Depression Support Thread

ElegantlyWasted

Hi all,

I'm not totally sure why I'm writing this, I think I just need some support...

I've had depression for 9 years, and anxiety for 2 and a half. I'm taking Sertraline at the moment (after Citalopram stole my ability to sleep and eat, and Seroxat made me suicidal). I've only been on it for about a week, so am not expecting to see any improvement, but I'm beginning to wonder if *anything* is going to work.

I'm unemployed, which is having the most horrid effect on my finances, and my well-being overall. I'm constantly applying for jobs, but having no luck. My anxiety stems from a social phobia, so I'm very limited in the type of work I can do.

These past few weeks have been so hard, I've been self-harming a lot more than usual, having panic attacks a few times a day with no reason, and can't bear to be around people. My partner is wonderful, but has her own problems, and I hate to pile these things on other people. It's always been my way to muddle along, and I generally get there in the end. At the minute, though, I just can't see any way out of how I'm feeling, and I need to know that it's going to get better.

My doctor's completely aware of everything that's going on, she doesn't know anything about my past, but then, she's never asked. I had one therapy session late last year, and after that I swore never to go to another session again. The therapist was horrendous, no contracting or anything in the first session.

I don't know where to go from here, and there is nothing quite so scary as that for me.

Sorry to go on,

Lisa x

hayley11

ElegantlyWasted wrote: »

Hi all,

I'm not totally sure why I'm writing this, I think I just need some support...

I've had depression for 9 years, and anxiety for 2 and a half. I'm taking Sertraline at the moment (after Citalopram stole my ability to sleep and eat, and Seroxat made me suicidal). I've only been on it for about a week, so am not expecting to see any improvement, but I'm beginning to wonder if *anything* is going to work.

I'm unemployed, which is having the most horrid effect on my finances, and my well-being overall. I'm constantly applying for jobs, but having no luck. My anxiety stems from a social phobia, so I'm very limited in the type of work I can do.

These past few weeks have been so hard, I've been self-harming a lot more than usual, having panic attacks a few times a day with no reason, and can't bear to be around people. My partner is wonderful, but has her own problems, and I hate to pile these things on other people. It's always been my way to muddle along, and I generally get there in the end. At the minute, though, I just can't see any way out of how I'm feeling, and I need to know that it's going to get better.

My doctor's completely aware of everything that's going on, she doesn't know anything about my past, but then, she's never asked. I had one therapy session late last year, and after that I swore never to go to another session again. The therapist was horrendous, no contracting or anything in the first session.

I don't know where to go from here, and there is nothing quite so scary as that for me.

Sorry to go on,

Lisa x

Hi Lisa

Welcome to the board, don't be sorry about posting hun. I can't offer any constructive advice unfortunately, I don't know much about anything but everyone here is so helpful and supportive, it makes me feel better just knowing I can post on here and that i'm not alone.

Would you ever consider seeing another therapist, to see if you got on with a different one better?

Big hugs hun and I hope you feel better soon.

Hayley x

Tulip

ElegantlyWasted wrote: »

Hi all,

I'm not totally sure why I'm writing this, I think I just need some support...

I've had depression for 9 years, and anxiety for 2 and a half. I'm taking Sertraline at the moment (after Citalopram stole my ability to sleep and eat, and Seroxat made me suicidal). I've only been on it for about a week, so am not expecting to see any improvement, but I'm beginning to wonder if *anything* is going to work.

I'm unemployed, which is having the most horrid effect on my finances, and my well-being overall. I'm constantly applying for jobs, but having no luck. My anxiety stems from a social phobia, so I'm very limited in the type of work I can do.

These past few weeks have been so hard, I've been self-harming a lot more than usual, having panic attacks a few times a day with no reason, and can't bear to be around people. My partner is wonderful, but has her own problems, and I hate to pile these things on other people. It's always been my way to muddle along, and I generally get there in the end. At the minute, though, I just can't see any way out of how I'm feeling, and I need to know that it's going to get better.

My doctor's completely aware of everything that's going on, she doesn't know anything about my past, but then, she's never asked. I had one therapy session late last year, and after that I swore never to go to another session again. The therapist was horrendous, no contracting or anything in the first session.

I don't know where to go from here, and there is nothing quite so scary as that for me.

Sorry to go on,

Lisa x

Hi Lisa,

welcome to the thread you are amongst friends here and we are here to listen and offer support You are not alone


Katie

Tulip

I am off now,

chat tomorrow

Night! Night! everyone


*hugs*

love and light,

Katie xxx

ElegantlyWasted

hayley11 wrote: »

Hi Lisa

Welcome to the board, don't be sorry about posting hun. I can't offer any constructive advice unfortunately, I don't know much about anything but everyone here is so helpful and supportive, it makes me feel better just knowing I can post on here and that i'm not alone.

Would you ever consider seeing another therapist, to see if you got on with a different one better?

Big hugs hun and I hope you feel better soon.

Hayley x

Thank you Hayley (My thanks button has disappeared, or I'd use that too). I'm not too comfortable about seeing another therapist, the other one has really put me off the idea. It took a lot to get me to go anyway, I find it very hard to talk about these things in person. My doctor is pushing me to see a CPN, which is probably a very good idea, but..

I don't want them to come to the house, as my housemates have no idea what's going on (and I'd like it to stay that way). Also, the thought of sitting in a room with someone to talk about myself is terrifying. More so because of the previous therapist. At the moment, my anxiety is such that getting out of bed in the morning is enough to trigger a panic attack.

I do ramble on... Thanks again hun x

ElegantlyWasted

Tulip wrote: »

Hi Lisa,

welcome to the thread you are amongst friends here and we are here to listen and offer support You are not alone


Katie

Thanks Tulip
I definitely needed to hear that.

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Hope all is well,I am fine today,off to college to do pottery got sandwiches to take to eat at lunchtime as I am having sausage and chips from the chippy near home tonight so going up there about 5pm to get them and enjoy them

I hope you all have a lovely day


*hugs* to those that need one


love and light,

Katie xxx

shazrobo

hi everyone, hope you all are well. just had an aromatherapy massage this morning which was wonderfully relaxing, and took my mind off my problems for an hour.
my moods are so unpredictable at the moment, guess because i have a lot going off in my mind, but trying to stay strong for the sake of my children.
big hugs to everyone
shaz x

fantastico_2

Lisa, welcome to the board. We will endeavor to do our best to support you. Bend our ears as much as you like, nobody minds if you have a good moan. This certainly is the place to do it.

Lovely and sunny here today, has anyone got any snow yet?

BigMummaF

Hi Peeps, thought I'd let you know I'm still around:o

I was treated to a lovely meal out on Weds, & I've been trying to recover since:D That's the trouble when you're not used to the high life....comes as a bit of a struggle to get dolled up for a night out.

Can't stop now, but I'll catchas later. Hope everyone is warm & dry, & Peacedful MInd folks. BMFx