Depression Support Thread

hayley11

I'm so down today I don't even know how I'm writing this. I had the worse night ever last night, I caused a stupid arguement with my OH last night by being jealous and paranoid and I just cried and cried for over an hour and I just felt so low, i don't want to be me anymore, I've just had enough. I scratched both my arms up really bad and my OH was crying because he hates it when I hurt myself. And some of the stuff I was saying about how useless and pathetic I am really upset him but I couldn't comfort him because I just wanted to curl up in a ball and die. Last night was the closest i've come to really wanting to hurt myself and i'm glad my OH didn't walk out and leave me alone.

I was supposed to be going to my doctors this afternoon but I don't want to speak to anybody or see anybody. I don't deserve anybody to tell me I'll be okay and it's not my fault i'm like this, it is my fault because I should be stronger and fight it but I don't, because it's easier to be sad.

I'm sorry to post such a miserable message but this is the only place I feel I can be totally honest about how i'm feeling and nobody will be horrible to me.

Take care guys x

fantastico_2

hayley11 wrote: »

I'm so down today I don't even know how I'm writing this. I had the worse night ever last night, I caused a stupid argument with my OH last night by being jealous and paranoid and I just cried and cried for over an hour and I just felt so low, i don't want to be me anymore, I've just had enough. I scratched both my arms up really bad and my OH was crying because he hates it when I hurt myself. And some of the stuff I was saying about how useless and pathetic I am really upset him but I couldn't comfort him because I just wanted to curl up in a ball and die. Last night was the closest I've come to really wanting to hurt myself and I'm glad my OH didn't walk out and leave me alone.

I was supposed to be going to my doctors this afternoon but I don't want to speak to anybody or see anybody. I don't deserve anybody to tell me I'll be okay and it's not my fault I'm like this, it is my fault because I should be stronger and fight it but I don't, because it's easier to be sad.

I'm sorry to post such a miserable message but this is the only place I feel I can be totally honest about how I'm feeling and nobody will be horrible to me.

Take care guys x

H,

You are really going through a rough time luv, but i do think that it would be a good idea to keep the doctors appointment this afternoon and try and talk to your doc. Doesn't matter if you cant get talk as freely as you can on here, try and have a chat about what happened last night. You cant be strong all the time and it sounds as though you need your batteries recharging, i wish it was as simple as plugging yourself into a wall for a couple of hours but we all know it isn't. Being sad is easy, yet it probably drains your energy both physically and emotionally twice as much as being happy. Try and take some time out and go for a walk and feed some ducks or birds perhaps do this on the way back from the doctors later. I know my advice is rubbish, but i hope Ive helped you.

Luv H

xx

hayley11

fantastico wrote: »

H,

You are really going through a rough time luv, but i do think that it would be a good idea to keep the doctors appointment this afternoon and try and talk to your doc. Doesn't matter if you cant get talk as freely as you can on here, try and have a chat about what happened last night. You cant be strong all the time and it sounds as though you need your batteries recharging, i wish it was as simple as plugging yourself into a wall for a couple of hours but we all know it isn't. Being sad is easy, yet it probably drains your energy both physically and emotionally twice as much as being happy. Try and take some time out and go for a walk and feed some ducks or birds perhaps do this on the way back from the doctors later. I know my advice is rubbish, but i hope Ive helped you.

Luv H

xx

It's not rubbish, it's really good advice, thanks hun. I've already cancelled the doctors appointment I just couldn't face getting there on my own today, i'm going to go on Friday with my OH. I'm seeing my counsellor tomorrow so I'll tell her all about it and see what she says.

My OH just popped home on his dinner and has cheered me up a bit, still feel so down, I wish I could just snap out of it. I hope these tablets kick in soon.

Thanks again H xx

slowlyfading

The water has finally turned back on so I've just been able to go to the toilet. Not having a good day at all! but never mind. -hugs- for everyone. x

shazrobo

big hugs for those who are having a hard time today, hopefully tommorrow will be easier.
had a good day myself today, been out and bought a couple of xmas pressies. be glad when its all done, it'll be another weight off my mind, hate the shops when they are so busy, as i cannot deal with crowded places.
big hugs to all
shaz x

fantastico_2

hayley11 wrote: »

It's not rubbish, it's really good advice, thanks hun. I've already cancelled the doctors appointment I just couldn't face getting there on my own today, i'm going to go on Friday with my OH. I'm seeing my counsellor tomorrow so I'll tell her all about it and see what she says.

My OH just popped home on his dinner and has cheered me up a bit, still feel so down, I wish I could just snap out of it. I hope these tablets kick in soon.

Thanks again H xx

Im glad you are going to the doctors later in the week. You are very fortunate to have someone close to go with you, i say this as i dont have an OH. I wish i did. Hope all goes well with your councellor tommorrow, it will do you good to just get off your chest what has been happening to you this last week. I went the doctors earlier as i pulled a muscle in my chest last week and it really aches, almost convinced myself i was having a heart attack whilst i was having a panic attack. I drive myself up the wall sometimes, okay i do it most of the time lol.

Im sat on the bed listening to my mp3, i must change some of the music i got on there now. I might put some christmas music on there Lol.

Have a lovely evening to all.

H

xx

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,


Well I didnt make it to college today because I have had a sore eye for a while,I went to the doctors to see if they had a spare appointment for later today,all full and I was told to ring tomorrow morning,I went off to Boots who said go to an opticians so did that as well,they rang another Boots in another town who said sorry No Clinic today.I was in dispair and I was crying so went to my local church and a friend rang a hospital and the hospital said to bring me down there and a friend kindly took me in her car

It ends up with me having conjunctivitus in my left eye with eyedrops to make it better,Its just so hard not to rub my eye but I mustnt no matter how strong the urge is as I am spreading it.I am having a rest this evening,while at the church before I went to the hospital I let college know but they hadnt got the message because their mobile phones were switched off

Katie

juno

I spent all day being sick, and then work rang me and wanted me to go in. They sounded desperate, so I went. Luckily I wasn#'t sick over any of the customers!

meyore

Hi all hope everyone is feeling alright today.

Sorry I haven't been around for a while, my lovely boyfriend was back for a few weeks and I was making the most of having him around again.

Sadly he has gone back, but I'm trying to stay positive.

We decided a while back that we wanted to get married so we could live together (he's in the army, not me being old fashioned), but I'd been putting off telling my mum. We're very close, but I wasn't sure if she'd be happy with this as it'll involve me moving far, far away. Turns out she was thrilled, I guess I was just being oversensitive and she'd always want whats best for me.

Its a weight off my shoulders though. Hope everyone else is too

Feeling so tired and my memories gone all rubbish again, but other than that I'm ok.

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Hope all is well,I am fine today eye slightly better with the eyedrops It is still sore but I only started applying the drops yesterday

I am going to my parents for lunch today and having Sausage and Mash with onions

chat later on

*hugs* to those that need one

Meyore glad your Mum is thrilled for you about the wedding


Katie