Depression Support Thread

Tulip

su4stu wrote: »

I stumbled across here by accident searching for something else and wondered if anyone could offer any advice? I started suffering from depression 14 years ago after the birth of my 1st child and the attempted suicide of my much loved brother. I was convinced everyone was trying to kill me and refused medication as I thought the doctor was in on it. I fell pregnant quite quickly after my daughter was born and I think a combination of that and seeing a nurse helped me recover. I was reasonably well for the next 5 years until a neighbour sexually assaulted my 5 year old and again I ended up clinically depressed. It took a few years but eventually I managed to wean myself off the medication and felt ok about life. Then in May of last year my brother finally succeeded in killing himself and since then I am finding life unbearable. I am back on the medication (setraline 200mg) and see a Psychiatrist but feel unable to cope with my black moods and feelings of paranoia and worthlesness. I wonder if anyone else who maybe has been in a similar situation could offer any sort of advice as to where I go from here?

:hello:,

welcome to the thread,you can post as often or as little as you like I cannot advise you I am afraid but I am sure that someone will be along on here to advise instead

*hugs*

love and light,

Katie xxx

geminilady

Tulip wrote: »

:hello: Everyone,

A big Group *hug* to all,I havent half missed everyone while this site was down but I am so glad to be back again feels like I just went on holiday :rotfl: I have been fine and treated myself to 2 pc games of Pippa Funnell and her horses and Pawly Pets in Africa and I got the dvd The Reef,so in total I spent £15 on me and I loved it,I had saved that for weeks hope everyone has been well


love and light,

Katie xxx

Hi Tulip:hello: Its great to be back isn't it.I really missed the forum but kept myself busy read a book by Deen Koonz one of my favourite authors and watched a great dvd called Perfect stranger starring Bruce willis really enjoyed it because i did not guess the end love films like that.Hope you enjoy playing your games and watching the Reef.

Tulip

geminilady wrote: »

Hi Tulip:hello: Its great to be back isn't it.I really missed the forum but kept myself busy read a book by Deen Koonz one of my favourite authors and watched a great dvd called Perfect stranger starring Bruce willis really enjoyed it because i did not guess the end love films like that.Hope you enjoy playing your games and watching the Reef.

I loved playing the Games and seeing The Reef thanks,they kept me busy and out of mischeif for a while :rotfl:

chat tomorrow everyone,so glad to be back to those I havent seen yet chat soon

Night! Night!

love and light,

Katie xxx

Tiff_2

TIFF... TIFF... TIFF...

Hi guys!:hello:
I should think so too! The Tiffster was about to go nuclear -:eek: - messing with our MSE site indeed!!!

WELCOME HOME GUYS!

I hope we all made it through our crisis safe and sound.
Been fretting about my Tifflings!

I guess we just discovered internet piracy, guys.
Three cheers for :money: Martin & the :money: Crew!

Huge fluffy Tiffy hugs to everyone, especially those with something to face today. And good luck with the counselling tonight sazzy! Missed you all, guys.

Right. Where was I before I was so rudely interrupted?

Oh and btw - you're all grounded!:D
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

queensway_boy

Welcome back everyone:j


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dawnylou

Oh my god! I am so glad that the forum is back I can feel tears welling up out of relief!!!


I didn't realise how much I needed this forum until it was very nearly gone!
Because of the !!!!!!!s who did this I have had to struggle along alone.
My Fiance went away for the weekend so I was alone - longest we have been apart for over 8 years - and had my medication doubled too.

Been on my own for so long and not having the forum at the same time made me see that I need you all!

Luckily a friend found out I was on my own and came round Sat tea time til Sunday lunch time so that took my mind of things a bit.


