Depression Support Thread

lisa_martin_2

I dont know how I feel I don't think I even know who I am. I feel embarressed because of me. My husband says I dont do anything embarressing. But I always feel embarressed. I dont know why. Like today I just want to go away because I asked a neighbour who was awake at 1.45am for a ciggerette

feelinggood_2

lisa_martin wrote: »

I dont know how I feel I don't think I even know who I am. I feel embarressed because of me. My husband says I dont do anything embarressing. But I always feel embarressed. I dont know why. Like today I just want to go away because I asked a neighbour who was awake at 1.45am for a ciggerette

Are you being treated for depression at the moment?

I often feel embarrased - I hate social situations, and avoid answering the door, picking up the phone and going out. For me, I've got to force myself to do it, and put up with how I feel. Everyone says that if you keep doing things you get used to them, so I'm testing that theory.

I think some talking therapies can help with low self-esteem, have you asked your doctor about this?

lisa_martin_2

Thank you for talking to me, life is just soooooooooo hard at the moment, yes i am being treated for depression, I dont take anto-d's because after 12 years of being the same I have decided I can't mask the issuses with pills. I have my first CPN visit next friday, she is comimg to my house because like you, I cannot leave the house most days. I can't answer fone or door.

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

feelinggood_2

lisa_martin wrote: »

Thank you for talking to me, life is just soooooooooo hard at the moment, yes i am being treated for depression, I dont take anto-d's because after 12 years of being the same I have decided I can't mask the issuses with pills. I have my first CPN visit next friday, she is comimg to my house because like you, I cannot leave the house most days. I can't answer fone or door.

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Maybe it'd be a good idea to make a note of how you are feeling to show the CPN? I find that at appointments I get all flustered and forget half of what I was supposed to say.

In the past 8 weeks I've been making a real effort with leaving the house - I've been going to lots of Alcoholics Anonymous meetings, and I've managed to walk to/from a few meetings. I also went out for the day with a lady I met, and have spoken on the phone a few times. Its still incredibly hard, but I'm making progress, which is a good thing.

Hopefully the CPN visit will help, its something to focus on at least. I'm focusing on my pychiartist appointment - it helps me to know that I've got an appointment, it feels less hopeless.

I can understand feeling 'Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh' - I've been having a lot of days like that at the moment, and its horrible isn't it. I find that making sure I have three healthy meals a day, go to bed at a normal time and try to do something nice like have a hot bubble bath helps. Watching a good film or something on TV can help to distract myself too.

lisa_martin_2

I am just soooooooooooo selfish. I am sitting here browsing for somewhere to stay the night because i dont want to be here. Hubby is trying to reason with me, I can see his point, but I just dont want to stay here!!!

I can understand everything you are saying with regards to how I feel. I know im not alone. But why do I feel so alone??

feelinggood_2

lisa_martin wrote: »

I am just soooooooooooo selfish. I am sitting here browsing for somewhere to stay the night because i dont want to be here. Hubby is trying to reason with me, I can see his point, but I just dont want to stay here!!!

I can understand everything you are saying with regards to how I feel. I know im not alone. But why do I feel so alone??

I think a lot of us feel alone.

Can you explain why you don't want to spend the night there, or do you just want to remove yourself from a place that is associated with being unhappy at the moment?

Instead of you trying to get away, could you and hubby find somewhere together? Maybe go and visit family for the weekend, or just get a night in a B&B so you can spend some time together?

lisa_martin_2

I think its because I spend so much time in here that I need to get away to feel better, sounds daft doesn't it?

Have just spoke to husband and I have agreed to go out over to a small seaside village that I LOVE its quiet and tranquill, He is going to take me there where If I want I can be quiet.

Hubby helps me get back with it when I have a anxiety attack. Dont really know where id be without him.

su4stu

I stumbled across here by accident searching for something else and wondered if anyone could offer any advice? I started suffering from depression 14 years ago after the birth of my 1st child and the attempted suicide of my much loved brother. I was convinced everyone was trying to kill me and refused medication as I thought the doctor was in on it. I fell pregnant quite quickly after my daughter was born and I think a combination of that and seeing a nurse helped me recover. I was reasonably well for the next 5 years until a neighbour sexually assaulted my 5 year old and again I ended up clinically depressed. It took a few years but eventually I managed to wean myself off the medication and felt ok about life. Then in May of last year my brother finally succeeded in killing himself and since then I am finding life unbearable. I am back on the medication (setraline 200mg) and see a Psychiatrist but feel unable to cope with my black moods and feelings of paranoia and worthlesness. I wonder if anyone else who maybe has been in a similar situation could offer any sort of advice as to where I go from here?

betterlatethannever

I hope everyones ok after the recent 'blip'
It maked me realise how much i rely on sites like this, just to get me through a day..
Hugs to all. xx

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

A big Group *hug* to all,I havent half missed everyone while this site was down but I am so glad to be back again feels like I just went on holiday :rotfl: I have been fine and treated myself to 2 pc games of Pippa Funnell and her horses and Pawly Pets in Africa and I got the dvd The Reef,so in total I spent £15 on me and I loved it,I had saved that for weeks hope everyone has been well


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Katie xxx