whilst i work out in my own head whether the relationship is worth continueing, or whether its contributing to me being so ill this past year.
shaz x

Thanks Shaz *hugs*

It is, I just keep telling myself, 'only a few more months!'. It's hard though, and it's my own fault for being too weak-willed to say no to moving in here. I know that living here is definitely contributing to how I'm feeling, but there's not much I can do about it, without breaking the contract on my house, and so having to pay two sets of rent.

Good luck with your bf, hopefully a bit of time apart will fix things for you

Lisa x

ElegantlyWasted

shelby161 wrote: »

Hi everyone.I read your posts a lot and you seem like a friendly bunch. I am suffering from a lot of anxiety at the moment.My heart feels like its thumping constantly [like a terrified feeling-constantly!!] I feel really detatched from things and i am tense all the time.Ihave had these symptoms before and been given Citalopram to take.Unfortunately i never keep up the appoinments as when i feel better i hate having to go and talk things over.One doctor commented that i must be feeling better as i had done my hair nicely that day,i just felt totally patronised.I have a doctors appointment tomorrow and will probably be given another prescription but a huge part of me is scared that they wont.Have any of you used any different techniques to relax-the heart palpitations in particular are relly getting me down as i havent slept much in the last 72 hours.Thanks in advance for any advice you can give me. x

Hi Shelby,

*hugs* I really feel for you, I know how horrible anxiety can be. Maybe the doctor could refer you for counselling? It sounds as though this is a recurring thing for you, and much as I understand about not wanting to talk things over, maybe getting to the bottom of why you keep suffering would be a good thing. Heart palpitations are common in anxiety, but definitely mention them to your doctor as they could be something else.

There are loads of techniques I've been taught to try and relax, such as Rescue Remedy, which is quite effective. Keeping a thought journal helps some people, as you can see what is triggering the anxiety attacks. Deep breathing, I find that taking a deep breath, holding it in my lungs for as long as possible, helps. Your doctor might choose to prescribe different meds, as it doesn't sound like Citalopram is working very well.

Take care,

Lisa x

ElegantlyWasted

Hayley,

Try not to worry about missing your appointment hun, it wasn't your fault. I'm glad your counsellor was nice when you told her

Lisa x

shazrobo

feeling really low and very upset.
after weeks of putting up with my bf always putting me down, he thinks my depression is attention seeking, i rang him tonight, and after trying to be reasonable with him he just got nasty, so i told him i wanted to end it. well he has been so awful, i see no point in carrying on right now, and dont know what to do, cut my arms last night, and now i'm keeping the kids up late, so i dont do anything. would never let them see me self harm.
i still love him, loved the cuddles, been held, loved him being nice, but cannot put up with the nastiness.
now he texting nasty stuff, sayin i let my kids down, he could've been a dad to them, told me i will never get anybody else
sorry for long post., feeling so hurt right now, even tho it was me that dumped him
shaz x

ElegantlyWasted

santashelper wrote: »

sorry to hear how you feel dont let this person get you down just think you are better than they are and try and rise above them

when you feel like this is there something else you could do like punch a pillow or get a punch ball and attack that instead dont let people hurt you that you end up harming yourself i went for anger management and thought why because i dont hurt anyone when i was 14 i self harmed only once but never again my dr told my parents it was because i was crying out for help i learnt to internalize my anger because my parents abandoned my needs it wasnt until a few years ago when i was in my late thirtys i discovered i was taking the anger out on myself and this contributed to my breakdown i know self harming creates a release but if you can find another way to release these feelings it will mean you dont have to harm yourself.

Hope this is of some help, please take care because you sound a really nice person and dont deserve to do this to yourself.

Thank you hun. This made me cry (in a 'how nice are you?!' way). I do try to do other things instead of self-harming, but the problem is that once I'm in that mind-set (and I can go for days in that frame of mind before I cut), there's nothing I can do. Everything I do leaves me frustrated. My partner has a speed ball, and I tried punching that (it skins my knuckles something chronic), but it didn't help.

I know that part of it is the endorphins released upon cutting, and the release and relief that it brings isn't comparable to anything else.

Thank you so much for your lovely words, it really means a lot.

Lisa x

geminilady

ElegantlyWasted wrote: »

Thanks Hayley. I've been painting this afternoon, which is great for helping me to unwind. I have to concentrate on what I'm doing, so can't really think about much else.

I understand about your mum, a very small amount of people know I have depression (mum found out about self harm when I was 15, but thinks I've stopped). Sometimes it's so hard when people don't understand.

Hope it went ok with your counsellor, and take care of yourself.

Lisa x

Hi Lisa,Have you thought of buying a set of paints to use at home? If painting help you unwind then you could get them out when you get the urdge to self harm and see if it helps.