Depression Support Thread

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

What a day I have had today :eek: went to my pottery class and that went fine,then ate my sandwiches and tomato and a drink on a seat in the towncentre I then went to collect prizes from shops that were willing to help me for my daycentres christmas raffle and I was so chuffed to bits because I managed to get the daycentre a Mobile phone and thats so hard to get these days as a donation,I then went to a pub to get their donation of a bottle of wine and put it in my black bag to take over there I then went to Asda to get a prize from them,I lifted up my black bag and oh no Disaster the bottle of Red wine broke and all the wine flowed from my bag to their floor by customer services,I tried so hard not to cry but then the tears just flowed,I felt all eyes by the customers were on me and I felt humiliated.Asda were brilliant and cleaned the floor up for me although I tried to first to clean it.I left then and went back to the pub and explained and they kindly gave me a new bottle of wine which finally is now safely at the daycentre with no more accidents.Had my sausage and chips and watched tv and had a nice bath


love and light,

Katie xxx

ElegantlyWasted

Fantastico - Thank you for the welcome It was a lovely, sunny day in Hudds as well, no sign of snow yet.

Tulip - I'm glad the pub replaced the bottle of wine for you and that ASDA were nice. I'm always the person who breaks things in supermarkets - usually whilst trying to help in some way. I shop online to minimise damages to local shop owners

Tulip

:hello: Lisa,

Yes my local Asda were brilliant called their cleaners to come and clean it for me and they did a brilliant job and the pub was great too alls well thats ends well,So how are you feeling today? hope you had a good day I have just been entering more competitions


I will chat tomorrow now as I feel tired and need to rest

Night! Night!

*hugs* to those that need one


love and light,

Katie xxx

Sugar_Coated_Owl

:hello: all, although I haven't been replying to individual posts I have read them all. I try to read posts on a daily basis.

A big HELLO to all the new posters. I'm sure you've been made to feel welcome already. It sounds like many of us are in need of a hug right now, so here goes...

It's so nice to see people supporting each other when they themselves are going through difficult times.

This week hasn't been that good. My self-harm is pretty bad and I'm cutting deeper than before. My mind/head is all over the place and I just don't feel right in myself. Anxiety is bad and all I want to do is stay in my pyjamas in my house away from the 'real world'. My brother's gf invited me out to town with them tomorrow night but the thought of it makes me feel like being sick. I just can't do it.

I'm so frustrated with failed suicide attempts (overdosing) I so desperately want out.

slowlyfading

RBK, I'm so sorry to hear that things are so bad for you right now. Has something specific happened to make you feel so low at the moment? Be careful when you're cutting, make sure everything is clean etc, though I'm sure you know that already. PM if you want to talk about someone who understands, take care sweetie, ((HUGS)) xx

ElegantlyWasted

RazorBladeKisses - I can completely relate on the self-harm front, I know how it feels when it gets to a point where nothing seems to help, and the failed suicide attempts. I've just had a week where bed was the safest option with regard to anxiety, so I can understand what you're going through. On the other hand, I'm feeling better now, so can kinda see the other side as well, if you know what I mean?

It's late and I'm rambling! If you need an ear, someone not involved or whatever, then please feel free to drop me a PM.

Lisa x

Spikey_2

to all a very good night..sweet dreams... I hope and pray tomorrow is a better day for all of us.....

Spikey_2

HI RBK........long time no speak.......BIG HUGS> xxxxxxxxx

juno

I have deep routed blame issues. I think everything's all my fault, and this is reinforced by my sister and my daddy's actions. Conversely, I tend to go along with things and do as everyone else wants. But then that's kinda because if I do whatever other people want then hopefully things won't go wrong and it won't be my fault. And if they do go wrong, I feel worse because it wasn't what I wanted anyway, and I should be a stronger person and not just go along with things.

I'm still putting myself at risk. I put everyone else above my mental and physical well-being, and this could lead to some bad situations. It has already, kinda minor ones, and that's not right. I just don't know how to get out of it yet. It's hard, because he's family. And that scared me a bit, coz I never thought he'd do it again. But then I never thought he'd do it the first time, either. So maybe he could.

And I've got a lot of uncertainty in my life. I never know when anybody's going to be around, and all I've got to rely on is me. But because of this I'm very isolated, and haven't really got anyone to help, either.

I spend my whole life being scared of doing things wrong. I want to be perfect, and I'm not and i hate it. I'd rather not do something coz that way I've deliberately done it wrong than have everyone see how stupid i am. and i think that's why i self harm too, because i'm bad and evil and must be punished, although I think it's partly for control too. nothing i ever do is good enough. and i know it's crazy, which is why I've never told anyone. i tell myself I'm rubbish a million times a day because I honestly believe that. and i cant see why anyone wants to be my friend because i don't think I'm nice. And everyone says im clever with my A levels but all i think is that I !!!!!! them up, and I'm fat and ugly and horrible.

I just wish everyone could see what a bad person I am and then I could stop pretending.

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,


Hope you are all ok Nice to see you RBK *hugs* hope things get easier for you really soon

I am seeing my family later on today and I am really not doing alot just going to relax and enjoy the weekend


Have a nice weekend everyone

*hugs* to those that need one


love and light,

Katie xxx