I hope everyone is well and that everyone coped without the forum over the last few days.


xxx

dawnylou

QWB - just for you:

Tiff_2

su4stu!
Typical, isn't it hun?! I'm sorry you posted just before the site went down. You're very welcome here angel and will find lots of support and experience from the wonderful peeps here.:T :A

quote=su4stu;
I stumbled across here by accident searching for something else and wondered if anyone could offer any advice?
That's how most of us find this thread su.;)

I started suffering from depression 14 years ago after the birth of my 1st child and the attempted suicide of my much loved brother. I was convinced everyone was trying to kill me and refused medication as I thought the doctor was in on it. I fell pregnant quite quickly after my daughter was born and I think a combination of that and seeing a nurse helped me recover. I was reasonably well for the next 5 years until a neighbour sexually assaulted my 5 year old and again I ended up clinically depressed.
You've had a terrible amount of trauma over a long period of time su. The very fact that you're still here is not only a blessing, but shows you that you're a real survivor.
After each of these events, somehow you managed to build your life again. :T

If there's one thing I'd like to say at this point angel, it's that after reading your post, I can see you still have that strength inside you. You have an insight which will help you look back and recognize all the signs and symptoms and that gives you a better chance of fighting back again hunnie.

It took a few years but eventually I managed to wean myself off the medication and felt ok about life. Then in May of last year my brother finally succeeded in killing himself and since then I am finding life unbearable. I am back on the medication (setraline 200mg) and see a Psychiatrist but feel unable to cope with my black moods and feelings of paranoia and worthlesness. I wonder if anyone else who maybe has been in a similar situation could offer any sort of advice as to where I go from here?/quote
The loss of your brother must have been truly devastating sweetheart - I'm so sorry.

I've also been subject to multiple traumas in my life su and can relate to what you're saying.
The way you're going to get through this, is how you got through the other traumas hunnie - a day at a time or an hour at a time. Hold on tightly to the fact that you can recover su - you've proven it before!

You're doing the best thing by seeing the psychiatrist for help, su hun. That was brave and smart. They are the ones with access to different programmes and services and support. They also know you and your history and that's important.;)

Right now, you're still recovering from the impact of your brother's suicide. You're grieving and everything is raw. Don't let these feelings frighten you sweetheart - they're all very natural. There's no time limit to grief su, and it can come over you in waves, and in different forms.

You're a mum of two and a brilliant example for them, whether you realise it or not. They've seen the fighter in you angel and that will stand them in good stead.
Try and focus on the life in them, su. It will help you focus on your own life and give you more strength to find your answers. You obviously love them dearly and children can be a powerful source of support, determination and inspiration for your future. To see the life in them gives you hope and allows you to feel love.
Also hun, the day-to-day duties of being a mum can be really theraputic in helping to distract you from low moods & keeping you busy.
Use your children as the anchor to your life su - something to fight for.;)

I feel you're asking two things in your post angel - not only where do I go from here, but also asking for reassurance. As much as I'm able to sweetheart, (I'm not any kind of expert), I can reassure you that there's every chance of you finding your feet again.

Practical things can help. However, before you follow through on anything, discuss it all with your psychiatrist first, su. They are the experts and will know where to guide you and what you're ready for.;)

Below are some specialist links I collected:

Have you tried any counselling with CRUSE, angel? This may be an option when you're ready hun. Here's their national link:
http://www.crusebereavementcare.org.uk/

Survivors of Bereavement by Suicide
tel: 0870 241 3337
email: [EMAIL="sobs.support@care4free.net"]sobs.support@care4free.net[/EMAIL]
website: www.uk-sobs.org.uk

http://www.mind.org.uk/Information/Factsheets/Suicide/#The_effect_of_suicide_on_others_

http://www.mind.org.uk/Information/Booklets/Understanding/Understanding+bereavement.htm

http://www.papyrus-uk.org/for-you.html

http://www.samaritans.org.uk/

I haven't used these sites su, so I can't vouch for them personally.

I don't feel like I've been much help hunnie, but if nothing else, you've spoken up and there'll be so much support for you. You should feel really proud of that angel. For what it's worth su, you've done all the right things so far and I hope time will be kind to you and help you heal as soon as possible. Be kind to yourslf hun - a day at a time ok?
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

geminilady

queensway_boy wrote: »

Welcome back everyone:j


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Welcome back QB :hello: :hello: :hello: :hello:

su4stu

Thanks so much Tiff, you did help, even if just to reassure me that I'm not going mad! I feel like I am constantly searching for a way to cope, especially with my brothers suicide and reading your kind words made me realise that I'm not alone and that others have gone through similar. I cried when I read your post as you sounded so genuine and so caring and that helps too.:A